Sometimes when you think you have failed or something seems like a hindrance, only for it to later turn out to be a blessing in disguise—that is God working for you. This happens to me quite frequently, and when it does, I am reminded that worrying has never changed anything! Despite what others may think of me, I really don't worry much, even though I talk about the issues or problems I am facing. This helps my mind come up with solutions, and it helps me to stay calm in the throws of a crisis—mental or otherwise. It is a complicated process that isn't easily explained, but it works for me. I spent the past week preparing everything I wanted to sell at Brown's Junk in the Trunk Sale that was to take place on the Sunday before Christmas. During the previous month, I had a good experience at the sale and it really helped me financially, but I was still undecided if I wanted to participate in this one for a few reasons. I wondered if I could at least break even with the items I had left to sell considering there was a small charge of $15. I could not afford to lose $15 in cash. The weather was predicted to be very cold, near 40º F in the morning, but rising to the mid 60º F range by mid morning. There was a slight chance of rain. It was just before Christmas, on a Sunday which is not their typical flea market day, and I wasn't sure there would be enough shoppers interested in my items. Thankfully, I didn't have to make a decision until 7:00 AM on the day of the sale. I considered how I was going to pay for the upcoming bills and for food. The items listed on Marketplace would surely help cover those costs, if they sold in time. It was possible someone in the world would see my GoFundMe and donate. Neither was guaranteed, so I really had to focus and do everything I could to be prepared to go. I was able to find more items to sell in the bins that are still waiting to be unpacked. I felt accomplished with each bin I emptied, even if I wasn't going to sell all of the items I had uncovered. I decided to sell most of my jewelry, including my jewelry box. Here is where it got interesting, and a bit confusing. I am thankful I will be talking with my therapist in a couple of weeks. Some of the jewelry I didn't recognize, nor was it my style. I also found a small box of ammunition, but I have never, with good reason, owned a gun. I don't recall buying so much Premier Designs jewelry! I counted at least fifteen pieces! Premier Designs sold high fashion jewelry through independent distributors across America from 1985 until closing at the end of 2020. Buying Premier jewelry was similar to buying Avon, Home Interior or Tupperware back in the day—through direct sale parties! I am sure the jewelry I bought was only to show support. I think I remember the hostess' name, but not how I knew her, where we met, or even where the party was held. I had zero attachment to the pieces, so listed them on Marketplace. I had to figure out how I could display them if I decided to participate in the flea market. Within a short time, I remembered my bulletin board that I had leaned up against the wall. There was a variety of items attached with push pins that I no longer needed for inspiration. I wanted to remove the items for years, but couldn't—they were that special. I was ready now, and I made the jewelry display from the cork board, blind slats, and my business cards. I had it in my mind that I had to make enough money to pay two bills due a few days after Christmas. With this in mind, I loaded my car on Saturday night to go to the sale on Sunday. I was down to four small potatoes and one ramen pack to eat with no way to buy more until 26 December. God was providing a way for me to meet my obligations. This was a pop-up sale date voted on by sellers and buyers, and I wasn't about to miss the only other chance of making the money I needed. I also noted to myself, if it is God's will that I not attend the sale, money will come in prior to my early morning departure. I arrived at the sale, paid my fee, and was happily surprised that not arriving at 6:00 AM and instead arriving closer to 7:30 AM turned out to be an advantage. The land where the sale is held is on a farm. The sellers are typically setup on the lower back forty, and the buyers park in the field closer to the road. The first sellers to arrive are normally parked closest to buyer parking with later arrivals further away. That is how it was setup for the first sale I attended. However, this time sellers and buyers were all together on the upper field which they did announce, I just didn't know what it meant. They filled up the furthest rows first and worked their way back towards the road. This would make sure all sellers had a spot on the upper field before opening the rest of the field closest to the road to buyers for parking. I was set up right next to the buyers parking lot! During set-up time, venders walk around for first dibs on items. I set up my table and had to put my clothes rack and shoe rack together. The wind began to whip, so when the clothes rack was blown over, I had to reposition it. I was so appreciative a passerby offered his help to move it next to the table for support and suggested I put a heavy item on it's base! As I was unloading, I was thinking about prices. I had in mind what I wanted to get for each item, and I was willing to negotiate on some of the items. The jewelry I hadn't yet offered to the public, so I knew I wanted to stick to my prices for the most part. I put up a sign near the jewelry display about my engagement ring being available, but I kept it in the car, and pulled it out if someone asked to see it—there would be many compliments on its beauty starting with my first customer. A guy walked up right when I put my jewelry display out. I was really excited when he bought two pieces, and also gave me some solicited information on some of the other pieces that I had in my possession, but not in my memory. Another man, Mike, came buy and purchased one of the rings I had no recollection of owning. He offered a lower amount, and I told him truthfully that I needed the money to buy food. He offered some advice about a place I could get food, and paid me the price I was asking for the ring. With my seller fee already recouped before the event even opened to the public, I thought, "Today is already a victory—if I sell nothing else, that is okay!" Once the sale opened at 9:00 AM, I had people steadily stopping to browse for the first couple of hours, but then it slowed down quite a bit. I didn't hand out many cards because it didn't seem like the right crowd for the most part. A few times, long after the person moved on, I would remember I had my blog cards to hand out. I was grateful to be able to sell some things that were seasonal, since the season is nearly over! Many people looked at the jewelry, but mistakenly thought I was the dollar store. I had many genuine positive comments on many of the items I had at my spot, but it would take the right buyer to make a sale! A few people had looked at the GorillaLine I was selling, but the line wasn't long enough for their needs. It worked out in the end when one of the market workers stopped by making her rounds, and while thanking me for coming, spotted the GorillaLine! I gave her a deeply discounted price on it—a tip of sorts. A wonderful man named Jose stopped by towards the end of the sale and only five minutes after I remembered I wanted to sell a watch with no band, but left it in the car. I had found it in my jewelry box. It was a man's quartz watch that was not working, I knew nothing about it, and I had never seen it before. The face was black and it appeared to have a small diamond at the top. Jose was 84 years old, and came to America as a young adult in 1965. His Dad was born in 1914 and served in World War II, but lost his Dad about twenty years ago. Jose lived in California for the better part of his life, but he and his daughter now live in Florida. He was married for 50 years until his wife passed away. He also has quite a few family members that served in the military. I appreciate their sacrifice for my freedom. I really enjoyed our chat. Let me tell you about the nice people I had on either side of me! The person to my left made 3D printer items. What he did with a 3D printer looked amazing and really cool, even though I couldn't fully appreciate the items—they were for the younger Pokémon generation. He may have had other pieces, but I didn't look close because I knew I had no money to spend! I went over and talked to him for a moment. He anticipated making back the cost of the purchase of the 3D printer in about a year. I hope he continues to prosper because he is very talented and all the customers raved about his creations! I wish I was more of a raver, but internally I was really in awe. He mentioned that he commissions custom pieces, too. Check out his Instagram — fascinating stuff, Daniel! Click the Link or Scan the QR code To the right was a guy that was full of energy, a bit sarcastic, and even snarky at times. He had a lot of bright yellow and red 'All Prices Negotiable...' signs and many catch phrases like, "There may be a price on there, but you are NOT going to pay full price, I won't let you!" or this exchange, "How are you?" "Not very good, I'm still here!" He was selling a lot of workshop or home improvement tools , ladders, a door, a hand-truck etcetera. He started packing up at 1:00 PM, even though sellers weren't allowed to leave until 2:00 PM. I think he had enough room to pull out at two, but waited until I finished packing up about five minutes later. I was able to load everything up without too much trouble. I was thinking as I was placing each piece in my car as if it was a puzzle to be solved, "Wow, all those moves over the years have really prepared me for this moment right here!" Before I left, I told him I appreciated him being next to me and goodbye. The weather turned out to be quite breezy, but beautiful! I got a bit of sun on my face and opposite arm from last time—it is all evened out now! When I got home, I counted all the money I made, and was thankful I was only about $5.00 short for the bills, but still had no money for food. I went up to Marketplace and immediately discounted many of the prices—especially on the jewelry. I signed into my bank, and the balance was larger than expected. Apparently, I had already accounted for one of the bills due right after Christmas! I am not totally convinced, but I can't think of any thing else outstanding that hasn't come back! Instead, the figure I had in my head before the sale included three bills and two automatic withdrawals due after the first of the month, but a week before I receive my check. This means I had made enough cash for those bills and withdrawals and had money for food for about a week! I thank God for everything working out! This morning, after I went to pick up my groceries, and went to the bank to deposit the cash, I received a message about the jewelry box I had listed. Sara was out of town, and asked if I could hold it for over a week because she wanted to purchase it for a young girl. I first explained I really couldn't because I needed it for bills and food—which I will in two weeks. She said she understood, but then one of those Godly whispers urged me to reconsider. God provided for me this week. I have food and my bills will be paid. I should not worry about tomorrow, and this jewelry box may be just what this woman and young girl need. I was hesitant to even sell it as I have had over half of my life. I messaged her back almost immediately, told her I would hold it, and mark it pending. This flea market turned out to be more than just a means to make money. It is the catalyst that is needed to propel me into 2025 with a new outlook on life. This is a time of letting go—of things and of people. Removing the items from sight on the bulletin board was a good start. Whether it was little notes from colleagues, artwork created for me, small gifts that had significant meaning, or a reminder of awards I had won and the son I had lost, all held great importance at one time. Items, once a source of inspiration and a visual reminder, now hold a place in my heart, stored away in a box. The jewelry box—it was just storage for jewelry I never wore, and had been packed away in a bin for the last four years. The previous ten years, I kept it in my closet. The few pieces of jewelry that are important to me or I wear, I keep in a separate place. The jewelry box has been a part of my life, even when hidden in a bin, or on a shelf, traveling from address to new address. Yes, it was beautiful, and served a purpose, but in the end, despite its beauty—it is only a piece of wood, if it isn't cherished as it should be. Letting go of this jewelry box is symbolic of letting go of people who no longer cherish me or see my worth. It is ironic that the sale will take place on December 31. Goodbye 2024. Isaiah 58:11 "The Lord will guide you always; he will satisfy your needs in a sun-scorched land and will strengthen your frame. You will be like a well-watered garden, like a spring whose waters never fail."

Today, I sold my engagement ring. Even though it brought a tear to my eye and a sadness to my heart, the money will help me on the way to the life I deserve. After over a year of holding on with hope of a reconciliation, I’m finally ready to let go and welcome what is next. Growth comes from within, and I’ve learned through some serious reflection that no amount of hope or effort can force another to look within. Time gave me the strength to grow while accepting that not everyone is capable of the same. Years ago, I felt as though change should be avoided, thinking it signified weakness, failure, or that something was wrong or broken. I often said, "God made this way, talk to Him!" However, I know now that change is an essential part of growth. I will still comment, "I was born this way!" when someone points out an area of perceived weakness, but I am all about defending my stance or changing for improvement. The discomfort that comes with change is simply the process of stretching beyond what is familiar, allowing me to become stronger and more resilient. It is not about losing my identity, but about evolving and becoming the best version of myself. God gave me free will and a mind to lead, not to follow someone else's idea of what my relationship with Him should be. I prayed for certain traits in a man, and trusting in God's will, this relationship seemed to be the answer to those prayers. I still believe it was fate, set in motion by God, but maybe it was God's way of showing me that, even though He gave me everything I asked for, there is more to consider in a person. It took time for me to understand and accept all the red flags that others saw from the start. Leaving me at one of the most difficult times of my life, when I was physically, mentally, and financially at my worst, said more about them than it ever did about me. I didn’t give up on myself or on us. In the end, I didn’t lose anything but time. What was lost by walking away from our relationship and me will be measured by God—and only He knows the weight of it. What was taken from me has already been replaced. Now, with the sale of the ring, I’m stepping into the future without looking back. What was once taken—confidence, self-worth, peace of mind—has been replaced with something greater. Emotional stability and trust in my own judgment are stronger than ever. Joy fills my everyday moments again, and I am not just restored, but empowered. God wanted me to understand that a person may possess all of the qualities I desire, but still not be the right person for me. I should trust Him more deeply—He already knows the man who will be right for me and is preparing us both for each other. If you've experienced personal growth after a breakup and have a story to share, I’d love to hear it. Challenges can lead to some of the most important growth and the greatest transformations. Feel free to Get in Touch or send in a Submission —your experience could inspire someone else who is facing the same struggle. Ecclesiastes 3:6 "A time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away."

Merry Christmas to all, wherever you may be!  Whether you’re celebrating today or simply taking time to reflect, I hope this season brings peace and joy to your heart. If Christmas isn’t part of your tradition, that’s perfectly okay. Feel free to explore other posts on my blog—perhaps my poem on hypocrisy may resonate with you. Thank you for being here, and may you find something that speaks to you in these words. Merry Christmas (English) Arabic - عيد ميلاد مجيد (Eid Milad Majid) Chinese - 圣诞快乐 (Shèngdàn kuàilè) Esperanto - Feliĉan Kristnaskon French - Joyeux Noël German - Frohe Weihnachten Greek - Καλά Χριστούγεννα (Kalá Christoúgenna) Hawaiian - Mele Kalikimaka Hindi - क्रिसमस मुबारक हो (Krismas Mubarak Ho) Indonesian - Selamat Natal Italian - Buon Natale Japanese - メリークリスマス (Merī Kurisumasu) Korean - 메리 크리스마스 (Meri Keuriseumaseu) Latin - Felicem Natalem Christi Māori - Meri Kirihimete Norwegian (Bokmål) - God Jul Polish - Wesołych Świąt Portuguese (Brazil) - Feliz Natal Russian - С Рождеством Христовым (S Rozhdestvom Khristovym) Spanish - Feliz Navidad Swedish - God Jul Ukrainian - З Різдвом Христовим (Z Rizdvom Khrystovym) Vietnamese - Giáng Sinh Vui Vẻ Zulu - Sikhumbuzo Sokuphila or Ukhisimusi Omuhle I hope these greetings are correct! It is Christmas, so let's forgive the translation services that are not always accurate! Like misfit toys, I fixed some that were not correct! If you would like to make a correction, Get in Touch ! Interested in writing a post about any topic in your native tongue, feel free to send in a submission —I would love to post it! Best wishes for a wonderful New Year! Bring on 2025! Matthew 2:10-11 When they saw the star, they were overjoyed. On coming to the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh.

