Halloween has finally arrived, and it’s your time to dive into all things spooky, playful, and just a little eerie. Whether you’re a longtime Halloween enthusiast or someone who’s ready to embrace the season in full force, here’s everything you need to know to make the most of it! 1. Dress to Thrill You know Halloween isn’t Halloween without a great costume. Whether you’re crafting it from scratch, upcycling last year’s look, or going all-out with a new outfit, let your creativity shine. Think about what makes you feel bold, mysterious, or downright funny. From classic witches to unexpected characters, you’ve got the chance to be anyone—or anything—you want tonight. 2. Get Your Space Spookified Setting the stage is half the fun! Take your home or even just your front porch and turn it into a mini haunted house. Hang some cobwebs, light a few candles (safely!), and put up some playful or eerie decorations. Jack-o'-lanterns are a must, but you could also add little touches like fake spiders or moody lighting. When you step back, you’ll feel the Halloween vibes creeping in. 3. Stock Up on Treats Trick-or-treaters will be expecting something good, and you can’t let them down! Whether you’re a fan of classic candies or want to hand out something unique, keep your stash ready by the door. Maybe even grab a few extra for yourself—after all, it’s part of the Halloween spirit to indulge! 4. Plan the Perfect Night In (or Out) Staying in for Halloween? You’re in for a cozy, spooky night! Pick out your favorite scary movies or a Halloween-themed playlist and set the mood with dim lighting and cozy blankets. If you’re heading out, you’ve got options from haunted houses to local events. Just make sure you go somewhere that’ll give you a good scare or at least a reason to laugh. 5. Haunted Tales and Ghost Stories It wouldn’t be Halloween without a ghost story or two. Why not gather some friends or family and share the spookiest tales you know? Or, if you prefer a solo experience, read a classic horror story that sends shivers down your spine. You’ll feel the thrill of the unknown, the perfect Halloween chill. 6. Enjoy the Sweet Side of Spookiness Finally, remember to enjoy the sweet side of Halloween. Whether it’s the candy, the laughter, or the joy of celebrating with others, take it all in. Halloween’s about letting loose and having fun, even if just for a night. You deserve it! So throw on that costume, embrace the spooky spirit, and make this Halloween a night to remember. Whatever you’re planning, dive into the frightful fun—you’re part of what makes Halloween so thrilling! 🎃 Romans 14:5-6 “One person considers one day more sacred than another; another considers every day alike. Each of them should be fully convinced in their own mind. Whoever regards one day as special does so to the Lord.”

I'm not typically someone who gets deeply involved in politics, but prior to the recent election, I wanted to be sure I was making an informed decision. So, I began listening to rallies from both sides and doing some research on past presidencies. What started as a quest for information gradually turned into something more fascinating. Before I knew it, I found myself writing this post about presidential assassinations and attempts. The history of U.S. presidents has been marked not only by triumphs and challenges but also by tragic incidents that forever changed the course of the nation's leadership. Four sitting presidents have been assassinated, and many others have faced attempts on their lives. These events, whether successful or thwarted, highlight the risks and dangers that come with the office, as well as the significant impact these attacks have had on American politics and security. Presidents Assassinated Four U.S. presidents have been assassinated while in office. These tragic events deeply impacted the nation and its history, leaving lasting marks on U.S. politics and society. Abraham Lincoln  (16th president) Assassinated on April 14, 1865, by John Wilkes Booth at Ford's Theatre in Washington, D.C. Lincoln died the following day, on April 15, 1865. He was shot while attending a play shortly after the end of the Civil War. James A. Garfield  (20th president) Assassinated on July 2, 1881, by Charles J. Guiteau. Garfield was shot in Washington, D.C., and he died from his wounds on September 19, 1881, after suffering from prolonged infections. William McKinley  (25th president) Assassinated on September 6, 1901, by Leon Czolgosz, an anarchist, during a public event at the Pan-American Exposition in Buffalo, New York. McKinley died from his wounds on September 14, 1901. John F. Kennedy  (35th president) Assassinated on November 22, 1963, by Lee Harvey Oswald in Dallas, Texas, while riding in a motorcade. Kennedy was shot and died shortly after the attack. The Lincoln-Kennedy Connection These nine similarities between Presidents Abraham Lincoln and John F. Kennedy are factual and have been widely recognized. These coincidences are often highlighted due to their remarkable nature, especially since both presidents experienced significant tragedies during their time in office. Both were elected to Congress in '46 : Lincoln was elected to the U.S. House of Representatives in 1846. Kennedy was elected to the U.S. House of Representatives in 1946. Both were elected president in '60 : Lincoln was elected president in 1860. Kennedy was elected president in 1960. Both were shot on a Friday : Lincoln was shot on a Friday, April 14, 1865. Kennedy was shot on a Friday, November 22, 1963. Both were shot in the head : Lincoln was shot in the head by John Wilkes Booth. Kennedy was shot in the head by Lee Harvey Oswald. Both were accompanied by their wives when shot : Lincoln was with his wife, Mary Todd Lincoln, at Ford's Theatre. Kennedy was with his wife, Jacqueline Kennedy, in the motorcade in Dallas. Both assassins were known by three names : John Wilkes Booth and Lee Harvey Oswald are both referred to by three names. Both assassins were killed before they went to trial : Booth was killed shortly after he shot Lincoln. Oswald was killed by Jack Ruby before he could stand trial. Both presidents were succeeded by men named Johnson : Lincoln was succeeded by Andrew Johnson. Kennedy was succeeded by Lyndon B. Johnson. Both Johnsons were born in '08 : Andrew Johnson was born in 1808. Lyndon B. Johnson was born in 1908. Whether these are just coincidences or something more meaningful is a matter of perspective, but there is no denying the patterns that exist between the two. "History repeats itself" is a common phrase that suggests events, patterns, or circumstances from the past often reoccur in the future.  The similarities between Lincoln and Kennedy are intriguing, and while they are often considered coincidences, their exact significance can be up for interpretation. Presidents Targeted in Assassination Attempts In addition to the four U.S. presidents who were assassinated, several other sitting presidents have been the target of assassination attempts. These attempted assassinations, though unsuccessful, still had significant impacts on the nation's leaders and security policies. Some led to changes in the protection of sitting presidents and heightened public awareness about political violence. Andrew Jackson  (7th president) Attempted assassination on January 30, 1835 by Richard Lawrence, who tried to shoot Jackson but both pistols misfired. Jackson then physically attacked Lawrence. Theodore Roosevelt  (26th president) Attempted assassination on October 14, 1912, while he was campaigning for a third term. He was shot by John Schrank, but the bullet was slowed by a metal case and his glasses, and Roosevelt survived the attack. Franklin D. Roosevelt  (32nd president) Attempted assassination on February 15, 1933 in Miami, Florida, by Giuseppe Zangara. Roosevelt was unharmed, but Chicago Mayor Anton Cermak, who was sitting next to him, was killed. Harry S. Truman  (33rd president) Attempted assassination on November 1, 1950, by Griselio Torresola and Oscar Collazo, who tried to storm the Blair House, where Truman was staying. The president was unharmed, but a White House police officer was killed. Gerald Ford  (38th president) Two attempted assassinations: The first on September 5, 1975 by Lynette "Squeaky" Fromme, a member of the Manson Family. She pointed a gun at Ford, but it didn't fire. The second on September 22, 1975 by Sara Jane Moore, who fired at Ford but missed, and she was quickly apprehended. Ronald Reagan  (40th president) Attempted assassination on March 30, 1981 by John Hinckley Jr., who shot Reagan outside a Washington, D.C., hotel. Reagan and his press secretary James Brady were seriously injured, but survived the attack. The Brady Handgun Violence Prevention Act was passed in 1993, which established a waiting period for handgun purchases and required background checks on gun buyers. George W. Bush (43rd president) Attempted assassination on May 10, 2005, while Bush was giving a speech in Freedom Square. Vladimir Arutyunian, a native Georgian, threw a live hand grenade toward the podium. Fortunately, the grenade did not explode, and President Bush and Georgian President Mikheil Saakashvili were unharmed. Assassination Attempts During Campaigns There have been assassination attempts on non-sitting presidents or during campaigns for the presidency. While these incidents are not all directly tied to sitting presidents at the time, they show that candidates and political figures have been targeted during campaigns and while seeking political office. Theodore Roosevelt  (1912) Attempted assassination during his campaign for a third term as a candidate for the Progressive Party. Date: October 14, 1912, in Milwaukee, Wisconsin. Details: Roosevelt was shot by John Schrank, who believed Roosevelt had caused the death of President William McKinley (whom Schrank idolized). The bullet was slowed by a thick speech manuscript and his glasses case, and although Roosevelt was wounded, he continued with his speech. The bullet was never removed, but he survived the attempt. Franklin D. Roosevelt  (1933) Attempted assassination while he was campaigning for president. Date: February 15, 1933, in Miami, Florida, before his inauguration. Details: Roosevelt was the target of an assassination attempt by Giuseppe Zangara, who