In a small town lived a nameless woman, her face worn from years of hardship, her eyes holding stories of silent battles. Though she never asked for much, it seemed the world always asked much of her. Her heart, once filled with joy, was now heavy with worry, her lips longing to shout with laughter once more. Her needs were simple—food, shelter, hope—but they weighed on her like a mountain. She prayed often, her voice breaking under the weight of each word, "How long, Lord? How long must I wait?" The Ones Who Walked Past Some saw her and turned away. They whispered, "It’s not our problem," or, "She should’ve planned better." They clutched their purses tighter, not in malice but in fear that giving would leave them with less. These were the ones who, with good intentions, said, "Stay warm, be well," and yet offered nothing more than words. The Hesitant Giver Then there was a man who noticed her struggle, but his heart wavered. He told himself, "I’ll give when I have more," but that day never seemed to come. He passed her every day, feeling the tug in his heart but not enough to open his hand. Yet even in his hesitation, he couldn’t escape the gnawing thought: What if that was me? The Generous Heart There was a woman, too, who had little to give but gave anyway. She had once been in the nameless woman’s shoes, and she understood the depth of need. "I give not because I have much," she whispered to herself, "but because I remember what it’s like to have nothing." She shared what she could—a loaf of bread, a kind word, a listening ear. Her gift was small, but to the nameless woman, it was everything. That small act lifted her, if only for a moment, from her despair. The nameless woman felt her spirit stir, the weight on her chest lift slightly. God is near,  she thought, even if just for today. The Reluctant Helper Another man, well-off and known for his charitable deeds, saw the nameless woman and hesitated. He had helped many before, but something about her situation seemed too messy, too complicated. "I’ll help someone else," he thought, "someone whose need is clearer, less burdened by their own mistakes." He didn’t judge her openly but turned his back all the same, thinking his indifference would go unnoticed. The One Who Gave Freely Then came a stranger, someone who had never met the nameless woman before. She did not know her story, did not question why she was in need. She simply saw a fellow human in pain and reached out. With no hesitation, she gave—not just food, but time, compassion, and dignity. "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted," she thought, and in that closeness, she knew her purpose. The nameless woman, for the first time in a long time, felt seen, not as a burden but as someone worthy of love. Her cries had not gone unheard after all. In the days that followed, the nameless woman’s struggles did not disappear. But the memory of those who gave her more than charity—those who gave her a piece of their heart—stayed with her. Each small gift, each act of kindness, became a reminder that though the world may often turn away, there are always those who hear the call to lift up the needy. And for the nameless woman, that was enough to keep going.

Click to open or close introduction I started a GoFundMe campaign to help me through a difficult time. The kindness and generosity of others has come right when I needed it, allowing me to survive so far. Writing these weekly updates for the campaign reminded me how much writing helps me process my thoughts. I have had other websites and blogs in the past, but I always deleted them when irrational thoughts took over. I started this website years ago, and decided to revamp it—I am very happy I did! I trust someone can find both inspiration and hope from what I’ve been through this past year. Reading through these updates helps me see the progress I've made, especially compared to the low point when I started in Oct 2023. Although I have come a long way, I am still struggling. GoFundMe started automatically sending updates to previous donors which feels manipulative. Going forward, all updates will only be posted on this blog. Below are the updates I've shared during 2024, starting with the most recent update at the end of the year working backwards to the very first update. 2023 updates can be found here 2025 updates can be found here The Latest GoFundMe Update 2024 25 December 2024 Merry Christmas!  In Matthew 2:10-11, the Magi are not only celebrating Jesus’ birth with their hearts but also with their actions—offering valuable gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh. These gifts symbolize not just respect and honor but also the recognition of Jesus’ divine kingship and the significance of His life and mission: Gold  symbolized kingship and the recognition of Jesus as the King of the Jews. Frankincense  was used in worship and represented His divinity, acknowledging that He was the Son of God. Myrrh , often used in embalming, foreshadowed Jesus’ death and His sacrificial purpose. Their celebration is a powerful expression of honor and reverence, combining joy, worship, and material gifts in a fitting tribute to the newborn Savior. It highlights the importance of celebrating Jesus, not just spiritually, but in all aspects of life, including through tangible expressions of love and reverence. Happy Birthday, Jesus! Although things have improved drastically from where I first began, I am still struggling and would like to continue to thrive. Please find it in your heart to make a small donation, whether it is $10 or $10,000, it is all relative and very much appreciated. Matthew 2:10-11 "When they saw the star, they were overjoyed. On coming to the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh." 20 December 2024 I received notice my appeals hearing for my food benefit will be 14 January 2025. I will be thankful for any amount, but I am confused why the amount has decreased so significantly. Ideally, it would be nice to be able to afford $100 more a month for food, but I have found some dinners to cook in bulk to stretch the money. I don't mind doing without the extras such as snacks, desserts, spices, and condiments. Unless I sell some of my items on Marketplace, I plan on selling at Brown's Junk in the Trunk Sale on Sunday. It is supposed to be another cold day starting out in the low 40's and reaching about 65 during selling time. I listed a lot of vintage jewelry I had purchased in the early nineties to support someone that was having a Premier Designs Jewelry show. I never have really worn much jewelry, but I think I was trying to step out of my comfort zone—most of it is like new. Sadly, my mind has excepted the situation and, even though my heart has not caught up yet, I am selling my engagement ring, too. My current concern is a $126.87 bill due in one week which I will only owe less than $5 to pay it in full. It will be wonderful not to have this payment at the end of every month in 2025! I still struggle with 2 monthly bills and I have faith God will provide. I joined a Facebook group to ask for help, but maybe my need seems trivial to others. I don't think I can ever stress enough that it is a buildup over a lifetime that makes it difficult for me. Please continue to pray for me and share this blog. If you would like to help, find out how on the support page by using the red button below or on the menu. I am grateful for any support! Thank you for being here—may God bless you and keep you safe. Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." go to top of page   11 December 2024 Although I wanted to close my GoFundMe before 2025, I don't think I should because I still need help reducing two monthly bills—a loan and a credit card. My food benefit is currently under appeal because it was reduced back to $24 per month. I feel discouraged when I hear about so many people abusing the system I paid into for 46 years. I am anxious about the telephone hearing, but will be happy when it concludes. My credit card debt is my own fault because I didn't realize until it was too late that when I was charging my utilities and food on the credit card, the interest would increase my payment each month much more than expected. I am having trouble lowering the total due. At this point, I barely have enough to make the minimum payment and it is really creating a hardship. I don't think I am entitled to help, but I really thought I could turn to the world and find some compassionate souls willing to help me. In the good news department, I will be able to start back therapy in January at no additional cost beyond a $35 a month insurance premium. My insurance will also cover a large portion of my vision expense, and make some other needed medical services within reach. I am continuing my goal to spend 30 minutes a day outside, even on days I would prefer not to face the world. I don't really feel any positive benefit to my health yet, but by completing this quest each day, I hope to eventually be able to leave my house without a second thought, therefore improving my mental and physical health. I wasn't able to participate in the Junk in the Trunk sale last weekend due to the weather, but another one is happening on 22 December and I hope to participate as a seller if I still have enough items left to sell. I have more items listed on Marketplace, and selling has not only helped me cover my monthly bills, it has allowed me to connect with some really nice people, I would otherwise not have met. I always have enjoyed having yard sales from the comfort of my home, but it is difficult in my gated community. My Christmas wish, and prayer in Jesus' name, is that someone will help me reduce this debt that is a heavy burden. I started planning for and working towards financial security for my retirement years when I was only twenty five. I did not anticipate that someone else's actions could put my future in jeopardy, but they did, and so here I am. If you are reading this and able to donate any amount, it will truly help me. Thank you for your consideration and time. If you are not in a position to help financially, I would really appreciate you sharing the my GoFundMe link . Thank you again. Romans 15:30 “I urge you, brothers and sisters, by our Lord Jesus Christ and by the love of the Spirit, to join me in my struggle by praying to God for me.”  go to top of page   4 December 2024 I have been really doing everything I can to make it to 2025. I am still struggling with finances, but I am determined to end this GoFundMe in four weeks time. I won't say I am not disappointed in the lack of compassion for my plight, but that isn't for me to worry about—God is providing in ways I won't be able to explain. Thankfully, I have sold more items to help cover the bills at the start of the month. I plan on participating in the Brown's Junk In The Trunk Sale  again this weekend. I wrote a post about the gift I was given this past week, a Christmas tree and ornaments, and it is impossible to express how much gratitude I feel in my heart. I have made so much progress, not only financially, but mentally as well. Going outside daily is still a challenge, so the timer needs to stay up on the home page to not only hold me accountable, but to be my daily reminder of what I am working towards. Over the last 14 months, this GoFundMe raised $1750, and I am very appreciative. Even though at times there have not been any donations, every single donation was critical at the time it was received. I will continue to pray to God, as praying has helped me since I was a very young child. I was unpacking more boxes, and I finally found a favorite bible of mine. It was given to me when I was eighteen—I left home within weeks. I hope it was meant for me to keep, at this point, I am not sure. I want to reach out to her, but... I pray some donations will come in these next weeks so I can start out the New Year more confident and prepared compared to January 2024. If you are not able to donate, sharing my link is very helpful. Thank you for your kindness and generosity! Romans 12:8 if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give  generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully. go to top of page   24 November 2024 At the start of November 2024, GoFundMe started automatically emailing donors every update. There is not a way for me to stop it. It makes me feel some sort of negative way - like I am bothering the person that has already donated. Because of this change, further updates will written on my blog. https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion/post/updates Updates are posted weekly. Lamentations 3:21 "Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:" ======================================== It has been a pretty busy week, getting ready to participate in a Flea Market that I found pretty close to my house. Although I didn't make enough money to cover all of my upcoming bills, I was able to cover the small fee to sell, and make about $40 profit. I sold quite a lot of items dirt cheap, and even though I could have used the money, I was happy to make them happy. I still have items listed on marketplace, and I am hoping I will sell enough to make my payments. All won't be completely lost, as there is another sale on Saturday 7 December if I choose to go again. I was thinking of leaving everything in my car, and if I can even cover my entry fee, I won't be out anything. I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving. I am thankful for this platform, and for the opportunity I have had this weekend. I may not have broken any records, but I have certainly exceeded my goals. Thank you for sharing my link, and if you are able, please donate to my GoFundMe. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Galatians 6:4-5 “Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load.” 15 November 2024 First, I would like to let you know of a recent change on GoFundMe. Previously, when sharing my weekly update, I could uncheck a box to avoid sending updates to previous donors. This is no longer the case. "Your update will be emailed to donors and posted on your fundraiser page." It has always been my intention to respect your inboxes. I am sorry for that, but I hope this update finds you well, and I appreciate your support. I am very excited that there are only six weeks left to this year. I've been praying that I won't have a need to bring this GoFundMe into 2025. I was able to survive these past weeks by selling some more items, and finding some deep discounts for food, but it's a new month and I still need help. Not receiving any donations for the past two months could have been discouraging, but I trust in God to provide, and he has, just in other ways. I am making so much progress both financially and mentally, and I would love for this momentum to continue! It is roughly 3% of my overall debt that is causing me so much anguish. This reminds me of the story, The Princess and the Pea, and [spoiler] by removing the pea, the princess was able to rest. I may not be a princess, but this small portion of my debt is a significant obstacle causing much unrest. I know my anxiety plays a part in how defeated I feel sometimes, but the truth of the matter is I can only stretch $2127.00 a month so far. This debt is weighing heavy on me, and according to my faith in God, I should ask for the help that I need. I would be very appreciative if you could share my GoFundMe link ! There are people in the world that have a giving heart, much like yourselves, and are able to offer a monetary gift, but they need to be reached. Thank you for your continued support! I look forward to writing my final update soon! Psalm 143:7-8 "Answer me quickly, Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me, or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you." 09 November 2024 I am very grateful for the support this past year. I am truly thankful for the one that suggested I start a GoFundMe . This platform not only helped me make it through each week mentally, as well as each month financially, but it gave me a voice and an opportunity to call out to the masses. I don't really have many connections to spread the word, but I am deeply appreciative of those that donated and shared my message. Save Thoughts—a blog site came to light as a result of this campaign. https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion I understand I am not the only one struggling, and things are improving for me. I am extremely excited that I will be paying off over $300 in monthly bills by the end of 2024, but the reality is I still need help reducing over $8,000 in overwhelming debt. Sometimes, resilience isn’t enough on its own. In moments of great challenge, it’s the support from others that provides the strength to keep moving forward. I may not have expected to be here asking for help, but my circumstances took an unexpected turn, and while transitioning to a fixed income may have saved my life, it left me with a financial strain that seems impossible to overcome. Sometimes, life presents challenges like these that are simply too great to manage alone. Every donation, no matter the size, brings me closer to a point where I can finally breathe and focus on the future. It’s a step toward reducing the financial weight that is limiting my life. I am genuinely thankful for anyone who keeps me in their prayers, donates what they are able to afford, and shares my campaign. I pray continually that I can end this GoFundMe before the start of 2025, and I'd be endlessly thankful for anyone willing to join me in this effort. Dear God, Thank You for the support I’ve received this year. I’m grateful for everyone who has helped me. Bless those who have given and shared, and multiply every act of kindness. I ask for Your guidance, wisdom, and strength to get through this. Please bring the help needed to reduce this financial burden. Your constant presence and provision has allowed me to remain hopeful despite my situation. I trust You will provide what I need and that I’ll be able to move forward soon. In Jesus' name, Amen. ❤️ Job 5:8-9 "But if I were you, I would appeal to God; I would lay my cause before him. He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted." 02 November 2024 This update doesn't really bring any news. Another week has gone by, and I am still trying to sell things—mostly $5, $10, and $20 items, but also a few with higher price. Selling has helped me eat the last few weeks. One of my concerns is running out of food. I already cook very frugally, using ingredients sparingly, but when I see only a few meals left, I pray. Thankfully, God’s really been working to provide! I managed to get a week of groceries for a third of the usual cost, thanks to some amazingly generous store coupons. Another example is the shirts I ordered for the job I didn't get got lost in the system—the job wasn't the only thing I didn't get! Thanks to their error, the money got returned, and I was given a $10 coupon! I was able to buy some food and juice! God is great, all the time. I'm making some headway chipping away at debt. Right now, I’m still without home internet, which means I cannot stream on Twitch like I would love to—but making sacrifices to save my home is worth it. What I am struggling with most is the $350 per month debt that is overwhelming, and difficult to manage. The interest alone makes it hard to keep up. I pray God will send someone to this GoFundMe with the ability and willingness to help lighten this load, giving me some space to breathe. God works in mysterious ways. Please keep me in your prayers! Even a small donation can have a big impact! If donating isn’t possible, please consider helping by sharing my new website. Saved Thoughts—a blog site has really helped me clear my mind. You can visit it here: https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion Thank you for every prayer, share, and bit of help! ❤️ God Bless America 2 Corinthians 9:8 “And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.” go to top of page   25 October 2024 Hello. The week has flown by since my last update! I have been able to sell a few items privately, and today was the first day of our community yard sale. Tomorrow, the sale will open to the public, and I am hopeful it will go well. Thanks to these sales, it looks like I will have just enough to cover the bills due this coming week. The relief I feel is hard to put into words—knowing that some of the immediate pressure is lifting is such a huge weight off my shoulders. I am still overwhelmed by two monthly debts, and I pray that God will continue to provide a way for me to pay them. I know the amount needed to be able to fully breathe a sigh of relief is enormous, but I believe in miracles, and I am praying for one. If you’re able, please share my blog. I hope it will reach many people over time and offer useful information. Even if just one person finds something helpful, then my efforts will not be in vain. https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion Your encouragement and prayers keep me moving forward, and I’m incredibly grateful for both. Thank you, as always, for your support! Matthew 19:26 "But Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.'" 