fired at Roosevelt from a distance while he was giving a speech from an open car. Roosevelt was unharmed, but several others were hit, including Chicago Mayor Anton Cermak, who later died from his wounds. Robert F. Kennedy  (1968) Assassination attempt (successful) while campaigning for the Democratic nomination for president. Date: June 5, 1968, in Los Angeles, California, after winning the California primary. Details: Robert F Kennedy was shot by Sirhan Sirhan shortly after delivering his victory speech in the Ambassador Hotel. Kennedy died from his injuries a day later. George Wallace  (1972) Attempted assassination while campaigning for the Democratic nomination for president. Date: May 15, 1972, in Lauderdale, Alabama. Details: Wallace, the governor of Alabama, was shot and paralyzed from the waist down by Arthur Bremer, who was later convicted for the crime. Wallace was campaigning for the Democratic nomination and was a front-runner at the time. Donald J. Trump  (2016) Attempted assassination while campaigning for the 2016 presidential election. Date: November 5, 2016, in Nevada. Details: During a campaign rally in Nevada, a man in the crowd, Michael Steven Sandford, attempted to grab a police officer's gun in an effort to shoot Trump. Sandford was quickly apprehended, and no one was injured. He later admitted to the crime in court, stating that he had planned to kill Trump, believing that the candidate's rhetoric was dangerous. Sandford was sentenced to time in prison for the attempt. Donald J. Trump (2024) Two assassination attempts campaigning for the 2024 presidential election. Date: July 13, 2024 – Butler, Pennsylvania Rally Details: An attempted assassination took place during an open-air rally when Thomas Matthew Crooks opened fire using an AR-15-style rifle. Trump was injured in his right ear, while one attendee was killed and two others were critically wounded. Secret Service agents neutralized Crooks on the spot. Despite the injury, Trump remained alert, raising his fist in defiance, which gained attention on social media and became a slogan, "Fight, Fight, Fight." He received treatment for the ear wound and resumed public appearances shortly afterward, even attending the Republican National Convention with a bandage on his ear. Date: September 16, 2024 – Florida Golf Course Details: A possible assassination attempt occurred while Trump was golfing in Florida. Several loud popping sounds were heard, prompting Secret Service agents to rush to Trump's side for protection. Ryan Routh, 58, was detained by authorities. Although Routh had previously supported Trump, reports indicate he had recently shown support for President Biden and Vice President Harris. Investigators, led by the FBI, are currently looking into his motives. In Conclusion While the assassination of a sitting president is a rare and deeply unsettling event, assassination attempts—both failed and successful—serve as stark reminders of the vulnerabilities faced by those in power. Over time, these events have reshaped the way we think about security, politics, and the very essence of leadership. From the tragic loss of a leader like John F. Kennedy to the remarkable survival of Theodore Roosevelt, these moments in history remind us that the road to leadership is often paved with both hope and peril. Researching past presidents has been interesting and even triggered some faint memories. I was too young to remember the day JFK died, but I clearly remember hearing adults talk about the assassination of Bobby Kennedy and the attempts on the lives of George Wallace and Gerald Ford. At the time, I didn’t grasp the significance, but as an adult, I understand they were important moments in history. When President Reagan was shot, I was nineteen years old, and it ignited a sense of patriotism in me that I hadn't fully realized before. It was a turning point where I understood not just the pride of being American, but the responsibility to always express that pride and commitment. Voting is one of the most important ways I fulfill that responsibility—it's not just a right, but a civic duty I take seriously to ensure I am doing my part in shaping the future of my country. During the research of these presidential assassinations and attempts, I found myself uncovering even more interesting stories that I hope to write about in the future. From legislative changes like the Brady Act, to a unique four-term presidency and the eventual two-term limit, as well as the many family connections between past presidents, it’s clear there’s so much more to explore. I know I can easily get distracted when I start looking something up, but this time it was definitely worth it. It turned into one of those unexpected rabbit holes, but I’m really glad I went down it. God bless and keep America safe, especially President Trump and Vice President-elect J.D. Vance. As they are entrusted with leading our nation to Make America Great Again, may their efforts also bring peace and safety to the world. 1 Timothy 2:1-2 "I urge, then, first of all, that petitions, prayers, intercession and thanksgiving be made for all people—for kings and all those in authority, that we may live peaceful and quiet lives in all godliness and holiness."

I created some business cards to advertise my blog. I know it might seem odd to spend money on business cards while having a GoFundMe, but I believe investing in promoting my blog could eventually help me reach more people and gain support. Once I manage this overwhelming debt, I truly believe the blog has the potential to be a source of help and make a real difference for many. I did have a slight hiccup when making the cards. I wasn't aware I could change the layout. Looking at the first attempt, the font is really small and not very readable, but they’re still not totally useless. This is a proof, the actual card seems harder to read. I really love how the second batch turned out. This is a proof, font may have changed slightly. I should get them shortly—there's been a slight hurricane delay! I am wondering if I should have added +1 to the phone number? I think it will be alright without, hopefully. Edit: I noticed a change I would make. If I ever need a re-order, below will be it! Although, I am still considering listing my number as +1 (203) 302-0234. I will have to do some research first to see if it is necessary! Looks so much better! Wish I could just re-order! Edit 2 : I made some more changes as seen on this new card below. This looks so good to me. The logo being lined up looks amazing! This version brings all of the colors from the logo into the card, so it looks more cohesive. The color of the website address matches better to the flower at the top left. The number looks great and includes the US country code without looking too bulky. I made a decision to include my name as well. I think overall this card is a winner! Everything about it looks better than the original two and even better than the last edit! I wanted to get a custom domain which is only about $10 per year, but in order to connect it to this site, its about $18 per month—which is out of reach. Anyway, it looks great and hope I will be able to order them in the future! If only I could get the lot of them distributed! I’ve imagined countless ways to distribute them locally and worldwide, but they remain just ideas, unable to get past the gatekeeper called anxiety. I'm going to highlight the ones I have managed to complete! Locally: I could leave cards at coffee shops, bookstores, or libraries, asking if I can set them by the counter or pin them on community boards. I could bring some to local events or markets and hand them out to people who show interest. Dropping them off at businesses related to my blog’s themes or services might help reach the right audience. Although the blog covers a wide range of topics. I could give cards to people buying my items or at the upcoming garage sale I can offer cards to neighbors, asking if they’d be willing to share them with others they know. Worldwide: If I’m shipping items for sale, I could include a business card in every package I send. I could try sending my cards to friends or family members. They might be able to distribute them locally where they live or when they travel to different places. An option might be to connect with international online communities and ask for volunteers to distribute my cards in their cities or countries. As I was writing this post, a memory resurfaced. Although it isn't a bad memory, it reminds me of how devastating and limiting anxiety can be without support. Back in the mid ninety's, I was trying to start a printing business. I had very limited knowledge and ability, a free print program, and a decent PC and printer for the time. I can recall having big plans, I can visualize a price list, but it is too small to see. I even had one customer. He was a player/sponsor of our bowling team "Sew Unique", and I pitched him my printing services, and we struck a deal! I printed estimate sheets and envelopes using his logo, maybe business cards too? I remember how difficult it was getting the hot pink just right, but he ordered a few times, whether out of pity or he actually liked them, I don't know. I wish I could remember a bit more detail. I wasn't able to approach anyone else—the anxiety was crushing. At that time, I didn't know it was called anxiety, I just knew, once again, it prevented me from doing what was in my head. As the anxiety ate away at my confidence, it became more and more difficult to fill even that one order, and I gave up. I'm glad I found that memory, it reminds me that failure isn't fatal. I’ve got these cards, and they’re ready to go—now, if only I could convince my anxiety to take a vacation! Maybe one day, I’ll walk into a coffee shop, casually drop a stack of them on the counter, and walk out like it was nothing. For now, the cards sit like little promises waiting to be fulfilled. And even if they don’t make their way out just yet, I know they’re a reminder that my ideas are alive, waiting for the moment when I’m ready to bring them into the world—no matter how long it takes. Until then, I’ll keep dreaming up ways to make my blog’s message travel beyond my door! Proverbs 16:3 "Commit to the Lord whatever you do, and he will establish your plans."

I recently suggested the idea of a leaderboard to someone who was looking for ways to motivate his team and provide them a meaningful activity during downtime. I didn’t expect it, but he seemed bothered by the suggestion, questioning why people so often jump to leaderboards as a solution. His reaction made me realize that not everyone shares the same positive experiences I’ve had with leaderboards, and it got me thinking. So, I decided to dig deeper into the pros and cons of leaderboards and put together some insights on why they work well for some and not so well for others. Leaderboards can be a great tool in some environments, but they’re definitely not a one-size-fits-all solution, and opinions on them can vary widely. Leaderboards can boost motivation for some, helping people track progress and feel recognized. However, they can also create added pressure or feel misaligned in roles where collaboration and quality over quantity are valued. Here are some common reasons people might appreciate or oppose leaderboards in a workplace, especially in a professional setting. Reasons a Leaderboard Can Be Beneficial Encourages Engagement : Leaderboards can motivate employees by highlighting progress, making it more engaging to meet objectives or targets. Boosts Productivity : Some people enjoy having a visible goal to work toward and being able to see where they stand in relation to others. Creates Friendly Competition : In some cases, a leaderboard fosters a spirit of friendly competition that encourages everyone to push a bit harder, which can be motivating. Promotes Transparency : Leaderboards offer a way to display performance metrics openly, which can increase accountability and clarify goals. Encourages Self-Improvement : Leaderboards can drive individuals to reflect on their own performance and look for areas to improve, enhancing personal development. Recognizes Efforts : Public recognition through a leaderboard can be a way to acknowledge hard work and accomplishments, especially for those motivated by praise and acknowledgment. Incentivizes Learning : Leaderboards can be designed to promote activities that foster growth and learning, such as completing training or professional development modules. Supports Team Goals : With a cooperative or team-based leaderboard, individuals work toward collective goals, which can enhance teamwork and collaborative spirit. Reasons Some Dislike Leaderboards Can Create Unnecessary Pressure : For some, seeing their name on a leaderboard (especially if they're not near the top) can create stress and anxiety, which may actually hurt their performance. Can Influence Perceptions of Worth : People may define their worth and the worth of others based off their rank on the leaderboards. Focuses Too Much on Competition : In some departments, especially those where cooperation is key, a leaderboard can promote competition rather than the collaboration that is needed. Can Feel Discouraging : For employees who find themselves lower on the list, a leaderboard can feel demotivating, making them feel like they’re not meeting expectations, even if they’re doing quality work. Risk of Unhealthy Competition : In some cases, leaderboards can lead to unhealthy rivalries, with people focusing more on “beating” others than doing good work. Doesn’t Capture Full Performance : Leaderboards can be too simplistic, reducing performance to a single number or metric, which may not accurately reflect the complexity of tasks in some roles. Undermines Team Spirit : In collaborative environments, a leaderboard can erode a sense of unity if it feels like people are being ranked individually rather than encouraged to work together. May Detract from Quality : In fields where quality is critical, people may feel pressured to focus on speed or volume to improve their standing, which can reduce the quality of their work. Misaligned with Some Personalities : Some individuals are simply not motivated by competition or public ranking and prefer feedback that is private, one-on-one, or goal-oriented rather than comparative. In settings where the focus is often on detailed, complex work and tight collaboration, some people may see a leaderboard as reducing important efforts to oversimplified metrics. However, if approached thoughtfully—perhaps with team-based goals or other cooperative elements—it could still have value for fostering accountability and engagement without encouraging direct competition. There’s definitely some truth to the idea that preferences for leaderboards could reflect generational perspectives. People’s responses to competitive or public ranking systems like leaderboards can be influenced by the work cultures, educational experiences, and technology that were prevalent as they grew up. Let's take a look at how generational factors might play a role in these preferences. Why Older Generations May Prefer or Accept Leaderboards Traditional Competitive Frameworks : Older generations, particularly Gen X and Baby Boomers, were often raised with a strong emphasis on competition in education and work environments. Many workplaces promoted individual achievement, making public rankings and leaderboards relatively normal and accepted. Clear Performance Metrics : For some, especially in established industries, leaderboards serve as clear benchmarks of success that make it easy to see tangible results of hard work. Public recognition of achievements aligns with values often held by older workers who saw recognition as part of career progression. Familiarity with Hierarchical Structures : Many older professionals were accustomed to workplaces with clear hierarchies and performance metrics, so a leaderboard might seem like a natural extension of these systems. Why Younger Generations Might Dislike or Be Ambivalent About Leaderboards Collaborative Emphasis in Education and Work : Millennials and Gen Z grew up with an increasing emphasis on teamwork and collaborative learning. Many workplaces now prioritize cooperation and team-based success, making leaderboards seem misaligned with these values. Focus on Mental Health and Work-Life Balance : Younger generations have been vocal advocates for mental health and reducing workplace stress. Leaderboards, especially when perceived as a pressure source, can feel counterproductive to well-being and personal growth. Preference for Individualized Feedback : Millennials and Gen Z generally favor more personalized and private feedback over public rankings. Performance reviews and regular feedback sessions are often preferred to an impersonal ranking system. Awareness of Diverse Contributions : Younger professionals are often more attuned to diverse roles within a team. They might feel that leaderboards oversimplify contributions and don't recognize the unique ways each person contributes to success. Generational Differences in Leaderboard Design Preferences Interestingly, when designed in a way that promotes team success, gamifies learning, or highlights personal growth (without direct competition), leaderboards are often more popular with younger generations. In education and some tech workplaces, younger employees engage well with leaderboards if they are personalized or promote collaborative efforts, like recognizing team milestones rather than ranking individual performance. In short, while it’s not a strict generational divide, older generations may be more comfortable with traditional leaderboards due to familiarity with competitive frameworks, while younger generations often prefer more nuanced, collaborative, or growth-focused systems. Creative and Collaborative Approaches to Using Leaderboards Team-Based Rankings : Instead of focusing on individual scores, rank teams based on collective achievements. This promotes teamwork by encouraging group goals, rather than individual competition. Progress Toward Shared Goals : Use a leaderboard that tracks progress toward a company-wide or team-wide target (e.g., a certain number of client goals achieved or customer feedback scores). This shifts the focus to collaboration and collective progress. Milestone Recognition : Recognize and celebrate when teams or individuals reach milestones rather than only highlighting the top performer. This encourages everyone to work at their own pace and feel motivated by their own progress. Learning and Development : Create a leaderboard that tracks growth-oriented activities, like training modules completed or skills acquired. This prioritizes learning and improvement without the pressure of competition. Cooperative Challenges : Use the leaderboard to show when different departments or individuals contribute to a shared project, highlighting how collaboration drives results. For instance, each time a member completes a project, it adds points to a team total. "Buddy Board" System : Pair team members as “buddies” who share a combined score based on their collaborative output. This motivates mutual support and teamwork. Recognition of Diverse Contributions : Instead of a single score, create categories that recognize various contributions (e.g., creativity, problem-solving, mentoring others). This highlights diverse skills and values within the team. "Support Points" for Assisting Peers : Award points for collaborative actions like helping teammates, participating in feedback sessions, or sharing knowledge. This can encourage a culture of support and mutual aid. Transparency in Goal-Setting : Display team objectives on the leaderboard and track how each member’s contributions bring the team closer to those goals. This emphasizes that each person plays a role in the team’s success. Leaderboard for Positive Work Habits : Track non-competitive metrics that boost work culture, like participation in wellness initiatives or volunteering. This celebrates positive engagement without direct performance comparisons. In the end, leaderboards are as versatile as the environments they serve. With careful design, they can be adapted to promote teamwork, recognize individual growth, and celebrate both collaborative and individual milestones. By focusing on shared goals and diverse contributions, leaderboards can shift from competitive rankings to tools that foster engagement and connection. Whether you’re motivated by progress, teamwork, or personal achievement, there’s likely a leaderboard approach that can work well in a professional setting. The key is finding the right balance to match the team’s unique culture and values. Galatians 6:4-5 “Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load.”