18 October 2024 This has been a pretty good week. I’ve been working hard to sell some items, as I really need to cover the shortage in my bills between now and the end of the year. While I’ve had a few frustrating experiences, I’m not letting them discourage me. Next weekend, I plan to participate in a community garage sale, something I’ve been unable to do in the past due to anxiety. This year, I’m determined to follow through. I am continuing to go outside daily for a minimum amount of time, and somedays it is difficult, but I do it anyway. I have been blogging as an effort to clear my mind, and that has inspired me to write about a variety of topics. I think if it wasn't for my severe financial limitations, I would be able to make better progress in other areas of my life. While I continue to pray to God for help permanently alleviating about $350 in monthly debt, smaller contributions help me buy food, pay utilities and insurance, and purchase medicine. Your generosity has the ability to change my bleak circumstances and provide the light I need to find my way out of this darkness. Even the smallest donation can lighten the burden I carry. Please continue to share my story and say a prayer for me. Thank you for your support! 2 Corinthians 9:8 "And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work." 12 October 2024 It has been an interesting week, but I have made it through. Hurricane Milton stormed through Florida, but thankfully, I experienced the least of trouble. I had a few limbs down, that I easily cleaned up, and I was without power for about 56 hours. I am grateful God protected me. I also had good fortune financially this week. I was able to make an arrangement for the money I prayed about last week. It was truly a miracle in the 11th hour. It is a new month, with new challenges. I will be a few hundred short at the end of this month, but I have items for sale which if sold will help. I can see the light at the end of this dark tunnel I have been navigating this past year. I really missed being able to blog the last few days! It has truly been a great release of my thoughts. I am still faithfully going outside daily—my count today will be 42 days. I don't feel better, as people suggest, but I know this is the first step I need to do to be able to lead a more fulfilling life. I’d be grateful if you could check out my blog https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion and share it with others. Any financial support you can provide during this difficult time would mean so much. Thank you! Genesis 1:3 "And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light" 04 October 2024 It is hard to believe it has already been a year since I started this GoFundMe, reaching out to others for help during one of the most challenging times of my life. I want to thank God for that special someone who encouraged me to start this GoFundMe—their suggestion gave me the courage to ask for help. I want to sincerely thank everyone who has provided support—whether through donations, prayers, or words of encouragement. You have truly made a difference in my life when I needed it the most. Though I am still facing financial difficulties, I’m grateful to say that my mental and emotional health has been steadily improving. My blog— Saved Thoughts— has really helped me release some thoughts and clear my mind. Today, a kitchen door in my home broke—it literally became unhinged! I started thinking about how I could fix it, even if just temporarily, and decided to prop it up using a stool. This simple act of trying to stabilize the door, got me reflecting on the support I have received over the past year. When I was becoming 'unhinged' in my own life, every bit of support was just what I needed to help keep me standing. Right now, I’m $175 short of being able to cover my bills for the week. I continue to place my trust in God, believing that someone out there will not only be willing, but also able to help. Your ongoing support, whether financial or spiritual, means a lot to me, and I’m confident that with faith and perseverance, I will get through this, too. 2 Corinthians 8:12 "For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what one does not have." go to top of page   27 September 2024 This week’s update comes on the heels of a Category 4 hurricane that made landfall in Florida. Thankfully, my area was spared a direct hit, but the outer bands of the storm still brought strong winds, heavy rain, and scattered power outages. Although 4.4 million people across the South are without power, I was fortunate that mine stayed on. There but for the grace of God go I. I am deeply grateful and want to publicly thank an anonymous PayPal donor who made it possible for me to make my $257 loan payment this month. Their kindness also allowed me to buy groceries for the next two weeks, which has been such a relief. In other news, the company that had offered me a job rescinded the offer after I tested positive for medical marijuana, despite it being legally prescribed for me under my doctor’s care. In fact, four separate doctors agreed I would benefit from medical marijuana. I’ve written a post about the situation on my blog, and I would appreciate it if you could read and share it. I feel it’s important to bring attention to this kind of unfair treatment. On a positive note, I’ve been making real progress lately. For 27 days straight, I’ve been spending time outside, even walking over to my neighbor’s house to exchange phone numbers for emergencies. Even though it has amped up my anxiety, I stepped way out of my comfort zone and listed 14 items for sale on a local site, which I hope will help cover some of the bills due this coming week. Considering the value of the items, I think the risk is minimal that something will go wrong during the exchange. I truly want to close this GoFundMe campaign, but right now, two major bills feel overwhelming. Without some help, I am unsure how I will manage to pay them. Currently, I am still without regular internet access, but I am thankful to have cellular data as a temporary solution. In the meantime, I have been pouring my energy into my blog, which is coming along nicely. Writing has always been a great way for me to express my thoughts and process everything. My blog covers a range of topics—from my personal story and reflections to current news, Bible verses, and language overviews. It’s like an online diary, a glimpse into my heart and soul, and I hope it will benefit others in some way. If you're interested, please check out my blog, https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion, and feel free to share it! If you're able and would like to contribute financially, your support would mean a lot to me during one of the most difficult times in my life. Lamentations 3:22 "Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail." 18 September 2024 Changes in my life are still happening. Every day this month, I have gone outside, doing a ton of yard work and even chatting with quite a few neighbors. This has been a big step for me. I really hope I have brought a bit of sunshine into their lives. I am still waiting to hear some good news about getting hired, and I remain hopeful. With the due date for my $256 loan payment just over a week away, I am in desperate need of help to make it on time. Thankfully, an unexpected and unrequested refund has secured the $67 needed for my car insurance, which eases some of the pressure. I am so close to catching up and being able to manage my finances on my own again. It feels like I take two steps forward and one step back—and I really want this dance to end! Although I have not received a donation in over three weeks, I continue to pray with hope in my heart and faith in God. I have also created a website that currently focuses on my GoFundMe, but I will be adding other blog posts as well. My goal is to have a place where I can creatively express myself and work through any intrusive and unreconciled thoughts that may arise. It has been challenging without home internet, but I have faced worse, and I will continue to push through! Please continue to pray for me, Even a small donation can make an incredible difference! I completely understand if you are unable to help financially, but please help me find donors by sharing my new website. You can visit it here: https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion Deuteronomy 15:10 "Give generously to them and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to." 14 September 2024 Thank God, and everyone who keeps me in their prayers, things worked out today. Everything is snowballing out of control, and reaching out to my mortgage company was a huge mistake. Despite their website claiming "Mortgage relief: we're here to help," they offered no viable help. The experience was extremely stressful—so much so that intrusive thoughts began to creep in, telling me to just end it all. Thankfully, I was able to pay my mortgage, but now that has created other financial issues. I am praying for help to cover a loan of $256 and car insurance of $67, both due on September 27. I believe once I'm hired and receive my first paycheck, I’ll be able to manage and, hopefully, close this GoFundMe. If you decide to make a donation, it will not only help me, but it may also inspire others to make a donation. I cannot urge you enough to share my GoFundMe story , whether or not you are able to help financially. I believe God led you to this page for a reason, and I deeply appreciate your support. Thank you so much! Proverbs 11:25 "A generous person will prosper; whoever refreshes others will be refreshed." 13 September 2024 It’s Friday the 13th, and I am hoping it doesn’t turn out to be a bad omen! I have completed the required fingerprinting, background check, drug screen, and in-person training for my prospective job. Now, I am anxiously awaiting the results, which will take another week or two. Unfortunately, I had to use $188 allotted for my mortgage payment to cover these costs, leaving me unable to pay my mortgage for September. My grace period ends in just three days. Even if I manage to get hired, it will likely be several weeks before I receive my first paycheck. I am incredibly stressed about how I will manage this month and next, and any help would be immensely appreciated. To counter my anxiety about my picture being taken, I have included my new badge photo for all the world to see. If anyone is able to help me get through these next few weeks, assist with my mortgage or basic necessities, I would be forever grateful. If you are not able to help financially, please share my GoFundMe link . Isaiah 50:10 "Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on their God." 11 September 2024 I realize there is a lot of information on my GoFundMe page, and I am committed to keeping it updated regularly on my situation. I want to address something that might be on your mind. My campaign has been active since October 5th, 2023, in the category of rent, food, and monthly bills. With 60 updates over the past 11 months, it might seem unusual that I am still here asking for support. While I have made strides in addressing my circumstances with the help of this GoFundMe, I still have two outstanding debts that are causing a financial hardship. Without help, managing this overwhelming debt feels impossible. Though I have received a contingent job offer, a paycheck is still weeks away—pending completion of a background check ($90), a drug screen ($58), and a required in-person training. Additionally, I am experiencing heightened anxiety due to having to travel to these places and the associated costs including gas money. If anyone is able to help cover these additional expenses, I would be eternally grateful. I deeply appreciate the support I have received and I will continue to post updates on my progress. If you have any questions or need more details, please use the contact button below to reach out. Thank you for your continued support! 2 Corinthians 4:8 "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair." 05 September 2024 I know I am updating frequently, but changes happen—I like to be able to let everyone know how I am doing. In addition, I am feeling extremely anxious and writing helps me sort out my feelings and reconcile my thoughts. My GoFundMe updates are a great place to combine my financial status and my thoughts for total transparency of how I am handling life. I mentioned applying for a job in my last update. I learned it takes three to four weeks to get hired, and then a couple of weeks before earning a paycheck. I can manage not having the ideal clothes or upper teeth to start, but I am not sure how I will be able to manage the background check required. The website stated $60 - $90 in Florida. I am thankful this is the only requirement compared to other states. I have faith God will provide the way! In other great news, there was a sale on my medicine—75% off. I have been using my medicine intermittently, only using it two to three times a day instead of the four to six doses realistically needed. I was so thankful to be able to purchase enough to use sparingly for the next six weeks. The medicine surely has helped me this past week deal with an emotional issue—forgiveness. Forgiveness They come as friends, wrapped in gentle words, but underneath, something stirs. Wolves in sheep's clothing, waiting, not for my heart, but for control. “By their fruit, you will recognize them,” the mask eventually slips. When I look back, the damage remains—disguised in apologies without depth, in words meant to soothe but never heal. Afraid to trust, I searched for understanding, seeking answers from above, but trust is fragile in the hands of those who wear deception like a second skin. I’ve seen the face they hide. The smile a mask, but their heart deceives. I trusted, yet their words turned sharp. In secret, they plotted, while I believed. Their kindness was just a veil, but beneath, their motives lay bare. Unaware, I opened my heart, innocent as I was, they played their part. They spoke of love, but actions betray, a wolf among the flock. Their anger rises when I speak the truth, and I wonder, where is the grace? Where is the care when they watch from afar, yet stand unmoved by the pain they see? “If anyone has material possessions and sees a brother or sister in need but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person?” Where was the pity? Where was the hand that reached out not in defense, but in comfort? Now I see the truth behind the lies. I trusted blindly, but I won’t again. In the silence that follows, I find clarity and calm. I forgive, but forgiveness does not erase the truth—only frees me from its weight. For I will not be pulled under by words meant to conceal. And I will walk forward, eyes open, guarding my heart against those who come in disguise. Romans 12:19 "Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: 'It is mine to avenge; I will repay,' says the Lord." 03 September 2024 I have really been making some changes. The first change was when I took scissors and cut off 20 inches of my hair. Despite not having the clothes, the money for a background check nor upper teeth, I applied for a job today. Although the job is out of the home, if I get hired, I think I can succeed. It started me thinking about small actions leading to big changes. In chaos theory, there is the "butterfly effect" — the idea that something as small as a butterfly flapping its wings can set off a chain of events leading to much bigger outcomes. In this way, sharing this campaign or offering even a small bit of help might create a ripple effect that reaches far beyond what we can predict. Each share or donation is like a small ripple in a vast ocean—gaining momentum and reaching people who might otherwise never have known about my situation. Every act of kindness, whether it is sharing this campaign, offering encouragement, or providing support in any form, can lead to unexpected positive outcomes. You never know who your small action might reach or what difference it could ultimately make. Thank you, and as always, feel free to reach out through the contact button if you have any questions. Matthew 17:20 "... Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you." 02 September 2024 As I continue to reach out for support, I have been reflecting on the idea that we are all connected in ways we might not even realize. You may have heard of the theory of "six degrees of separation" — the idea that each of us is connected by no more than six steps to anyone else in the world. With social media and the digital world, that number might be even smaller. I am hoping that by continuing to spread the word, sharing my story with others, and keeping these connections going, help might be just a click away. Every time this GoFundMe is shared, it reaches someone new who may be able to offer support. Think of it as helping a friend of a friend, of a friend. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Thank you to everyone who has already shared or donated. Please keep spreading the word, and if you have any questions, feel free to reach out through the contact button, and I will respond as soon as possible. Romans 1:8 "First, I thank my God through Jesus Christ for all of you, because your faith is being reported all over the world." go to top of page   31 August 2024 If you are reading this update, I urge you to take a moment to look into your own heart and reflect on the choices you've made regarding support and help. It’s important to consider how your actions, or lack thereof, affect those around you. When you have the opportunity to offer help, it is within your power to make a difference. Understanding this can provide insight into the impact of your decisions and the feelings they evoke in others. It’s deeply hurtful to see that even now, when you have the opportunity to help, you choose not to. When you have the means—whether it's time, money or words—to offer support, you do not step forward. Witnessing this lack of action, despite having the capacity to assist, is painful. It’s disheartening to realize that the help I so desperately need is within reach, yet remains unoffered. This absence of support, when it is so clearly possible, adds to the emotional burden and sense of disappointment. The choices you make in your treatment of others have significant consequences. When you fail to act with compassion and generosity, you are not only missing an opportunity to do good but also distancing yourself from God's will. Ignoring the needs of others can lead to a lack of fulfillment, spiritual emptiness, and future consequences. I hope this reflection helps you understand the broader impact of your decisions and encourages a more compassionate approach moving forward. Matthew 25:45-46 "He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’ Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.” 29 August 2024 I know that when people hear about everything I’ve been through, it might sound overwhelming or even exaggerated. Even more so when they learn about other traumatic events affecting me that I haven't shared in my GoFundMe. It’s been increasingly difficult to manage the weight of these hardships as they build up over time. I’ve been really struggling lately, and I’m hesitant to even bring this up, but it feels like everything is closing in on me—mentally, emotionally, and financially. Even when I have good days mentally, I still find myself trapped by my circumstances. It’s incredibly discouraging to feel stuck, especially when I’m trying my best to push forward. The financial stress is making it impossible to even imagine a life beyond the walls of my home, and it’s weighing on me more than I can handle sometimes. I’m just so exhausted and overwhelmed from carrying this for so long. But I know that I’ve tried to stay strong, to share my story and ask for help, and to keep hope alive, even when it feels like it’s slipping away. I’m just trying to find a way to get through, even though it’s tough right now. If I can’t get out from under this financial burden, I’m not sure how I can keep going. I’m grateful to those who support me, and I’m just doing my best to stay positive. 2 Corinthians 11:30-31 "If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. The God and Father of the Lord Jesus, who is to be praised forever, knows that I am not lying." 27 August 2024 I want to take a moment to express my deep appreciation for the most recent donation. I can't tell you how excited I am to receive this generous donation! It means so much, especially in a time when support is crucial and money is tight for so many. What I truly need right now is your help in reaching more people who might be able to contribute. If you're not in a position to donate, please consider sharing my story with your friends, family, or social circles. Your share could help me reach new supporters who may be able to make a donation. Your kindness in spreading the word is incredibly valuable and appreciated. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion 1 Thessalonians 5:11 "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing." 23 August 2024 To any of you who have kept me in your thoughts, prayed, donated, or shared my story since the start of my GoFundMe—I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart! It’s been hard, and I’ve been hanging on by a thread, but I’m incredibly grateful for the few who have reached out with thoughts, prayers, or help. I’ve been without home internet for two months now, and it has deeply affected my daily life. It’s more than just the frustration of not being able to stream or search for a job—many aspects of my routine have been impacted, leaving me feeling even more disconnected and isolated. However, on the brighter side, having medicine these last few weeks has been a Godsend! The reality is I need your help more than ever. While I have been fortunate to make it this far, I am still not out of the woods. The burden is heavy, but with your continued help, I believe I can get there. This situation is overwhelming, and I’m not sure how long I can continue without some real assistance. I need help! Not out of luxury, but out of necessity. If you’re able to contribute, even a small amount, it would take some of the weight off my shoulders. And if you can’t, please consider sharing my story with others on social media or in your community. Every little bit can help me get through these difficult times. Psalm 109:22 For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me. 22 August 2024 If you’d like to help by sharing my GoFundMe link with your friends, family, or on social media, here are some sample messages you can use to help spread the word. Change or remove "my friend" to whatever fits our relationship best: Please help my friend Linda, who is going through an incredibly tough time. Every donation or share makes a difference! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion My friend Linda is facing overwhelming challenges, and she needs our support. Let’s rally around her and make a difference together. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion My friend Linda’s been through so much, and right now she needs all the help she can get. If you can donate or share her story, it would mean the world! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion My friend Linda is such a strong person, but she needs help right now. Even if you can't donate, please consider sharing her story! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Sometimes the best way to help is by sharing. my friend Linda could really use your support, whether through a donation or simply spreading the word! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion My friend Linda has been through more than anyone should have to, and she needs help to get back on her feet. Every little bit counts! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion I’m sharing my friend Linda’s story because she’s in need of some serious help. If you can donate or share, it could really lift a burden. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Supporting my friend Linda right now could make a huge difference in her life. Please donate if you can, or simply share this link to help spread the word! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Hebrews 13:16 "And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased." 19 August 2024 In my last update, I was really anxious about my unpaid electric bill. I prayed for God's light to shine through the darkness and provide a way for me to overcome my financial challenge. Although no donations came in, I am grateful to share that God did provide a way! I was able to secure a loan to cover my $285 electric bill and the remainder of August bills. The loan will be payable at $221 per month for the next three months. While my financial burden has increased temporarily, I am thankful that I have made it through another month. Though there are still challenges ahead, I believe with faith and support, I’ll be able to reduce this overwhelming debt. With faith, I find the inner strength and peace to face my daily challenges, trusting that solutions will emerge and that I can continue to persevere. Support provides practical help and emotional encouragement making it easier to tackle each day, I will continue to ask for your prayers and any help you can provide, whether it be donations or even a share of my campaign with someone who may be able to help. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts. Psalm 68:19 "Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens." 16 August 2024 It’s been two months since my last donation, and while I haven’t received any GoFundMe contributions during this time, I remain patient and hopeful. I trust that support will come when the time is right. Currently, I don’t know how I’m going to pay my $285 electric bill, and it’s weighing heavily on me. Any donations collected between now and Monday will go directly toward keeping my power on. I’ve been praying about this situation, and here is the prayer that’s been on my heart: "Dear Lord, I come before You with a humble heart, weighed down by the burden of my unpaid electric bill. The anxiety of keeping up with these essential costs is overwhelming, and I fear the consequences of not being able to pay what is due. You are my provider and my source of strength. I ask for Your guidance and intervention in this situation. Please open the hearts of those who can help, and grant me the peace to trust in Your provision. Let Your light shine in this darkness, and provide a way for me to overcome this financial challenge. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen." This week, I came across an image that brought me a sense of calm that is hard to put into words. I can’t help but feel it’s a sign that God is working in the background, even when I can’t see it. Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts, and I appreciate any prayers, donations, or even a share to someone who might be able to help. John 14:13-14 "And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it." 08 August 2024 My thoughts have been all over the place. The storm finally passed, and other than high wind, rain, and my electricity being off for some hours, I made it through unscathed. It got me thinking about prayer. I always held the belief I should be specific in prayers. I never really liked general prayer messages anyway. But, doesn't God already know our needs? A pivotal thought entered my mind this week. What happens if what I am praying for isn't the issue that will fix the problem? Certainly I don't need to guide God on how to improve on his workmanship! That brought me to wonder if a more general prayer is more appropriate? Do I need money to pay the 285.48 electric bill of which 174.68 is delinquent? Or do I need to learn to live in the dark, without refrigeration, hot water, cooling or any electronic devices? I didn't like the trial "no electricity' God tested me with during the storm, but it was more critical to choose medicine and food over the electric bill this week. I've finally been able to buy medication after not having it for the last 10 months This led to more thoughts and then I was thinking about thoughts and how long I've been this way. I usually have racing thoughts, something I’ve lived with all my life. As a young child, I was even put in speech class for many years because I tried to talk as fast as my thoughts. I strive to categorize these thoughts methodically and logically, forming clear links all while battling intrusive thoughts. While I’m often very successful at solving problems, it can be exhausting for me and frustrating for those around me. I often get distracted by stray thoughts, and when I’m redirected back to the main topic, I have to return to the last "restore point" saved in my brain. However, more often than not, my thoughts race in a chaotic manner, jumping from one topic to another without any clear connection. It can be confusing, but also oddly exhilarating, like trying to piece together a puzzle with no clear image. Despite this chaos, I can usually follow the trail of thoughts and understand how even seemingly random ideas are connected. Unfortunately, this way of thinking can be isolating, especially when others cannot see the connections that are so clear to me. This is something I've noticed in the response to my GoFundMe campaign. I've laid out my situation, hoping others would understand the connections between my struggles, but the lack of support has made me feel misunderstood and overlooked. It’s exhausting trying to explain something that feels so clear to me, yet seems disconnected to others. Thank you God for hearing all of my prayers. I pray this financial burden is lightened and my emotional torment resolved. It is hard to look beyond something that is broken, when God lets me know it can be repaired. Please pray, donate or help find donors by sharing. Proverbs 24:10 "If you falter in a time of trouble, how small is your strength!" 04 August 2024 I have really been struggling this week. The place I live is in a "state of emergency" due to the incoming storm. If I had to evacuate, I have no financial means to escape. It got me thinking about a well known story about a flood and rowboats, and how it applies to my situation. I created a quick video illustrating two perspectives using the story as the basis. I am so thankful people have helped with contributions and God has been providing in some unexpected ways. I can't tell you how grateful I am to still be afloat, if only barely! On the other hand, I feel like I am drowning and many people are just shrugging their shoulders as they watch me go under. Thank you for watching the video and helping if you are able. 01 August 2024 Have you ever wanted to be a hero at some point in your life – to make a real difference and save someone in need? Your donation isn't just alleviating my financial burdens; it's the hope that keeps me breathing through my darkest times while restoring my faith in the kindness of others. I am very thankful for the heroes in my life and the support they have offered. A hero shows genuine concern for others' well-being. They are moved by the suffering of others and feel compelled to help. Heroes are willing to give their time, resources, or money to assist those in need. They don't hesitate to share what they have to make a difference in someone's life. They have the ability to understand and share the feelings of another person. It allows them to connect deeply with those they are helping. Heroes often put the needs of others before their own. Their actions are motivated by the desire to help rather than personal gain. They are brave enough to take action, even when it's difficult or inconvenient. Heroes are not deterred by challenges or fears when it comes to helping others. A hero can be counted on to be there when needed. They are dependable and follow through on their promises and commitments. Their actions inspire others to also take action and make a difference. Heroes lead by example, showing what it means to be compassionate and giving. They often perform their acts of kindness without seeking recognition or reward. True heroes help out of a genuine desire to make the world a better place. They don't give up easily and are determined to see their efforts through. Heroes continue to help despite obstacles or setbacks. They have a natural inclination to be kind and considerate. This kindness is evident in their actions and the way they treat others, not just their friends, but strangers alike. Have you ever thought, "It's not my problem," and chosen not to get involved? I have shared my story with many, and while I appreciate those who have taken the time to read it, the lack of response has been deeply disheartening. It's difficult to express how vulnerable and exposed I feel, having laid bare my struggles only to be met with silence. This silence has made me feel overlooked and undervalued, as though my plea for help isn't worthy of attention or action. When it is all said and done, I hope no one will wonder with should've, would've, could've statements. Thoughts of remorse for not offering assistance, "I should have donated when I had the chance." Regretful reflections on not stepping in, "I would have helped if I had known how serious it was." Hindsight regrets for not providing support, "I could have made a difference by donating just a little." Second thoughts about choosing not to aid, "I should have reached out to see if she needed anything." Feelings of guilt for not helping out, "I would have contributed if I knew it meant this much." Self-reproach for not getting involved, "I could have taken a few moments to support her campaign." Lingering doubts about not taking action, "I should have shared her GoFundMe with more people." Sorrowful musings on missed opportunities to help, "I would have done more if I realized she was struggling so badly." Remorse for staying on the sidelines, "I could have been there for her instead of just watching from the sidelines." Regrets about not lending a hand, "I should have done something instead of staying silent." Today, as always, you have the choice to be that hero for me or close your eyes and heart to my situation. I believe that everyone has the potential to be a hero in someone's life. Your support is crucial during this challenging time. By contributing to