Introduction Education, in all its forms, shapes the paths we walk and the people we become. A degree represents more than just academic achievement. It can symbolize knowledge gained, perseverance, and opportunities seized. In this article, I will reflect on and give a quick overview of the degrees I have pursued, each one marking a chapter in my life. From the triumphs in higher education to the personal obstacles I have overcome, each degree represents more than just a piece of paper—it is a part of who I am. A Lifelong Passion for Teaching Ever since I was a little kid, I wanted to be a teacher. I grew up with six brothers, and I can faintly recall playing school with them, especially with my two younger brothers. Throughout high school, it was my great pleasure to go to a classroom to assist one of the teachers and help in any way I could. For example, I would collate and staple learning packets, grade papers, and run errands throughout the school. Honestly, anything to get out of my assigned classes. I talked a lot and had trouble staying still in my seat. Looking back, my teachers were probably happy for me to leave. Win win win! My school was grade 6 - 12, and I had a lot of opportunity to read to younger students or tutor them in their classroom. I often found my self in the special education classroom helping the teacher by helping the students transition to where they needed to go or just talking to them, and seeing how their day was going. The Senior section in the yearbook show my nickname was “Teach,” hobbies were writing and partying, and my future plans included to become a kindergarten teacher and publish my poems. When I graduated high school in 1979, I began my studies at SUNY Potsdam. During the first semester break, I left New York due to dire circumstances, but that didn't end my desire for further education. Two years later, married and living in Georgia, I enrolled in Clayton Junior College, now known as Clayton State University. I am thankful my professors pushed me to do my best and finish. Even though it took a few years to graduate, it was a great accomplishment. I wouldn't use my degree professionally until twenty years later, but when the time came, having a degree not only gave me an edge in assignments—my base pay was also higher than if I had not had a degree. Building Blocks of Teaching An Associate of Arts (AA) degree in Elementary Education is a two-year undergraduate program that introduces students to the fundamentals of teaching and child development, preparing them for entry-level roles in education or for further study in a bachelor’s program. This degree focuses on foundational concepts in education, child psychology, and classroom management, all aimed at helping future educators understand and support the developmental and learning needs of young children, typically from kindergarten through fifth or sixth grade. Key Components of an AA in Elementary Education Core Education Courses: These often include classes on teaching strategies, educational psychology, and instructional methods. Students learn about lesson planning, teaching diverse learners, and ways to engage young children in learning. Child Development and Psychology: Courses in this area cover stages of child growth, cognitive and social development, and how children learn at different ages, helping future teachers understand how to foster a supportive learning environment. Practical Teaching Skills: Students gain hands-on experience in creating lesson plans, classroom management, and possibly observing or assisting in real classrooms. They learn basic instructional techniques and assessment methods suitable for elementary education. General Education Requirements: Like most associate degrees, an AA in Elementary Education includes general education courses (such as English, math, and social sciences) to build a well-rounded educational foundation. Pathway to Further Education: This degree is often structured to transfer to a four-year university, where students can pursue a bachelor's degree and teacher certification. Most public elementary school teachers need at least a bachelor’s degree, so this AA can be a stepping stone toward full teaching credentials. An AA in Elementary Education provides a strong base for understanding young learners and introduces teaching methods while also helping students develop skills in communication, organization, and empathy essential for educators. Discovering My Path in Sociology After a divorce, another marriage, having three children, multiple moves between states, and a major catastrophic event, I needed to find a job to try to save our home. In 2003, I was able to use my AA degree when I became a substitute teacher. A year later, I learned about a grant that would help cover the costs of returning to school as an adult learner. By this time, I was really struggling with anxiety, but I managed to register and start classes at Tennessee State University. My initial courses were focused on elementary education, including classes in Exceptional Education and Early Childhood Curriculum. Since I already had my first 60 hours completed twenty years earlier, I needed to specialize immediately. After working in many different schools, I didn't want to be a full time teacher. I had some familiarity with sociology, having taken an introductory class years earlier, and the sociology degree requirements were intriguing. From Sociology of Child Development, Social Statistics, and Sociological Thought, I was hooked and declared my major. I received a lot of academic and emotional support from many of my professors. At one point, my anxiety took over, and I withdrew from school. My professors took a great interest in me and persuaded me to return to my studies. They even took it upon themselves to write a letter to the dean asking for reinstatement on my behalf. In 2006, partway through my degree, I applied for an internship at ICPSR—University of Michigan in Ann Arbor, Michigan—and was selected out of 250 applicants for a 10-week summer program. Having the support of my professors in the sociology department was key to my ability to participate. At the end, I was ready to apply for a combination Masters Doctorate program offered at the University of Michigan. God had other plans for me. In September 2006, I was in my last semester. My senior project was already underway, and opportunities were opening up at the university due to my internship. However, my middle son, a senior in high school, began having regular seizures, and I needed to withdraw from school to care for him. Slightly over two years later, after he was no longer at home and my youngest son was now a senior in high school, I re-enrolled to finish my degree. My passion for education remained, but my momentum was interrupted. Even with all the turmoil, I was able to maintain a 4.0 GPA at this university. After graduating, I finally learned what the box labeled "Fresh Start" meant during my initial registration. Had I found the courage to ask, checking the box would have eliminated my low GPA from my first 60 hours, allowing me to graduate with honors. I use this example in my mind whenever I need to ask something, but anxiety tries to hold me back. Education had to be put on hold once again, but just for a couple of years. The Pulse of Society A Bachelor of Science (BS) in Sociology is an undergraduate degree that focuses on understanding human society, social behaviors, institutions, and relationships. This degree combines theoretical and empirical approaches to study social structures, group dynamics, and cultural norms. It emphasizes analytical and research skills, helping students understand how social factors shape individuals and communities. Key Areas of Study in a BS in Sociology Core Sociological Theories and Concepts: Students learn about foundational sociological theories and thinkers, such as Marx, Weber, and Durkheim. They study social structures, socialization, power, inequality, and cultural norms, gaining a framework to analyze complex social issues. Research Methods and Data Analysis: A strong emphasis on scientific and statistical methods sets the BS degree apart. Students learn to conduct surveys, interviews, and observational studies, analyzing data using statistical software to draw conclusions about social patterns and trends. Specialized Topics: Many programs offer courses in specific areas like criminology, gender studies, race and ethnicity, family dynamics, social inequality, and environmental sociology. These topics allow students to explore diverse social phenomena and contemporary issues. Critical Thinking and Analytical Skills: Sociology majors develop critical thinking skills by examining how social issues affect individuals and communities. They analyze societal structures and learn to think critically about inequality, policy, and ethical implications in society. Internships and Applied Sociology: Many BS programs include internships or community-based projects where students can apply their sociological knowledge in real-world settings, such as social services, non-profits, government, or research organizations. Capstone or Thesis Project: Many programs require a final project that involves conducting independent research on a sociological issue. This project integrates learned theories, research skills, and data analysis. Career Pathways with a BS in Sociology Graduates with a BS in Sociology are well-prepared for careers in social services, community outreach, data analysis, public policy, criminal justice, and human resources. Many go on to pursue graduate studies in sociology, social work, law, or public administration. This degree helps students understand complex social processes, equipping them with the skills to analyze and address societal issues while promoting critical thinking and a deep understanding of social dynamics. Intersection of Psychology and the Workplace In 2012, nearly three years after graduating with my BS degree, divorced for the second time, and now on my own, I was able to rebuild my confidence and apply for a graduate program in Industrial-Organizational Psychology at Austin Peay University. A mix between on campus and online classes, the program was perfect for me. In addition, my youngest son attended this school which helped me to find my way and adjust quickly. Shortly after I was accepted into the program, my middle son passed away. Despite this tragedy, I continued working as a substitute teacher and looked forward to starting the master’s program. I was thankful to be able to continue my studies. It is important to note that I experienced an enormous amount of mental anguish while completing each requirement—from admissions testing to registration, applying for financial aid, driving an hour each way, and participating in class—but I was determined to earn my degree. Wanting to really step outside my comfort zone, I signed up and paid for a trip to India that was being sponsored by my school. Unfortunately, just weeks before the trip departure, a level 3 travel advisory was issued due to serious risks to safety and security, and our trip was canceled. I took the news in stride, and even though I didn’t actually travel, the accomplishment was in signing up and completing all the necessary paperwork and vaccinations to be able to go. By December 2013, it became too emotionally difficult to stay and work in Tennessee after the death of my son, and his father was having similar difficulty in Kentucky, so we moved to Florida together. I was immediately hired on as a substitute teacher, and I travelled between Florida and Tennessee for substitute assignments and any on campus activities. My last semester was mainly online classes, and I was surprisingly nominated and inducted into the Honor Society of Phi Kappa Phi. I finished my studies, became an expert in workplace behavior, and graduated with honors in 2014. The Human Element in the Workplace A Master of Arts (MA) in Industrial-Organizational (I-O) Psychology is a graduate degree that focuses on applying psychological principles to workplace settings. This degree centers on understanding and improving employee behavior, productivity, and well-being, as well as enhancing organizational effectiveness through research and practical interventions. It combines psychology with business and human resources to optimize the work environment and address organizational challenges. Key Areas of Study in an MA in Industrial-Organizational Psychology Organizational Behavior and Development: Students learn how individuals and groups behave in work settings. Topics include leadership, motivation, team dynamics, organizational culture, and the impact of workplace environments on behavior. Personnel Psychology: This area focuses on employee recruitment, selection, training, and performance evaluation. Students learn to design fair and effective hiring processes, conduct job analyses, and assess employee skills and competencies. Research Methods and Data Analysis: I-O Psychology relies on empirical data to understand workplace issues. Students gain skills in research design, statistical analysis, and data interpretation, using these to evaluate workplace programs and interventions. Employee Training and Development: This includes designing and evaluating programs to enhance employee skills, satisfaction, and retention. Courses focus on adult learning theories, training methodologies, and performance appraisal systems. Workplace Health and Well-being: Students explore ways to promote mental health, reduce stress, prevent burnout, and encourage work-life balance. Topics include employee counseling, ergonomic assessments, and stress management strategies. Psychological Testing and Assessment: This area covers the development and use of psychometric tools for assessing employee aptitudes, personality traits, and job suitability, as well as evaluating these tools for fairness and accuracy. Ethics and Professional Standards: Ethical considerations are central to I-O Psychology, given its influence on hiring, employee treatment, and organizational policy. Students learn about confidentiality, fair treatment, and legal compliance. Consulting and Applied Skills: Many MA programs include practical training for students to work as consultants, learning how to assess organizational needs, recommend interventions, and work collaboratively with leadership to implement solutions. Practicum and Capstone Project Most MA programs include hands-on experience, such as internships or practicum opportunities, where students work within an organization to apply their knowledge in real-world settings. Some programs require a capstone project or thesis, involving original research on a workplace issue or the development of an intervention strategy. Career Pathways with an MA in Industrial-Organizational Psychology Graduates are well-prepared for careers in HR, organizational development, employee training, consulting, and research. Typical job roles include HR specialist, organizational development consultant, talent management specialist, and I-O psychologist. Some graduates also pursue further studies (such as a PhD) to focus on research or academia. An MA in I-O Psychology provides a versatile skill set that allows graduates to work across various sectors, including corporate, non-profit, and government organizations, helping to improve both employee well-being and organizational success. Conclusion Education holds a unique and transformative power, shaping how we understand the world and opening doors to new opportunities. Formal education, whether a degree program or technical training, can serve as a foundation for personal growth and career advancement, while informal learning and self-study offer endless avenues for exploration. Whether pursued in a classroom, online, or through life experiences, education can be a deeply fulfilling endeavor, carrying a value that extends far beyond credentials or titles. I was able to use the education I received and even fulfilled my future plans as described when I was only seventeen. During my employment as a substitute teacher, I was entrusted to teach a Kindergarten class, an Exceptional Education class, and co-teach Physical Education in long term assignments all due to teacher extended medical leave. Other than in the PE position, I had all the responsibilities of a full time teacher. In 2015, I was on my own again, as my husband needed to return to Kentucky for his health. I started working for Amazon while continuing my role as a substitute teacher, balancing both positions for six years. During my time at Amazon, I was able to draw on my educational knowledge and experience when asked to lead or assist in training classes for new hires. In addition, I published three poetry books in 2018, while on medical leave due to symptoms that started with an injury, and are still present today, and everyday. In late 2021, I stopped working to save my own life. I pray that when I publish what I write, it doesn't come off as bragging or boasting. I am trying to chronicle my life, and find any good memories in the process. I believe others may read my posts and find some relatable information which may inspire them or help them find comfort or meaning in their own life. Reading over what I have written today, there is so much other detail I have left out, but maybe I will save those experiences for future posts. It is really difficult for me to stay completely on topic when there are so many influences that play a part—plus having ADHD compounds the difficulty. Though my degrees don’t follow a traditional progression, each one allowed me to draw on my previous education to grow and learn in unique ways. Still deeply in debt financially from earning my Master’s degree, I don’t regret the time and effort it took to complete. My educational success is a personal achievement that encompasses more than academic learning, and I want to emphasize it doesn’t make me any better than others. I believe education is valuable, and whether someone attends college or not, with information at our fingertips, education has become more accessible than ever, making it possible to keep learning no matter where you are in life. Proverbs 4:13 “Hold on to instruction, do not let it go; guard it well, for it is your life.”

A Landmark of Unity and Communication The Zamenhof Monument in Poland is a remarkable tribute to L. L. Zamenhof, the creator of Esperanto, the world's most widely spoken constructed international auxiliary language. This landmark celebrates Zamenhof’s legacy and embodies ideals of unity and communication. It attracts linguists, tourists, and anyone interested in cultural diversity, drawing visitors from across the globe. Exploring the historical significance, architectural beauty, and cultural impact of the Zamenhof Monument reveals why it should be on your travel itinerary. Location The Zamenhof Monument is located in Białystok, Poland, a city rich in history and cultural influences. Białystok is easily reachable by train, bus, or a short flight to nearby airports, with local transportation options that make navigating the city convenient. The monument sits close to popular attractions like Branicki Palace and Białystok Cathedral, creating ample opportunity for a full day of exploration in this vibrant area. A Journey Through History Unveiled on December 15, 2009, the monument commemorates Zamenhof's 150th birthday. The community's desire to honor Zamenhof’s contributions motivated the project's initiation. The monument stands as a reflection of the region's history, which has faced struggles for cultural and linguistic identity. Over the years, it has received several renovations to preserve its beauty and significance, ensuring future generations can appreciate Zamenhof's vision. In fact, Białystok is known for its rich tapestry of cultures, with significant historical events leading to the creation of an inclusive identity. It provides a fitting backdrop for a monument representing resilience and the quest for understanding among diverse groups. Architectural Elegance The Zamenhof Monument combines modern and classical architectural styles. Built mainly from durable stone, it features elegant inscriptions in multiple languages, showcasing Zamenhof’s commitment to linguistic harmony. Notable designs include a large pedestal with engravings that articulate Zamenhof's vision and the essence of Esperanto. The artists and architects behind the monument captured Zamenhof's ideals through clean lines and a striking silhouette. Natural elements, including surrounding greenery, enhance the tranquil atmosphere and invite reflection. Standing as a centerpiece, the monument harmonizes beautifully with the urban environment, drawing both admiration and contemplation. Importance in Local Culture The monument serves as a cornerstone in local culture, hosting events that celebrate linguistic diversity and multiculturalism. Gathering spaces around the monument are often filled with people participating in discussions and celebrations of communication without borders. A striking example of its cultural influence is the annual Esperanto festival held nearby, where community members and visitors come together to promote the global language. Artists and writers find inspiration in Zamenhof’s vision, resulting in contributions to music, poetry, and visual arts that echo the themes of unity and cooperation. Such events breathe life into the monument, embedding it in the everyday cultural scene of Białystok. Practical Visitor Information Visiting the Zamenhof Monument is a straightforward and fulfilling experience. It is open year-round with no admission fees, making it accessible to everyone. For those seeking a deeper understanding, guided tours through local cultural organizations are available. These tours often share insightful commentary on the monument’s history, Zamenhof’s contributions, and the broader context of Esperanto. The monument lies within a vibrant public square, easily accessible on foot or via public transportation. Nearby amenities such as cafes and shops provide comfortable settings for rest and refreshment during your exploration of Białystok. Interesting Tidbits Here are some fun facts about the Zamenhof Monument and its significance: Since its unveiling, the monument has attracted visitors from over 100 countries, highlighting the global reach of Esperanto and the community’s spirit. At just 16 years old, Zamenhof envisioned a universal language inspired by linguistic diversity in his hometown, paving the way for the first Esperanto book, " Unua Libro ," published in 1887. The monument stands as a historical landmark and a beacon of hope for cultures and languages worldwide. Visuals The Zamenhof Monument located in Białystok, Poland Monumental Bust of Ludwig Zamenhof in Veisiejai, Poland A wide shot of the Zamenhof Monument with its surrounding park Close-up of the inscriptions engraved in various languages A map illustrating the monument's location. A Reflection on Language and Connection The Zamenhof Monument is a powerful testament to Zamenhof's innovative spirit and his dream of a world united through language. Through its embodiment of peace, communication, and cultural diversity, this landmark serves as a profound reminder of the potential to overcome barriers in an increasingly divided world. Visiting this landmark transcends merely witnessing an artistic endeavor; it is about honoring a vision for a more interconnected world. Regardless of whether you are a linguist, a traveler, or someone interested in history, the monument invites you to engage with global discussions on language and community. Further Exploration For those eager to learn more about the Zamenhof Monument and Esperanto, the following resources are recommended: Books : " Esperanto: Learning and Using the International Language " by David Richardson. A widely popular and frequently used text for introducing English speakers to Esperanto. Articles : Visit the Esperanto Association’s website for updated information on events and festivals related to the language and its community. Documentaries : Look for films discussing culturally relevant Esperanto projects and showcasing the active community dedicated to maintaining the language today. With its commitment to promoting languages and cultural diversity, the Zamenhof Monument in Białystok is a must-visit for anyone captivated by the interplay of communication across cultures.