my GoFundMe campaign, you have the power to save me from overwhelming financial and emotional distress. Your generosity can provide the stability I desperately need to keep going. Imagine being the person who stepped in despite what others have done, the hero who helped me find my way back to a life of hope and possibility. Every bit of support counts and helps me to feel seen and valued during this incredibly challenging time. Thank you for any support you can provide. Psalm 31:24 "Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord." go to top of page   24 July 2024  This week I added a TLDR to my main campaign. I am still without home internet so doing these updates is a struggle on cellular data. My $174 electric bill is due today and may be disconnected as it is now 2 months late. I've been really confused about why so many people completely ignore my cry for help or just check in without offering any concrete support. After thinking it over and doing some research, I came up with a few reasons that might explain it. Lack of Understanding : They might not fully understand the severity of my situation or how they could help. Some people struggle with practical ways to offer support, even when it's clear to others. Avoidance : Some people may completely ignore what I am going through because they feel overwhelmed or uncomfortable with the situation. They may hope that by not acknowledging it, the problem will go away or someone else will step in to help. Apathy : Sometimes people express concern but don't follow through because taking action requires effort, time, and commitment they might not be willing to give. Emotional   Distance : Some people may try to maintain emotional distance while still feeling some level of obligation to check in. This can lead to superficial gestures that don't translate into meaningful support. Self-Centeredness : Actions might be more about alleviating their own guilt or sense of responsibility rather than genuinely wanting to help. This aligns with certain narcissistic traits. Fear of Commitment : They may be afraid that offering help could pull them into a relationship or create expectations they don't want to fulfill. Understanding why some people may not offer help has given me a new perspective, but it doesn't change the fact that I am still in need of support. While it can be difficult when my pleas for help go unanswered, I remain hopeful. Every contribution, no matter the size, brings me closer to stability. I believe in the power of individual kindness and the difference one person can make. Every donation, every share, every message of encouragement matters. It all adds up to helping me overcome these financial hardships. I understand that not everyone is in a position to help financially, but spreading the word and sharing my story can be equally powerful. Thank you for your time, your empathy, and any assistance you can offer. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion   Micah 7:8 "Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light." 18 July 2024 My campaign is in its tenth month and I am very thankful to those that have helped. The donations were crucial and I would not be here without each and every generous dollar. I am praying I can get to a point where I can survive each month going forward with no financial help! Together, we have made a lot of progress towards this goal! Wonderful news this week! Prayer works! My house payment has decreased by 83.61 - at least for the next year! I've also had some good mental health days! I went outside for maybe an hour for two days in a row and did some yard work trimming hedges! I also met my next door neighbor and chatted for a bit! My immediate needs right now are a $174 electric bill which is for 2 months and paying off a loan with a payment of $230. I am still hopeful to be able to get help paying nearly $10,000 of overwhelming debt. Please keep praying for me! If you are not able to help financially, sharing the link could lead to someone that is able to help. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Isaiah 12:2 "Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation." 11 July 2024 I want to take a moment to express my deep gratitude for the support I have received over the past nine months. I am so thankful that I have made it this far with the help of some donors. I started this campaign after multiple unforeseen setbacks happened within a relatively short time during my transition to a fixed income. I truly appreciate every single donation that has helped me survive this difficult time. Receiving an email from my former fiancé this week has been confusing and painful. It's especially hard when someone claims to care but doesn't take action to help. This has added to my emotional burden, making it even more challenging to cope with my current situation. It's incredibly difficult knowing I don’t have enough money to pay my bills. I understand money is tight for many. It's hard to convey the depth of my struggles, especially as they are compounded by my mental illness. I have to constantly battle the irrational thoughts that come to my mind. Streaming and therapy were lifelines for me, and now I have neither. Recently, I tried to apply at a church for help with my past due electric bill, but it didn't work out. Finding a way to print the documentation they required and physically taking them to the church was more overwhelming than I could handle. They wouldn't accept electronic copies. Currently, my most urgent needs are a $174 electric bill, part of which is already past due, and a final loan payment of $230. Thank you for each and every hard-earned dollar that you have given me. Your support echoes in my mind and keeps me wanting to go another day. I don’t want to let anyone down by giving up. Despite the challenges, I remain hopeful and continue to pray for better days. Any assistance you can provide, even $10, makes a big difference. Sharing my story and asking for donations on my behalf is also incredibly helpful. Isaiah 40:29 "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak." go to top of page   05 July 2024 It's been nine months since I started this GoFundMe campaign, and I am very thankful for everyone who has helped me survive these dark times. I could not have come this far without the compassion of the few and this GoFundMe campaign. I really want those considering a donation to understand that even a $10 donation can help. It may not seem like much against the amount I am seeking, but helping me conquer the bills a month at a time is a Godsend. Ultimately, I need to find my way out of this overwhelming debt. It is difficult for me to reach out for help, and I am grateful for this platform. I really hope people will advocate for me by sharing my story, asking for donations on my behalf, and creating the momentum that this campaign needs. I had to remind someone recently, just because I am in need, it doesn't take away my anxiety disorder. In fact, it is somewhat paralyzing to have inner hope and creative ideas, yet feel so hopeless to carry them out. I feel it in my heart that there are people ready to champion my cause in a meaningful way. Job 22:21 "Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you." 29 June 2024 God provides! I got an unexpected refund in the mail that will help me pay this month's bills. I am struggling even more mentally now since having to turn off the internet and my main connection to the world. I at least have phone data, but it is a very weak signal. When I called to turn off my internet, the girl asked why. Being candid as I am, I told her I couldn't afford it. She offered a promotion for $60 for 6 months. I told her I couldn't afford it, I have no food in my house. She replied with, "I know what you mean, I had to stop eating out and now have to cook all my meals at home." It isn't the same. I need help to get out from under this debt. Sharing and donating would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your support. 1 Peter 5:10 "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast." 23 June 2024 Immediate Needs: Financial assistance to cover essential bills and food. Sharing this campaign to reach more potential donors. This week's update is grim. I am literally losing at life in front of the world and no one seems to care enough or is willing to sacrifice to help me claw my way out of this hole. I had to terminate my health insurance, and my weekly therapy, because I could not afford to pay it. It's already been difficult enough without little medication since last September. A few months back, I had to cancel my home warranty which was a calming, safety net. I am running behind on paying my $1283 mortgage which is cutting into the money for the current month's bills. Currently, the only food I have left is about five cups of rice and twelve waffles. Rice and waffles have been my diet for the last week. This has not been good for my physical health nor my mental health. On June 25, I will get a $46 food allowance which will help me for the next couple of weeks. On the 24th of June, I am going to have to cancel my internet service because two programs ended at the same time causing my bill to go from $30 to $80 a month. This will likely mean I can no longer stream, ending my daily connection to the outside world. The 100ºF/38ºC heat has been rough for so many. I won't be able to pay the electric this month, even though I am keeping my house around 80ºF/27ºC. I am struggling to stay alive, but I will continue to put my trust in God that He is working to help me survive this darkness as well as matters of the heart. My ultimate goal is to get help paying off this debt so I can survive monthly on my own. I would appreciate any donations. If you are not able to help financially, praying and sharing the link are also very helpful. Thank you for taking the time to read my update. I am grateful for any and all support. Psalm 142:6 "Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need; rescue me from those who pursue me, for they are too strong for me." 14 June 2024  Today has been a particularly difficult day for me. I've been struggling to find a way to get through the month, both financially and mentally. Having to terminate my health insurance at the start of the month means I can no longer go to therapy, which has been incredibly hard. The worry about how I will pay for essentials like electricity has been overwhelming, and it's taken a significant toll on me. I wasn't planning an update and streaming has also been too difficult. Amidst all this, I received a $10 donation from an anonymous person. I cannot express how much this means to me, especially today. Their kindness has brought a ray of hope to a very dark day. There are still caring people out there, and this support is more important than words can convey. Thank you for the generosity and reminder that compassion exists. Nahum 1:7 "The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him." 06 June 2024  Please breathe life into my campaign: Perform CPR on my GoFundMe—Contribute, Promote, and Revive. Today’s update marks eight months since I started this GoFundMe campaign, and I am still in urgent need of assistance. Contribute : While the ultimate goal is to eliminate overwhelming debt, your donation, no matter the size, can help cover essential expenses like medicine, therapy, utility bills, and my mortgage. Promote : Share my GoFundMe campaign with friends, family, and on social media. Spreading the word can significantly increase the chances of reaching those who can help. Revive : Your support can revive my hope and stability, allowing me to maintain my home and access necessary medical care. Thank you for considering any form of help you can provide. Job 8:21 "He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy." go to top of page   31 May 2024  Today, a new development tied to yesterday's update. I had to terminate my health insurance ($143.99 mo) and dental (7.95 mo) because I was not able to pay it. This will also end my weekly therapy sessions. 30 May 2024 This update is a heartfelt plea for support as I continue to go through an incredibly challenging time. The nearly $1700 that was raised during the first six months helped me survive those months. Unfortunately, it didn't help reduce my monthly debt. My financial situation has become even more dire, and I urgently need assistance to cover essential expenses. Currently, I do not have the money to pay for these bills due at the start of June, my medical insurance ($143.99), electric bill ($95.16), water bill ($26.64), or mortgage ($1,283.58). If I can just get current, I will be able to take a breathe and hopefully stop feeling like I can't go on. Despite my best efforts to manage on my own, the burden of these expenses is overwhelming because I can't catch up. I urgently need your help to keep up with these critical bills. Your contribution, no matter how small, could make a significant difference in my ability to maintain stability and meet my basic needs. If you can, please consider donating to my GoFundMe campaign. Your support means more than I can express and will help me keep my home and access necessary medical care. Thank you for taking the time to read this and for any help you can provide. Psalm 37:5 "Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act." 24 May 2024 My financial situation remains dire, and it has been a few months since the last donation. I am barely hanging on, and each day is a struggle to manage overwhelming debts and basic living expenses. Despite my best efforts to find relief, my circumstances haven't improved, and I find myself on the edge of losing hope. I continue to pray that someone will come forward to advocate for me and offer the support I desperately need. Every bit of help, whether through a donation, sharing my campaign, or offering prayers, can make a significant difference. The link to my GoFundMe is https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion. Your support, no matter how small, is a beacon of hope and can help lift some of the heavy burdens I am carrying. I hold onto the belief that compassion and kindness will prevail, and I am immensely grateful for any assistance during this trying time. James 1:12 "Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him." 17 May 2024 Despite the passing months, my GoFundMe campaign hasn't seen the support I hoped for. It's disheartening to witness the silence in the face of ongoing financial struggles. Asking for donations isn't easy, but without voicing my need, how can others understand the gravity of my situation? As I confront mounting debts and daily challenges, I hold onto the belief that compassion still exists. Your contribution, no matter how modest, serves as a lifeline in my journey toward stability. Whether through donations, prayers, or spreading awareness, your support can alleviate the burdens I carry. Let's come together, embodying the spirit of empathy and community, to uplift each other in times of need. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support. Psalm 55:22 "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken." 10 May 2024 In times of need, I often hear inspiring words about compassion and the inherent goodness of humanity. People remind me that in our shared journey, it's our capacity to care for one another that defines our humanity. Yet, amidst these reminders, I find myself questioning why there haven't been any recent donations to my cause. I ask for donations because if I don't ask, nobody would know the extent of my need and the challenges I face. As I navigate through financial difficulties and the weight of overwhelming debt, I cling to the belief that kindness and generosity still prevail. Each contribution, no matter how small, represents a beacon of hope in my journey towards stability. So, I wonder, where is the compassion that so many speak of? Where is the humanity in reaching out to those in need? Your support, whether through donations, prayers, or sharing this campaign, can make a tangible difference in my life. Together, let's uphold the values of compassion and humanity that bind us as a community. Thank you for standing with me in this challenging time. Galatians 6:2 "Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. 03 May 2024 This week's update brings some good news that prayer does work. Beginning at the end of May, my food allowance will increase to $46 dollars per month! I've also been able to eliminate a $169 per month obligation which is a huge relief. I urgently need to get out from under an additional $350 of debt per month which consists of: $126 per month credit debt totaling $4,742.37, $174 per month fixed loan totaling $4,032.33, $50 per month dental expense charged totaling $1,337.90. I would then be able to pay for my home and basic needs on my fixed income. I am so uplifted right now, and it would be an amazing feeling if donations came in to keep the momentum flowing. Paying off this paralyzing debt would open so many avenues in my healing. I pray that someone will believe in me, advocate on my behalf, and help relieve this financial burden. I am so thankful for family, friends, and strangers that have already helped me during these last seven months of this GoFundMe campaign. Please consider contributing what you can to support me during this challenging time. Your donation can make a real difference in helping me overcome this financial hurdle by reducing this debt and allowing me to cover essential bills. I urge you to continue to pray hard for me and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support. Proverbs 22:9 "The generous will themselves be blessed, for they share their food with the poor." go to top of page   26 April 2024 I wanted to provide this update. It's been nearly two months since I've received any donations. I find myself at a loss, unsure of what to do next. While I am deeply thankful for those who have donated, the lack of support from others has left me feeling confused and unsupported. Even a small donation can have a significant impact on my situation. The looming debt continues to weigh heavily on me, and it's causing real hardship. I'm genuinely hurting right now, both financially and emotionally. In these challenging times, I continue to trust in God and have faith that He will send people who are able and willing to help without judgment. I believe in His guidance and provision, and I hope for more understanding and support from those around me. Thank you to everyone who has stood by me during this difficult journey. Your support means more than words can express. Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support. Proverbs 12:25 "Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up." 19 April 2024 The words of support I have received have really helped me this past week. I understand that many may want to help, but might not be in a position to do so. My situation is dire, and it is challenging when people don't recognize the impact of this financial burden. Due to a change in circumstances beyond my control, I now live on $25K less a year. The pressure of not being able to pay my bills and the threat of losing my house triggers more intrusive thoughts than normal. I am praying hard that someone will read this and advocate for me. I am beyond exhausted from being strong my entire life. It's becoming more difficult for me to continue to persevere. Once this overwhelming debt is settled, I will be able to pay my mortgage and basics with my current monthly income. Any donation amount, big or small, will help keep me from sinking further. Again, I am very thankful for the donations over the last six months that have kept me from drowning. Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support. Psalm 94:19 "When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy." 12 April 2024 Although I haven't received any donations through GoFundMe for sometime, I am still optimistic that God will send the right people here to help me. I've applied for another job this week, and I pray that a job offer will come through soon. I am still very thankful for everyone that has already helped. The notices from the two accounts that I had to default on have been coming in daily. They will go to collections soon, and it really tears me up that I wasn't able to continue to pay them. This leads to negative intrusive thoughts. Trying to do my best to not let any other accounts default with my number one priority being my mortgage. I trust in God when I hear whispers that I should continue on this path. There is someone in this world that will empathize with my past, understand my present, and advocate for my future. Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support. Proverbs 31:8-9 "Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy." ----------------------------------- In a world where judgments loom and voices chime, I sought solace in this tumultuous time. Struggling with shadows, battling an unseen foe, Through darkness, where intrusive thoughts flow. Whispers of doubt, they pierce like a knife, Questioning my worth, igniting inner strife. "Others suffer more," their words did declare, But pain knows no measure, in its silent despair. In therapy's space, where truth finds its light, I learn to honor my struggles, embrace my fight. No guilt shall tether, nor shame hold sway, For in seeking support, I find my way. So let the doubters whisper, their words may wane, For I stand tall, in my truth, and continue to explain. With each step forward, in therapy's embrace, I reclaim my voice, my worth, and my place. 05 April 2024  Today marks six months that I have opened up and asked others for help through this GoFundMe campaign. I thank God for touching people's hearts, making it possible for me to be blessed with over $300 a month, which helped me to survive these past six months. Although I was able to pay for basic needs, which I am extremely grateful, it really hasn't eliminated any debt due to interest. It has been difficult continually asking and begging for the help that I need, but until a job offer or some other means presents itself, I need to do this to calm the intrusive thoughts that see death as the most viable option. I continue to trust in God's timing because without my continued faith in God that began as a young girl, I would not have survived these six decades. It is my sincere hope that someone will rally my cause and advocate for me. The visions of hope of finally being able to go out into the world freely that I have always seen in vivid colors, has turned to black and white due to this financial strain and the joy that is no longer in my life. Circumstance led me down this path of financial hardship, and poor mental, physical, and emotional health has kept me from being able to resolve this on my own. It is the strain of sixty years of continued perseverance and resilience that has taken its toll. Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch ( https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion ) or here on GoFundMe ( https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion ) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support. Philippians 4:12-13 "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength." ---------------------------------------------------- In the depths of my journey, six months gone by, I've opened my heart, letting tears freely fly. Grateful for blessings, though they barely dent, The weight of my burden with every dollar spent. With each passing day, I search for a sign, A glimmer of hope in this struggle of mine. Trusting in God's timing, since I was a child, Through decades of hardship, His love compiled. Circumstances led me to this trying place, Where debt and despair I continue to face. Yet faith keeps me standing, hopeful and strong, In the darkest of nights, I still sing my song. I know what it's like, to have plenty or lack, To find contentment, even when under attack. For through Him who strengthens, I find my reprieve, I n every trial faced, I still firmly believe. So I ask for your prayers, your kindness to share, For a job offer, a lifeline, for someone to care. In the midst of this struggle, together we'll cope, For with faith as our guide, there's always hope. go to top of page   29 March 2024  As we are closing in on six months, I want to thank those that have contributed and offered words of encouragement. I would not have been able to make it this far without either. I knew once my finances started spiraling downward, it would snowball and become really unmanageable. Now that my health is better, I have been able to look for work, but no job offers have come through yet. I try to keep a hopeful and positive spirit, but inside I am crying. I know If I can get help to pay off this $9,900 debt, I will be able to continue fighting to improve my mental health. I am desperate to not default on my house. I haven't had money for food in some time, so I have been using the little credit I had left, but that is now exhausted. I used my house money to pay for my my other bills, so now it is time to pay my 1283.00 house note, but I don't have the money. I went from 100% paying all my bills on time to now defaulting on some accounts, and feeling worthless. I had to cancel my home warranty and my accidental home insurance which was my safety net as a homeowner. I have paid 16 years on my life insurance, but had to let that lapse as well. The only thing I can do is to continue to pray and ask for help from the world at large. I understand that my problems are my problems, but I hear, "if you need help ask" or "you aren't weak for asking"- so I have asked, for nearly six months I have asked. Rejection makes one strong, and I sure have felt rejected. I would be so thankful for any donations. I can make $10.00 go a long way for food. Please consider sharing my GoFundMe link https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion  in your communities online and offline. I really appreciate the effort in helping me find donors. Again, I want to express how grateful I am for those that have made a donation. Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble." 22 March 2024 This month, unfortunately, no donations have come in, and I'm still struggling financially. As my mental and physical health has been improving, I've been able to actively seek employment, but unfortunately, none of my submitted applications have resulted in opportunities yet. My faith in God is what gives me the ability to cope and the courage to keep reaching out for assistance. I know God is also working in others, guiding them here with an open heart to help. I urge everyone to look within and find a shred of empathy. Please consider donating or sharing my link and story to help me find donors with the ability and willingness to assist. Even a small donation of five dollars can make a significant difference, as it can feed me for a few days or go towards refilling my much needed medicine. Thank you for your support and consideration during this difficult time. Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand." 15 March 2024  I was reminded today that others in the world have it much worse than me. Of course they do, but that doesn't in any way, make my life less tragic, nor does it change the way my brain works. A few months back, a relative by marriage made a public post-whether aimed at me or not- I don't know. She said, "everyone has had childhood trauma, get over it." It was a mean thing to say to anyone dealing with trauma. Not everyone, including me, has had support in their life. I thank God for protecting me and providing for me throughout my life. With gratitude and humility, I recognize that I have been spared from many dangerous situations through the years. There but for the grace of God go I. God is giving me the strength to continue living and asking for help. I pray that God will open some hearts that can relieve me of this financial burden, so I am able to pay for basic needs. I am encouraged, as a believer, to have faith and trust in God's ability to accomplish extraordinary things in my life, beyond what I can conceive or request. It reminds me that through the power of the Holy Spirit working within me, God is capable of exceeding my expectations and accomplishing His plans. Thank you to those that have made donations that have allowed me to survive over the last five months. A special thank you to the one that suggested I create a GoFundMe. Please donate and pray that others will donate. I would very much appreciate it if you would share this link within your communities, whether offline or online. Ephesians 3:20 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us." 08 March 2024  I don't feel as hopeless, and suicidal, as I did in these past weeks and months. I was not able to pay the minimum payments on two accounts equal to $471 last week, and now the minimum is $982; these accounts will just have to go into default. My debt has skyrocketed to well over $20,000 from the interest on all of the accounts over the last 6 months that I have been asking -begging- for help. I still have hope that I can get help from some generous donors to pay off some of my other suffocating debt of slightly over $9,918. I am grateful for every contribution, as they have been able to provide me with food, utilities, and medical insurance these last months. I have not been able to buy any more medicine since 30 September 2023, so I have been using it only in dire circumstances. I don't know what will happen in the coming weeks since very few are willing to donate even $5 which could by me food for a few days. Please continue to pray for me. Share this link in your communities online and off. I continue to listen to the whispers from God that he will provide and never give up hope. One way God provides is by making it possible for others to help. I get discouraged, but then I recall what I have been through, and what I have accomplished along the way to get to where I am right now. Romans 12:6-8 "We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully." go to top of page   29 February 2024  In the wake of my mother's passing this past week, I find myself struggling with overwhelming emotions and an insurmountable financial crisis. The continued absence of family support has magnified the weight of my burdens, leaving me feeling isolated and vulnerable. Despite reaching out for assistance, I've received support from very few, compounding the challenges I already face. I want to express that I am extremely thankful for the eight people that have donated, and those that have donated multiple times to keep me going. However, with each passing day, the financial strain grows more suffocating, casting a shadow of uncertainty over my future. The job market remains merciless, offering little respite in the midst of my struggles. I am now maxed out on credit, and I just have to trust that God will provide my basic necessities. Your generosity has the power to change my dire circumstances and provide a glimmer of hope amidst the darkness. Your contributions, no matter how small, can make a world of difference in alleviating the burden I carry. If you are not able to help financially, please help through sharing and prayer. 2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God." 21 February 2024  Things are spiraling downward, but I am trying to stay positive. I have applied for some jobs, but it is difficult to find anything considering the state of my mental health and age. When times get tough, I often think about what Jesus said about giving and how it comes back to you, overflowing even. It's like the idea that being kind to those in need brings blessings in return. And then there's Jesus's teachings about helping out people in trouble—it's all about being there for each other, treating others like we'd want to be treated. So, if you're able to lend a hand by donating to my GoFundMe, it's not just helping me out—it's showing that kindness and community can make a real difference. Acts 20:35 "In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.'" 13 February 2024  Dear God, In this time of need, I humbly come before you, seeking your guidance and provision. You know the challenges I face, the burdens weighing heavy on my heart. Lord, I ask for your divine intervention in my financial situation. Send forth your angels to touch the hearts of those who have the means to help. Open their eyes to see my struggle and open their hearts to extend a helping hand. Bless them abundantly for their generosity and kindness. Grant me strength and patience as I wait upon your timing, knowing that you are always faithful to provide. Help me to continue to trust in your plans and to remain steadfast in prayer. May your grace surround me, Lord, as I navigate through this uncertainty. May I find peace in knowing that you are my provider and sustainer, and that you will never forsake me. Thank you, Lord, for hearing my prayer. I surrender my worries and fears into your loving hands, trusting that you will answer according to your perfect will. In Jesus' name, Amen. 1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you." 09 February 2024  Thank you for those that have helped me survive these last months. The hurt I am feeling from the lack of compassion in the world is getting to be more than I can handle. I am trying to hold on, while, a permanent solution for a temporary problem echoes in my mind. I don't know what else to do or how I can survive this overwhelming debt. When it was suggested to me to create a GoFundMe, I should have listened to my instincts that the world is uncaring for a nobody like me. I can only trust that whatever I do is God's will. 1 John 2:17 "The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever." 08 February 2024  God help me. Ephesians 2:8 "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—" 01 February 2024  It's February 1st; I am feeling hopeless and helpless. I will continue to listen to the whispers of God in all areas of my life, and heed the advice of my doctor. It is sometimes a moment at a time, but I have faith that I will make it through these crises. 1 John 3:17 "If anyone has material possessions and sees a brother or sister in need but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person?" go to top of page   26 January 2024  I'm dealing with significant financial strain, and it's disheartening to realize the lack of compassion in the world. It's a lonely struggle, trying to overcome financial difficulties without the support I had hoped for. I've set a goal of $20,000, and your help, even with a modest contribution of $5, $10, or any amount you can, brings me closer to overcoming this tough time. In a world that can often feel indifferent, your empathy will stand out. Your contribution plays a direct role in addressing immediate needs and making a meaningful impact. I understand that some choose to donate anonymously, perhaps it is embarrassing to be associated with the topic of my campaign. Your support, in any form, is crucial. Thank you for any contribution to my cause. While there are over 200 million adults in the U.S. and over 4 billion adults worldwide, it's discouraging to face the reality that, despite the vast number of people who could potentially help, the support I need remains elusive. It would only take 400 people to donate $50 and my goal would be met. Alternatively, it would take only 200 amazing individuals to donate $100 to see past the horizon. Even with a modest $5 donation, collectively 4000 individuals could change my life. It doesn't seem out of reach. I can only pray. Matthew 5:42 "Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you." 20 January 2024  I want to express my sincere gratitude to those who have already contributed to my fundraiser. Your support means more to me than words can convey. As I navigate through these challenging times, I find myself in a situation that requires assistance, and I have humbly reached out to you for help. My goal is to raise $20,000 to address this overwhelming debt that is causing me severe distress. While I've tried to stay positive and hopeful, the reality is that I am still a considerable distance from reaching my target. If everyone who has seen my GoFundMe had donated even $20, we would have surpassed the goal already. I understand that times are tough for everyone, and I appreciate the kindness and generosity of those who have contributed. If you haven't had the opportunity to donate yet, I kindly ask you to consider making a contribution. Every dollar brings me closer to the support I need. Your generosity has the power to make a significant impact on my situation, and I am grateful for any help you can provide. Please share this message with others who might be willing to contribute. Thank you for being a source of hope during this challenging time. Proverbs 3:27 Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to act. 12 January 2024  In my journey to find solace and purpose, I poured my heart into writing a self-discovery book. While the dream of book sales solving my outstanding debt is hopeful, the impact of your donations is deeply appreciated. Grateful for those who've touched my life with their generosity. For more details, visit my Amazon author's page: https://amazon.com/author/abbye   Proverbs 19:17 Whoever is kind to the poor lends to the Lord, and he will reward them for what they have done. 09 January 2024  I am remaining hopeful with prayer that my fundraiser will reach people that are able and willing to donate. I am doing my best to concentrate on projects (like the one attached) to stay busy, so I don't worry. I know God is with me, and fighting my battles for me. I often get reminders, and this bible verse was right there waiting for me to see today! I am grateful for every donation. Galatians 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." 01 January 2024  Struggling to find the words, but reaching out for support. I've always been told that if you need help, you should ask. So here I am, asking. I'm running thin on hope, trying to hang on, and it's incredibly hard. I don't understand. Please help me understand. It feels like billions of people could care less that I'm suffering—maybe they don't know about my struggle, maybe they don't care. If you have the ability to advocate for me and you don't, you will answer to God—this I know. I felt judged as so many turned their back on me when they read my detailed story. Because of this, I removed a lot of details. It's now a much watered-down version, but the full story is on repeat in my head. Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit." Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest." Your thoughts, prayers, and support are needed. go to top of page

This is part one in a series about neighbors. For the purpose of this post, "neighbor" or "neighbors" is a person or group living near me, including those on my street, in my neighborhood or community. They may be friends, relatives, or just people that live and work in the community. The focus will be personal anecdotes showcasing kindness, love, and compassion. I will reference bible verses to support my thoughts about neighbors. Throughout my formative years, it was drilled into me that "people cannot be trusted" and "there is no such thing as a friend—only acquaintances." Although those phrases still echo in my mind, I have never agreed with that line of thinking. While the Bible emphasizes love for neighbors and friends, it also acknowledges the reality of human nature and not everyone acts with integrity. Micah 7:5 "Do not trust a neighbor; put no confidence in a friend. Even with the woman who lies in your embrace guard the words of your lips." Jeremiah 9:4 "Beware of your friends; do not trust anyone in your clan. For every one of them is a deceiver, and every friend a slanderer." Even though I have considerable trust issues, I treat everyone I meet as a friend, including neighbors. If they show me they lack good character or provide some other reason not to trust them, I may distance myself, but I am very forgiving and a bridge can be rebuilt. I'm not sure if my perspective is innate within me, pure rebellion against what I was taught as a child or a lesson I picked up as a young girl attending church. The following conversation, in part, referenced in the Bible (Luke 10: 25-28) speaks about eternal life and loving your neighbor as yourself: Law Expert: “Teacher,” he asked, “what must I do to inherit eternal life?” Jesus: “What is written in the Law?” he replied. “How do you read it?” Law Expert: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’ and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.'” Jesus: “You have answered correctly,” Jesus replied. “Do this and you will live.” This is a philosophy that I can rally behind. I have been fortunate to have lived in some amazing communities and have met some great neighbors in the places where I have lived. It is difficult to form long lasting bonds having moved around quite a bit—seven states, fourteen cities/towns, and twenty addresses—but the common constant is the memories of my neighbors. Neighbors: Relatively Close A few of my earliest memories was during my very early childhood close to where I was born, and where my parents grew up and later married. Looking back, I would describe this city as a vibrant urban area just outside a major city, where each distinct neighborhood had a close-knit charm despite its proximity to the hustle and bustle. I recall visiting my maternal and paternal grandparents before we moved away. Visiting my grandparents' houses as a three or four year old was like stepping into two different worlds. My Italian grandparents’ home was loud and lively, with a table overflowing with a variety of pasta and meats, breads, and salads—where my grandmother would passionately point and shout 'Mangia, mangia!' In contrast, my Polish grandparents’ house was a serene retreat, with a quiet TV humming in the background, where my grandmother gently yet sternly urged us to be quiet, saying, 'I'm watching my story,' as we slid down the carpeted staircase. When we weren't inside, we were outside gathering bags of pears from the huge pear tree in the backyard. While my memories of visiting my grandparents' houses are few, each visit felt like a grand adventure, filled with excitement and warmth. My grandmothers were strong women, each commanding respect with their authority, whereas my grandfathers had an undeniable strong and stoic presence. Maybe it was during my visits to my grandparents’ homes that I learned the values of hospitality, compassion, resilience and gratitude. These moments have stayed with me and remain cherished in my heart. Romans 12:13 "Share with the Lord’s people who are in need. Practice hospitality." Neighbors: Petals Around Town When we moved to a lakeside community, I was just a grade school kid ready to meet new neighbors. It was only about an hour away from where we used to live close to my grandparents. I guess our family growing to seven kids in a short time made it too challenging for my parents to visit them. Reflecting back, I can almost feel the excitement bubbling inside me when we finally moved in. It was a little while away from the busy city near my grandparents, and everything felt new and different. I remember the streets being quieter, with trees lining the roads, and my bike wheels spinning as I rode around. I’d zoom down the hills, feeling the breeze whip through my hair. The lake—just down the street, down a monstrous hill, and I am there—felt calm, peaceful and free. The air was filled with fresh smells, and instead of honking cars, I could hear birds chirping and leaves rustling—and the sounds of other children outside playing! It was an adventure to explore the neighborhood, discovering little nooks and crannies. Over the next several years, I would feel like a brave explorer in a wonderful place so close, yet so far, from what I used to know. Next door to the right lived an older couple that grew rhubarb. Although I can only recall the emotion, I remember enjoying listening to them with wide-eyed curiosity. One day they were gone—I was told an out of state traffic accident claimed their lives. In the house to the left were three boys, the youngest my age with bright orange hair who, like me, played the trombone. I remember feeling sad when I learned they were moving to England. There was a small diner near my elementary school, close to where I would be hit by a car. I don't know if that accident is connected to why I began going to this diner as a kid alone. Several times, I picked some Morning Glories that adorned the fence line of my school and brought them to a nice lady who ran the diner. It brought so much inner joy to make someone smile. The memory of what she looked like has faded, but the emotion I felt in those moments are still vivid. Another flower incident occurred with a neighbor which possibly triggered the end to my blossoming flower delivery service. Confidently, I stopped at a neighbor's house on a side street, picked her tulips, rang the doorbell, and proudly stretched out my hand, telling her, "I picked some flowers for you." Her exact words have long been forgotten, but with kindness she let me know I shouldn't have picked her flowers. There were a few other interactions with neighbors in the community. The one thing they each said as they embraced me was, 'You'll be okay!" Those words can still bring me comfort when I am feeling lost or confused. Though my memories of this lakeside community are few, these encounters with neighbors left an indelible mark on my soul. God whispers, "You'll be okay!" as a daily reminder not to give up. Colossians 3:12 "Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. Neighbors: Over Yonder Just as I was trying to adjust to being a teenager, we moved again, but this time to a new state. My grandparents were aging, and now five hours away; the neighbors from the lake were four hours away. Time and distance takes its toll! On the bright side, each move opens the door to new beginnings and new neighbors! It was a beautiful and serene rural area near a lake. Neighbors were spread out, with some living a half mile down the road, but most much farther away. I always enjoyed talking to people; learning as much as possible while helping in any way I could. I met the older couple that owned the tavern/inn after I started walking to the lake shortly after moving there. It was a mile through a forest lined, winding, hilly road, but for me it was a passageway to safety. They kept watch over this opinionated teen whenever I would walk to the lake, play pool, or come for the live weekend music. It was exciting when they asked me to play on the softball team they sponsored! Another neighbor I met lived over three miles away on a small dairy farm. The school bus would drop me off at the intersection in front of the farm. It was a long walk home, so I started talking to the lady at the farm before heading down the road. This wonderfully kind lady always took the time to answer my endless questions and give me tasks whenever I asked how I could help. In both cases, I wish I had the actual memories, or some photographs. I only have the general emotional connection—I know these neighbors existed, I know I felt safe, I know I am eternally thankful. As I moved on to my next chapter in life, adulthood, the neighborly stories continued. Every time, I found myself adjusting to new surroundings, meeting neighbors who always seemed to reflect the heart of the place. With each move, from one state to the next, I became more and more detached—to be continued. Hebrews 13:1-2 "Keep on loving one another as brothers and sisters. Do not forget to show hospitality to strangers, for by so doing some people have shown hospitality to angels without knowing it." Got neighbor stories that could warm a heart or raise an eyebrow?

I give not from plenty but from a willing heart for I’ve seen the need—the tear-filled eyes. It’s in these moments I feel Your call to share my blessings, no matter the size. In the hands of the poor, I place my gift. Not for reward, but because it’s right. For in serving others, I see Your face, and in their darkness, I share Your light. I don’t give out of pressure or pride, but with joy. Knowing You see what I do, and every small act, every word of care is a reflection of the love I owe to You. When anxiety weighs down a troubled soul, may my kindness lift them from despair. in giving, I too am blessed—a reminder that You are always there. So I open my hand and give with grace, trusting You to multiply what’s small. For You have said, in every measure the greatest gift is love above all. Acts 20:35 "In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive."

You're fascinated by languages, drawn to the intricate web of sounds, grammar rules, and cultural nuances that shape the way we communicate. If you've ever thought about embarking on a journey to learn a language that not only opens doors to a new way of speaking but also offers a window into a unique culture, then Māori might just be the perfect choice for you. Let's delve into the intriguing world of Māori: its distinctive features, broad geographical reach, cultural influence, historical roots, learning difficulty, common stumbling blocks, and practical use in today's world. The Uniqueness of Māori Māori, the indigenous language of New Zealand, is a Polynesian language with a rich history that dates back centuries. What sets Māori apart is its captivating phonetics, pronounced vowels, and a rhythmic flow that mirrors the beauty of the lands where it originated. Each word carries with it a story—a connection to the land, nature, and the ancestors who shaped Māori identity. Geographic Reach Despite New Zealand being the birthplace of Māori, the language has transcended borders, reaching global audiences intrigued by its melodic tones and profound meanings. From the lush landscapes of Aotearoa to distant shores where Māori communities have settled, the echoes of this language resonate far and wide, bridging distances through shared words and cultural expressions. Cultural Influence and Historical Roots Māori isn't just a language; it's a key to unlocking the treasures of an entire culture. The language reflects the values, beliefs, and traditions of the Māori people, serving as a vessel for storytelling, songs, and ceremonial rituals that have been passed down through generations. Embracing Māori means immersing yourself in a world where every word is imbued with the wisdom and spirit of a resilient culture. The Learning Journey Embarking on a quest to learn Māori is a rewarding yet challenging endeavor. The language's unique grammar structure, extensive use of macrons, and pronunciation intricacies require dedication and persistence. However, don't be discouraged by the initial hurdles; every step you take towards mastering Māori will deepen your understanding of a language that holds the soul of a nation. Common Difficulties One of the common stumbling blocks for learners of Māori is the alphabet, which includes long vowels and consonants not present in English. Understanding the correct pronunciation and intonation can prove tricky, but with practice and patience, you'll soon find yourself harmonizing with the cadence of Māori words. Practical Use in Today's World While learning Māori may present challenges, the practical benefits of mastering this unique language are undeniable. With New Zealand's increasing recognition of Māori as an official language and efforts to promote its use in various sectors, including education and government, proficiency in Māori opens doors to a multitude of opportunities both within and beyond the country's borders. Embrace the Voyage As you set sail on your Māori-learning adventure, remember that every word you learn is a bridge to a vibrant culture and a community rich in heritage. Dive into the depths of the language, immerse yourself in its cadence, and let the echoes of Māori guide you through a transformative linguistic and cultural journey. So, are you ready to embark on this linguistic odyssey? The world of Māori awaits, inviting you to explore, learn, and connect with a language that encapsulates the essence of New Zealand's cultural tapestry. Let the journey begin! A Few Basic Phrases In this section, you'll find some essential phrases to help you get started in each language. 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Psalm 28:7 "The Lord is my strength and my shield; my heart trusts in him, and he helps me. My heart leaps for joy, and with my song I praise him." It is evening on Tuesday, 08 October 20024 and Hurricane Milton is still on route to central Florida. Destruction and floods are expected when this monstrous storm sweeps across the state making landfall on the Gulf Coast near Tampa and exiting to the Atlantic coast near Cape Canaveral. The outer bands extend 75 miles to the north and south of center. Currently teetering between category 4 and 5, it is predicted that Milton will decrease to category 3 before closing in on the coast. I've spent the last two days preparing as much as I can. I trimmed up a bush and brought a chair in from outside. In the process, I talked to three neighbors! It has been really nice meeting and chatting with my neighbors at will. If something happens, it is understood, we can all lean on each other. I am so thankful to be on this street and in this community. Considering a slight change in path could either increase or decrease the risk of damage in my area, the storms uncertain path is a concern that affects each person differently. I hope for the best, remaining positive, while prepping for the worst. I was able to get a bit of food yesterday by some miracle. I did some extra cooking today and froze some meals. In case we lose power, I will be able to eat for several days. I have bottled water and some frozen gel packs. I have a few battery powered lanterns . I have used these countless times over the past four years! They are an excellent source of light during emergencies and other situations! I also charged my jump starter for additional help if we were to lose power in my neighborhood. It's important to lessen any possible triggers to anxiety prior to the storm. The hurricane itself will be plenty to handle as the rain pours and the wind whistles.. Speaking of whistles, I have two in my pocket in case I need help during this storm. My plan is to have my clothes and dishes washed and put away to avoid any anxiety that could arise. My neighbor was taking pictures of his house. I thought it was a great idea, so I took video of the exterior of my house and each room of the interior.. I also took video of my car and garage contents. There is a mental argument going on in my head, one voice saying I should upload the videos to keep them safe, another strongly telling me all the reasons I shouldn't upload them and although the videos may be safe, I wouldn't be safe. If my phone gets damaged during Milton, it will be the least of my worries. Overall, I would say I am more prepared to face this storm compared to other times. I am praying for everyone who is affected by this deadly storm. Already 1 million people are under a mandatory evacuation in Florida. Within the next 36 hours, when the storm approaches the coast, forecasts will become clearer, providing more accurate information about its path and potential impact. We can’t control the storm, but we can prepare for what’s ahead—one step at a time. Proverbs 21:31 "The horse is made ready for the day of battle, but victory rests with the Lord."