Esperanto was created in the late 19th century by L. L. Zamenhof , a Polish-Jewish ophthalmologist. He aimed to design a neutral, easy-to-learn language that would foster better communication and understanding between people of different native languages. Published in 1887 under the pseudonym Doktoro Esperanto , Zamenhof's vision was to promote peace and unity through a common, international language. Have you ever wondered about a language that transcends borders and brings people together from diverse cultural backgrounds? Even though Esperanto was forbidden by Nazi and Communist regimes, it is still spoken by several million people today. The Esperanto Museum in Vienna, Austria, stands as a testament to the beauty of linguistic harmony and cultural exchange. Let's look into the significance, history, architecture, cultural impact, visitor information, and intriguing facts surrounding this unique landmark. Introduction Nestled in the heart of Vienna, the Esperanto Museum serves as a hub for showcasing the rich heritage and evolution of Esperanto, an internationally constructed language designed to foster communication irrespective of native tongues. Its historical significance lies in promoting unity, mutual understanding, and peaceful coexistence among global communities. The museum is part of the Austrian National Library. Location Geographic Location : Vienna, Austria Coordinates : 48.2082° N, 16.3738° E Accessibility : Easily accessible by public transport, the museum is situated amidst Vienna's vibrant cultural scene. Visitors can explore nearby attractions like the Belvedere Palace and St. Stephen's Cathedral after visiting the museum. History Year of Establishment : The Esperanto Museum was established in 1927 and has since been a cultural beacon in Austria. Key Events : This iconic landmark has witnessed the growth and dissemination of Esperanto as a universal language promoting global harmony. In March 1938 , it was closed by the Gestapo and reopened in 1947 in the presidential palace. In 2005, the Museum moved to its current location in Vienna. Changes Over Time : The museum has undergone meticulous renovations to preserve its historical essence and enhance the visitor experience. Architecture and Design Architectural Style : The building's design seamlessly blends modern aesthetics with elements reflecting the allure of timeless elegance. Notable Architects : Renowned architects intricately involved in the museum's design have added a touch of artistic finesse to its structure. Unique Features : From captivating facades to intricate interior details, the museum's architecture embodies the spirit of Esperanto's universal appeal. Cultural Significance Local Influence : The Esperanto Museum actively contributes to Vienna's cultural tapestry, fostering linguistic diversity and intercultural dialogue. Artistic Influence : The museum's influence on local art, literature, and music manifests through various exhibitions and cultural events celebrating the universal language of Esperanto. Events : Visitors can partake in engaging events and festivals hosted at the museum, offering a glimpse into the profound impact of Esperanto on cultural expressions. Visitor Information Hours of Operation : The museum welcomes visitors everyday except Monday. Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday 10 AM - 6 PM Thursday 10 AM - 9 PM Closed on Monday Admission Fees : Explore the Esperanto Museum's wonders for a nominal admission fee, making it accessible to all who appreciate cultural heritage. Guided Tours : Enhance your experience with guided tours and educational programs catering to language enthusiasts and history buffs alike. Guided tours are 45 minutes, and an additional 45 minute crash course in Esperanto can be added for a fee. Fun Facts or Anecdotes Curious minds will delight in lesser-known stories surrounding the development and evolution of Esperanto, enriching their understanding of this unique language. Historical figures and influential personalities have graced the halls of the Esperanto Museum, further highlighting its global significance as a beacon of linguistic unity. The Esperanto Museum presents a diversity of languages, including planned ones like Volapük, Ido, and Interlingua. Visitors are introduced to projects including mystical, musical and joke languages, and even Klingon. An arcade machine that allows you to learn the basic grammar of Esperanto based on the legendary game Pac Man is one of the most popular exhibits. Visuals Conclusion In conclusion, the Esperanto Museum in Vienna, Austria, epitomizes the timeless allure of linguistic unity and cultural exchange. Whether you are a language enthusiast, a history buff, or simply curious about the power of communication, a visit to this iconic landmark is a must. Embrace the beauty of Esperanto and immerse yourself in a world where words bridge gaps and unite hearts. Additional Resources For further reading on Esperanto's history and cultural impact: Zamenhof: The Life, Works and Ideas of the Author of Esperanto Bridge of Words: Esperanto and the Dream of a Universal Language Esperanto and Its Rivals: The Struggle for an International Language

Last night, I had a dream like none other. Three friends who have passed away returned, appearing together as if to deliver a message I could not quite grasp. Their presence was unsettling, and in the dream, something was physically wrong with me, and I was describing my pain, while three $500 bills were being passed around among my friends. I woke up carrying the weight of that dream, wondering if it hinted at something real, something I shouldn't ignore. As I sat there, my physical well-being concerned me, but there was also something else—an unexpected emptiness. The heavy, relentless ache I had been carrying from my most recent heartbreak had lifted. I felt lighter, free from that constant sting of loss. It was as if the emotional wounds had healed overnight. It was a confusing mix of emotions, relief mingled with unease, and I found myself sitting down to write. I don't know what the future holds, but I am at peace with the present. My fingers began typing and what poured out was a reflection of love, loss, and healing., as though my heart knew what to say, even if my mind didn’t. The day I met him, it felt like I’d found a missing piece—a part of myself I hadn’t realized was waiting to be discovered. He didn’t “complete” me in the sense that I was incomplete before, but he brought a fullness and joy that I hadn’t felt before. Our relationship wasn’t about filling gaps or fixing something broken; it was about two whole people finding strength and support in each other. I believed that God had joined us, fulfilling His promise that two could become one. When I said he “completed me,” I didn’t mean I was half a person without him. I meant that he was a blessing, bringing more love, purpose, and meaning to my life. Together, we created something even greater than what we were on our own. Our lives felt as though they were meant to intertwine in a way that was unique and irreplaceable. In my eyes, that’s what we shared—a unity that, even though challenged by distance and difficulties of misunderstandings, brought something beautiful into my world. Relationships are not without storms, and we faced our share. The physical distance made things harder, with no way to simply hold hands or be present when words fell short. Even with the distance and challenges, I believed that our foundation—built on trust, respect, and faith—could help us weather anything. For me, he was the person I wanted to face life’s challenges with, and even though we couldn’t be physically close, I trusted in him and in what we shared—I trusted that love could withstand anything. Despite the time that has passed since we parted, my heart still holds onto the belief that our love was destined. So, I wait—not out of heartbreak, but out of faith that God’s plan is wiser than anything I could try to imagine. I trust that if it is His will, what I believe to be true will come to pass. I don’t know what the future holds, but I am at peace knowing that if it is meant to be, the path will lead us back together. I can leave our past in the past to build a beautiful life together. I trust that God knows what is best for us, and I am willing to wait on His timing, still holding that place of love in my heart for him. As I continue to wait, I feel no heartache or bitterness, only a quiet hope that what is meant to be will eventually unfold. And in the meantime, I carry with me the lessons of love, the strength gained from loss, and the belief that faith can move mountains—even through the toughest of storms. Seeing my friends in my dream not only reminded me how much I miss them and how they accepted me for who I am, but also reaffirmed that God is with me. Everything I have been through in my life has led me here, with a patient heart ready for whatever comes next. Psalm 62:5 Yes, my soul, find rest in God; my hope comes from him.

I have a brown binder stuffed full of papers with poetry and other writings. I started writing when I was a freshman in high school. I would say ninety percent of my poems are from a place of darkness. During my darkest moments, I could write a twenty line poem in minutes. Words do not flow as easily when I am calm and settled on the inside, despite what may be going on externally. Writing has always been a way for me to release overwhelming emotions. It has gotten me through some difficult times. The binder is very disorganized with torn sheets, folded papers, and not in any order. I look at them from time to time for different reasons. Sometimes I will have a memory of something I have written, and even though there are hundreds of papers, I can usually locate the one I am looking for quick enough. Other times I will open the binder with no intended purpose, but will be guided by my thoughts as I leaf through the pages. Today, I intended to look for a piece that I had written about dying and my funeral, and I did find it near the top. I considered writing about all the people, about 35, I've grieved over, many if not most younger than me. I wasn't in the right frame of mind for that post. I found several poems I had written for a friend who was in the hospital. I decided I would save them for another post when I felt up to revisiting that pain. Then I saw a poem written around the turn of the century, so I decided to write about it in this post. The poem written in 2000, indicates I was not well at all. As I am writing, I am thinking back to what was happening in June 2000, and I realize it was when we were filing charges against my father in New York for abusing my son over a six year period. He was indicted on thirty three felony counts. My son was extremely brave to stand up against my father, more courage than I have had my entire life against him. A special prosecutor had to be assigned to the case because my brother, now a family court judge, was part of the district attorney's office. My father, aided by my brother, tried different tactics to keep it from going to court, but God provided the means needed. What is interesting about this poem that I shared, is it doesn't have a title, and my initials were written in the wrong order, crossed out, and rewritten correctly. I didn't look further to see if I had written other poems around the same time. If I find some, I will add them here. I wonder how I was so unsupported, while I was doing my best to support my son, and take care of my two other children. I am thankful my son is doing well and has always been so forgiving towards me for putting him in that dangerous situation. I didn't know. Nearly 25 years later, reading what I wrote, I know I survived through faith. Maybe this post will help someone going through a difficult situation. I usually remember writing a poem, once I reread it, but this one, nothing comes to mind. The fighting, yelling, screaming, in the poem, had to be internal voices. Revisiting this poem really helps me to see how far I have come mentally. Through therapy in 2019, I was able to reconcile the pain that had tormented me most of my life. I still get intrusive thoughts, and anxiety is a constant companion, but I have learned some great techniques to manage both. Currently, I am doing great and I am proud to say I survived. Psalm 42:11 "Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God."

Depression affects people in different ways, but it’s something we all can reflect on, whether through experience, observation, or empathy. In this post, I share two acrostic poems that describe the enduring challenges of clinical depression. These pieces, written during a dark period of my life, capture the emotions that often go unseen and the resilience it takes to keep moving forward. Along with these poems, I reflect on my own journey with mental health, the complexities of diagnoses, and the importance of finding what works—even when the path is far from straightforward. Being Depressed : Refers to a temporary emotional state of sadness, discouragement, or feeling down. It might be a response to a specific situation, such as a loss, failure, or stress. This feeling typically improves with time or a change in circumstances. Depression : Refers to a clinical mental health condition that lasts for weeks or longer, affecting daily functioning. It involves persistent sadness, lack of energy, loss of interest in activities, and other symptoms that may require professional treatment. It is not simply a passing mood but a diagnosable disorder. Think of "being depressed" as a short-term feeling and "depression" as a long-term condition. While they differ in duration and impact, the experiences can overlap—like the difference between a paper cut and a knife cut; both cause pain, but one is deeper and requires more care to heal including professional help. D arkness E nters P ain R eturns E veryone S ays S mile I O nly N od D eep despair E liminated enjoyment P rivate pain R arely responsive E nergy ends S inking sadness S topped socializing I rrational irritation O ften overwhelmed N obody notices I wrote these poems in January 2006, which was also a pivotal year in my life—when I turned forty-five, I stopped taking all medication. It is intriguing that after my suicide attempts during my teens and twenties, I wasn't put on any medication. When I was in my early thirties, I started taking prescribed medication, and initially it seemed great, but I soon found that I was emotionless. The medicine not only decreased my negative emotions, but it decreased my positive emotions and took away aspects of my personality like spontaneity, creativity, empathy, and compassion. Over the next decade, I would try different types and strengths, but they all made me feel like someone I didn't want to be. Stopping the medication was the best decision for my mental health. A few times a year, I still have intrusive thoughts that tell me to end it all, but I fight those with tools I've learned over the years—writing, reaching out to others, and knowing the impulse to take destructive action will pass. It is crucial for me to not isolate myself, even just sitting in a group chat reading what others type is helpful. It is really important to have a proper diagnosis which is often tricky as there are many variables and symptoms often overlap. It is unfortunate that I was misdiagnosed for over twenty years, but I am undoubtedly on the right track now. Having multiple diagnoses certainly complicates matters, and with each individual being different, their treatment plan should also be unique. I am grateful to have made it this far to tell about it! I've been using medical marijuana over the past five years, which definitely eases my anxiety, however, it is very costly and I can't use it as often as needed. Depression is not simply a passing feeling, but a long-term condition that requires care and understanding. While I’ve made personal decisions about medication, it's very important to remember that stopping medication abruptly is never a good idea. Always consult your doctor first, as they can help guide you through changes safely and effectively. Everyone’s experience with mental health is unique, and finding the right tools and support can make a significant difference. By sharing my story and these acrostic poems, I remind myself that every step I take moves me further away from where I started. I hope this post resonates with others, whether they are suffering from depression themselves or are affected by it in some other way. Lamentations 3:20-21 "I well remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:"

Captivating Landmark of Paris The Eiffel Tower is not just another tourist attraction; it's a symbol of France that captures the hearts of all who visit. Standing impressively in Paris, this iconic structure, completed in March 1889, showcases the creativity and innovation of the late 19th century. With its stunning architecture and inspirational presence, the Eiffel Tower draws millions of visitors each year, inviting them to experience its magic and the history it represents. More than an engineering feat, the Eiffel Tower is a romantic landmark that stands for love and hope. Illuminated at night, it offers a breathtaking view that radiates a sense of wonder. It’s a place where stories and memories are created, reflecting the spirit of Paris itself. Ideal Location Located in the Champ de Mars park, the Eiffel Tower is easily accessible to all visitors. Found at coordinates 48.8584° N latitude and 2.2944° E longitude, it overlooks the Seine River, providing stunning scenic viewpoints that enhance any visit. Visitors can reach the tower via various public transport options, including the Bir-Hakeim subway station, which is just a short walk away. Numerous bus lines also service the area, and for those who prefer to drive, paid parking options exist. However, parking spots can fill up quickly. While at the tower, take a stroll to the Trocadéro Gardens for impressive views or visit the Palais de Chaillot to explore its fascinating museums. Historic Journey The construction of the Eiffel Tower began in January 1887 and took only two years to complete, remaining a remarkable achievement in construction history. It was originally intended to be part of the 1889 Exposition Universelle, commemorating the French Revolution's centennial. Interestingly, the Eiffel Tower was initially met with skepticism, but has now become an indelible symbol of France and a testament to Gustave Eiffel's visionary engineering. Over the years, the Eiffel Tower has been a backdrop for significant events, from radio broadcasts during World War I to national celebrations. As it continues to stand tall, the tower undergoes regular renovations, with one notable restoration in 1986 that upgraded its protective paint, commonly known as "Eiffel Tower Brown." Architectural Marvel The Eiffel Tower is a masterpiece of wrought iron architecture, standing at a remarkable 300 meters (or 984 feet) tall. The antenna atop the tower gives it a total elevation of 330 meters (1,083 feet). Constructed from over 18,000 individual iron pieces, its intricate lattice design is both visually stunning and a marvel of engineering prowess. Gustave Eiffel’s innovative approach is evident in the tower's strong yet elegant structure. Visitors can enjoy spectacular 360-degree views of Paris from the tower's viewing platforms, which highlight the city’s mesmerizing skyline. The elegance of the tower's curves and decorative details showcases exceptional craftsmanship that adds to its allure. Cultural Icon Beyond its architectural splendor, the Eiffel Tower embodies the essence of Parisian culture. It has become an emblem of romance, often chosen by couples for proposals and wedding photos, feeling the love in the air amidst the stunning backdrop. The impact of the Eiffel Tower stretches into art, literature, and music, inspiring countless artists. It has been referenced in famous paintings, novels, and songs, helping shape the identity of Paris as the City of Light. Notably, each year, it hosts festivities like the breathtaking Bastille Day fireworks, drawing crowds eager to celebrate against its glowing silhouette. Plan Your Visit The Eiffel Tower welcomes visitors year-round, with operational hours varying by season. Typically, it opens at 9:30 AM and closes around 11:45 PM. It's wise to plan ahead, especially during high tourist seasons when wait times can exceed two hours. Admission prices depend on the chosen level and access method, ranging from €10 to €26. Discounts are available for children, students, and groups, making it accessible to a broader audience. Those interested in a more immersive experience can opt for guided tours, which offer deeper insights into the tower's fascinating history and role in Parisian life. Intriguing Facts The Eiffel Tower is packed with fascinating stories. Initially designed to be temporary, it was meant to stand for only 20 years before its dismantling. Moreover, Gustave Eiffel had an office located at the top, observing meteorological phenomena and experimenting with air resistance. In a thrilling anecdote, stuntman Franz Reichelt made headlines in 1912 by attempting to parachute from the tower wearing a suit he designed, which tragically ended in disaster. Famous figures like Thomas Edison and Marilyn Monroe have graced the Eiffel Tower contributing to its rich history and allure. Artists and musicians continue to celebrate its beauty, often finding inspiration in its towering presence, making it an essential part of cultural history. Eye-Catching Visual A view of the Eiffel Tower and surrounding landscape. Reflection on a Timeless Icon The Eiffel Tower transcends its role as a mere landmark; it signifies resilience and creativity that define both Paris and France. Visiting this incredible structure is a chance to take in unmatched views of one of the world’s most beautiful cities while immersing oneself in rich cultural experiences. Whether enveloped in love or simply awestruck by its design, exploration of the Eiffel Tower is an unforgettable experience that continues to resonate with people from all walks of life. Further Exploration For those eager to learn more about the Eiffel Tower’s history and significance, consider reading "Eiffel's Tower" by Jill Jonnes for a profound historical insight. The Eiffel Tower's official website serves as an excellent resource for planning visits, available tours, and upcoming events. Additionally, documentaries like "The Eiffel Tower: A Giant in Paris" offer a captivating overview of the tower's extraordinary story. For those eager to learn more about the Eiffel Tower and its historical significance, check out: Eiffel's Tower: The Thrilling Story Behind Paris's ... by Jill Jonnes Gustave Eiffel's Spectacular Idea... by Sharon Katz Cooper Engineering the Eiffel Tower (Building by Design) by Janet Slingerland The Eiffel Tower's official website serves as an excellent resource for planning visits, available tours, and upcoming events. With every visit or inquiry, the Eiffel Tower remains a source of intrigue and inspiration, just as it has been for over a century.