As I sit here, contemplating the approaching Tropical Storm Milton, a mix of anticipation and worry fills my mind. The meteorological reports don't paint a pretty picture - what is a mere tropical storm now is projected to escalate into a Category Three hurricane by the time it reaches the Gulf Coast near St. Petersburg, Florida. The trajectory of the storm is cause for concern—my house is situated within the zone of movement, not far north from the predicted path. The reports indicate the most severe rain will be north of the center. While I hope that the storm spares us its worst effects, I am aware that if Hurricane Milton shifts northward before or after landfall, I could find myself in its direct path as it travels across the state and exits into the Atlantic Ocean. This looming threat isn't my first encounter with nature's wrath. I have been impacted by six hurricanes over the last several years. While I am grateful that God has protected me and kept me safe, the experience can still be harrowing. Even in the outer bands, the intensity of the storms can still be overwhelming and frightening. When compounded with a power outage, the situation becomes even more challenging and stressful. The most recent was Hurricane Helene, a Category Four storm, which clawed its way north through the Florida Panhandle, with me teetering on the periphery of its reach within the outer bands. It's moments like these that remind me how vulnerable I am in the face of Mother Nature's might. Ecclesiastes 4:10 "If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them." In these tense times, faith becomes my stronghold, a pillar of strength amidst the chaos. As I brace for the impending storm, I find peace in surrendering my fears to a higher power. Trusting in God's protection and provision becomes my anchor as I navigate the uncertainty that Hurricane Milton brings. Preparing for the Storm: Essential Hurricane Tips 1. Stay Informed Regularly monitor weather updates and heed official warnings. Knowledge is power when it comes to preparing for a hurricane. Stay informed about the storm's progress and be ready to act swiftly based on the evolving situation. Proverbs 18:15 "The heart of the discerning acquires knowledge, for the ears of the wise seek it out." 2. Emergency Kit Assembling an emergency kit is crucial. Include essentials such as non-perishable food, water, a first aid kit, medications, batteries, flashlights, and important documents in a waterproof container. Be prepared to be self-sufficient for several days. Proverbs 21:20 "The wise store up choice food and olive oil, but fools gulp theirs down." 3. Secure Your Property Take steps to fortify your home. Board up windows, secure outdoor furniture, trim trees and shrubs, and clear gutters. Preventative measures can mitigate potential damage during the storm. Ecclesiastes 10:18 "Through laziness, the rafters sag; because of idle hands, the house leaks." 4. Evacuation Plan Have a clear evacuation plan in place. Know your evacuation route and destination. Follow authorities' instructions if evacuation orders are issued. Safety should always be the top priority for you and your loved ones. Proverbs 22:3 "The prudent see danger and take refuge, but the simple keep going and pay the penalty." 5. Communication Keep lines of communication open with family and friends. Ensure everyone is aware of the plan and has a way to stay connected. In times of crisis, support and communication are vital. Philippians 2:4 "Not looking to your own interests but each of you to the interests of the others." 6. Emotional Well-being Don't underestimate the emotional toll that a hurricane can take. Stay connected with loved ones, practice self-care, and be prepared for the mental challenges that may arise during and after the storm. 1 Thessalonians 5:11 "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing." 7. Trust in God Amidst the chaos and uncertainty, find peace in faith. Trust that God will provide protection, strength, and guidance during the storm. Lean on your belief for comfort and courage as you weather the challenges ahead. Psalm 46:1-2 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea." When the winds begin to pick up and the skies darken, I will hold onto my faith, knowing that I am not alone in facing Hurricane Milton. With trust in God's providence, I brace myself for what lies ahead, ready to navigate the storm with resilience and hope. Psalm 55:22 "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken."

As I sit down to reflect on the choices that have shaped my life, one decision stands out prominently—the day I hesitated on purchasing the Canon EOS Rebel T7 DSLR Camera . It feels like a distant memory now, blurred by the whirlwind of events that took place after that moment of indecision. "When life gets blurry, adjust your focus." Several years back, I found myself torn between investing in this coveted camera and saving for other ventures like a trip to Italy or Poland. Little did I know that a pandemic was poised to take the world by storm, halting all plans and redirecting the course of my life. Working tirelessly toward my goals, I soon set my sights on a bigger dream—a home. Amidst uncertainties and challenges, I managed to secure a house at a price even cheaper than my anticipated rent increase, a feat that filled me with immense pride. However, as life unfolded, unexpected twists emerged. Just six months into homeownership, my mental well-being took a hit, and I faced the need to transition to a fixed income. Despite the hurdles, I persevered, clinging to the belief that brighter days lay ahead. Having spent so much time indoors, it’s during my time outside, the thought of the Canon EOS Rebel T7 DSLR Camera has resurfaced in my mind "Sometimes you have to go through the negatives to develop a positive." Every day, as I step outside into the warm Florida breeze, nature's wonders beckon me to capture them through a lens. The scurrying of lizards, the dance of flowers in the wind—all moments I yearn to immortalize with a camera tailored to my aspirations. While I still treasure my Canon 35mm from the '80s, its reliance on film rolls feels like a barrier in this digital age. Imagining the possibilities that lie ahead with the Canon EOS Rebel T7 DSLR Camera excites my senses. Its impressive features cater to both beginners and photography enthusiasts, offering a seamless experience in capturing life's fleeting moments. From stunning landscapes to intimate portraits, this camera promises a creative canvas waiting to be illuminated. To enhance the photography experience, Canon offers a variety of accessory bundles designed to complement the functionality of the EOS Rebel T7. These bundles may include essentials such as additional lenses, tripods, camera bags, memory cards, and remote shutter releases. By investing in these accessories, users can further elevate their photographic journey, ensuring they are equipped to explore diverse genres and techniques. "Life is like a camera. Focus on what's important, capture the good times, develop from the negatives, and if things don't work out, take another shot." As I struggle with the ebb and flow of life, I find peace in the thought of one day embarking on a new chapter with the Canon EOS Rebel T7 DSLR Camera by my side. Even though the future is unclear, the idea of capturing meaningful moments keeps me hopeful as I continue to grow and persevere. Colossians 3:2 “Set your minds on things that are above, not on things that are on earth.”

Have you ever been captivated by the melodic charm of the Norwegian language? Maybe you dream of wandering through Oslo’s vibrant streets, effortlessly engaging with locals in their native tongue. Learning Norwegian opens a door to not just a new language but to a world rich in history, culture, and geographical wonders. Join us on a journey to uncover the unique allure of the Norwegian language and its fascinating nuances. Discovering Norwegian: A Linguistic Gem Norwegian, a North Germanic language, stands out for its poetic cadence and rhythmic intonations. Its roots trace back to Old Norse, the language of the Vikings. The language’s unique features, such as pitch accent and extensive vowel sounds, contribute to its distinct musicality. Geographic Reach and Cultural Influence Spoken by over 5 million people, primarily in Norway, Norwegian also holds official language status in institutions such as the Nordic Council. Its linguistic influence extends to other Scandinavian languages like Swedish and Danish, forming a linguistic spectrum enriched by shared history and cultural exchanges. Historical Roots: Unraveling the Past Immerse yourself in the historical tapestry of Norwegian, interwoven with tales of Viking conquests and medieval sagas. The language’s evolution over centuries reflects Norway’s shifting political landscapes and cultural interactions with neighboring regions. Mastering Norwegian: A Challenge Worth Pursuing While learning Norwegian presents its challenges, the rewards are manifold. From navigating complex grammar rules to tackling unfamiliar pronunciations, the journey to fluency may seem daunting. Yet, with dedication and practice, each linguistic hurdle becomes a stepping stone towards linguistic proficiency. Common Difficulties: Grammar, Alphabet, and Pronunciation Navigating Norwegian grammar can be a formidable task, with its intricate rules and exceptions. The alphabet, featuring additional characters like æ, ø, and å, adds a layer of complexity to language learning. Pronunciation, marked by subtle differences in vowel sounds, requires attentive listening and careful practice. Practical Use: Unlocking Opportunities Beyond the realm of language learning, mastering Norwegian opens doors to diverse opportunities. Whether you aspire to work in Norway, study its rich literary heritage, or simply connect with native speakers, fluency in Norwegian paves the way for meaningful exchanges and cross-cultural collaborations. Embark on Your Norwegian Odyssey Embark on your Norwegian odyssey and immerse yourself in the language’s lyrical beauty and cultural richness. Explore the fjords and forests of Norway, engage in heartfelt conversations with locals, and experience the profound sense of belonging that comes with speaking the language of the Vikings. In Conclusion Learning Norwegian transcends acquiring a new language; it unveils a world of boundless possibilities and deep-rooted traditions. Whether you seek intellectual stimulation, cultural enrichment, or simply a new challenge, the journey to mastering Norwegian promises a rewarding venture into the heart of Nordic culture. Dive into the enchanting world of Norwegian and let the art of Nordic conversation weave its magic into your linguistic pursuits. As you navigate grammar intricacies and embrace unfamiliar sounds, remember that each word learned brings you closer to the vibrant tapestry of the Norwegian language. A Few Basic Phrases In this section, you'll find some essential phrases to help you get started in each language. Whether you're meeting someone new or simply navigating daily conversations, these expressions are key to connecting with others. Take a look, and start practicing these handy phrases! Norwegian Jeg heter Abbye! Hva heter du? My name is Abbye! What is your name? Hyggelig å møte deg! Nice to meet you! Hvordan har du det? Jeg har det bra! How are you? I'm doing well! Jeg forstår ikke. I don’t understand. Hva er klokka? What time is it? More Resources Duolingo A popular app for learning languages through interactive exercises and games. duolingo.com Pricing: Free with ads; Duolingo Plus available for $6.99/month (ad-free and additional features). Platform: Available on PC, iOS, and Android. Details: Offers a gamified learning experience with bite-sized lessons in multiple languages. It includes speaking, listening, and writing exercises. Languages Offered: Over 30 languages, including Spanish, French, German, Italian, Portuguese, Chinese, Japanese, Korean, Arabic, and more. Babbel Offers courses designed by language experts, focusing on conversation skills. babbel.com Pricing: Subscription model—$12.95/month; discounts for longer subscriptions (e.g., $83.40 for 12 months). Platform: Available on PC, iOS, and Android. 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Details: Provides structured classes with certified teachers. Focuses on speaking, grammar, and vocabulary. Languages Offered: English, Spanish, French, German, and Business English. Pimsleur Audio-based language learning programs focused on conversation skills. pimsleur.com Pricing: One-time purchase for courses (e.g., $119.95 for a full level). Subscription options are also available. Platform: Available on PC, iOS, and Android. Details: Audio-based language learning focusing on conversational skills. Each lesson is about 30 minutes, designed for auditory learners. Languages Offered: 50+ languages, including Spanish, French, German, Italian, Mandarin Chinese, Russian, and more. italki A platform to find language tutors for personalized lessons. italki.com Pricing: Pay-per-lesson; prices vary based on the tutor (average $10-30 per hour). Platform: Available on PC, iOS, and Android. Details: Connects you with language tutors for personalized lessons. You can choose based on tutor ratings, languages, and lesson focus. Languages Offered: Supports a wide range of languages, including Spanish, French, German, Italian, Chinese, Japanese, Russian, and many others. Additional Information: Community Features: Many of these platforms have community features where learners can interact, share experiences, and practice together. Mobile Apps: Most resources offer mobile apps for learning on the go. Trial Options: Some platforms offer free trials or sample lessons, allowing users to test them before committing.