In November of 2017, I suffered two unrelated minor injuries to my head. The first injury happened when I was unloading the dishwasher. After putting the plates away directly above the dishwasher, I failed to close the cabinet door, and bent over to get something else out of the dishwasher. When I rose, I banged the front top left of my head into the corner of the cabinet. It was extremely painful, but there was no blood, so I wasn't too worried about it. A few days later, I was laying on my loveseat with my Kindle Fire over head, it slipped out of my hand and hit me slightly above my right temple. When my headache didn't go away, and it was accompanied by facial pain from the left side to the right side around the eyes. I went to the doctor, and was referred to a neurologist. At about the same time, I was having what appeared to be gallbladder issues, and I was going in for tests for that as well. It is difficult to describe what I am feeling to specific doctors when they are not interested in all of my symptoms. All I knew is I had a bad headache that didn't go away, along with pain across my face, and severe pain between my abdomen and ribs on the right two to three hours after I ate. I was doing so poorly, I took a medical leave of absence from work. I finally had surgery on 18 February 2018, but the headache and facial pain continued. By the summer of 2018, I was still in much pain, and dealing with additional stress. My medical leave benefit was delayed by seven weeks, and I was forced to sell most of my things, so I wouldn't get evicted. I also started having symptoms similar to mold poisoning. My speech was slurred, I couldn't remember anything (worse than normal), and I got words confused (more than normal), I knew something was terribly wrong, but all I could do is report it to the neurologist. I was referred to a behavioral health center for educational testing. Perhaps in another post I will discuss that ordeal and those results, but for now back to the headaches. I went back to work in August 2018 still in pain. I worked the best that I could, but by the beginning of December it was unbearable, so I applied for another leave of absence, asked a co-worker if she could take over my contacts, and started doing more research on mold poisoning. They had tested my apartment during the summer, but having continual symptoms, I asked them to return to test again. Prior to my headaches, a tree had fell on my apartment two different times, and a lot of water came in to my office, living room, and attic area. So mold wasn't out of the question! The mold tests came back normal, and I wasn't any better, in fact, I was getting worse mentally. I learned that my father had passed away, so I said goodbye to closure, I started looking for a therapist to deal with my emotions, but appointments were months out. I even had one therapist tell me I needed to check into the hospital, get put on medication, and then she will see me. My anxiety was through the roof, and intrusive thoughts were telling me this life wasn't worth living. I knew it was, and I was determined to win this battle I was fighting. I kept calling, until I found someone to see me the next day, just in time. It was the behavioral health center I had been to earlier for testing. My doctor was a Godsend and I will forever be grateful for her saving my life. However, I was still having this headache and facial pain. I decided to go to an Ear, Nose & Throat (ENT) doctor because by now my ears started ringing (tinnitus). That visit turned up nothing—everything is "in range" —to me in range means nothing, if I was at the high end of something and now I am on the low end, how is that not a problem? An appointment to Mayo Clinic was set for May 2019. The neurologist and psychologist were having to send nearly weekly reports to my employer which for me was very stressful asking them to do that and providing them the forms. It was beginning to feel very unnecessary and out of the ordinary. Human Resources (HR) notified me at the beginning of April that my insurance would be discontinued 30 April. I was finally going to be able to see a specialist, and they are telling me I would no longer have insurance just prior to my appointment. I was upset, and the flippant suggestions from the HR agent did not sit well with me. Consequently, my work sent an officer to do a wellness check on me. Despite not being suicidal, what happened next is for another post. It turned out to be a valuable reminder to "know your audience." My representative for my medical leave left me a message that there was a mistake, and not to worry about my insurance, but at the time I didn't feel reassured. I was so tired of taking medicine that was having no affect on my pain, so I stopped taking it and didn't make any further appointments with the local neurologist when I learned she personally delayed my referral to Mayo Clinic. To my surprise, the symptoms I was experiencing similar to mold poisoning were caused by the medication the neurologist put me on—even though I was telling her on each visit my symptoms, she brushed me off. I was thankful the neurology department accepted me at Mayo Clinic—the headache specialist is world renowned in his field. I was filled with hope! My insurance wasn't terminated as promised and I was able to keep my appointment at Mayo Clinic. He did another MRI and started me on some different medication. In addition, my mental health was improving after I was prescribed medical marijuana by my primary care physician—all of my doctors thought it would help me a lot, which it has helped. I continued to see the specialist throughout 2019, and he diagnosed me with New Daily Persistent Headache (NDPH) and Empty Sella Syndrome (ESS). It takes time when trying new medicine, slowly building to the correct dose. There was only a slight decrease in pain, and with failure, it takes time to come off the medication as well. By February 2020, my psychologist agreed I was doing well and I could return anytime I needed. I also decided to stop seeing the specialist at Mayo Clinic. It was a two hour drive each way, the medication wasn't helping, and I was going to consider doing the Botox injections on the 2017 injury sites, but Covid-19 came before I made a final decision. I made a choice not to return to Mayo Clinic after the pandemic settled, even though my experience there was top-tier! I still live with the headache, facial pain, and tinnitus, but the THC/CBD does help when I am able to purchase it—it is pricy, but for me, it is well worth the cost. Although reading this post may cause you to have a headache, I truly hope this information will be valuable to someone that has been suffering without finding relief. New Daily Persistent Headache New Daily Persistent Headache (NDPH) is a unique type of chronic headache that begins suddenly and remains persistent from the very first day of onset. It is a challenging condition because the exact cause is often unknown, and it tends to be resistant to many traditional headache treatments. What is NDPH? Definition : NDPH is characterized by a headache that starts abruptly, with the affected person remembering the exact date it began. Unlike episodic headaches, it does not go away and persists daily. Duration : Lasts for over 3 months, but many cases persist for years. Symptoms Headache Characteristics : Can feel like a tension-type headache (mild to moderate, with pressure-like pain) or a migraine (throbbing, with nausea, light/sound sensitivity). Bilateral (on both sides of the head) or unilateral (on one side). Other Symptoms : Often accompanied by fatigue, insomnia, or difficulty concentrating due to the constant nature of the pain. Possible Causes and Triggers The exact cause of NDPH is unknown, but it is often associated with: Infections : Viral illnesses or respiratory infections may precede the onset. Stressful Events : Physical or emotional stress, including surgery or trauma. Autoimmune or Inflammatory Conditions : Some cases may involve underlying conditions affecting blood vessels or the immune system. Other Triggers : Some patients report the onset following minor injuries or significant life changes. Diagnosis NDPH is diagnosed based on clinical history and exclusion of other causes. Common diagnostic steps include: Medical History : Identifying when the headache began and its daily persistence. Imaging Tests : MRI or CT scans may rule out structural brain issues. Blood Tests : To identify potential infections or autoimmune conditions. Treatment Treatment can be complex and varies from person to person. Options include: Medications : Preventive medications like antidepressants, anticonvulsants, or beta-blockers. Acute treatments for symptom relief, such as NSAIDs or triptans (though these are often less effective in NDPH). Lifestyle Modifications : Stress management techniques, including mindfulness, yoga, or therapy. Adequate sleep, hydration, and regular exercise. Other Therapies : Nerve blocks or botulinum toxin (Botox) injections in some cases. Behavioral therapy for managing chronic pain. Experimental Treatments : Intravenous therapies or neuromodulation devices (like transcranial magnetic stimulation) for severe cases. Living with NDPH NDPH can significantly impact quality of life due to its persistent nature. Support groups, counseling, and working closely with headache specialists are vital for managing the condition effectively. Empty Sella Syndrome Empty Sella Syndrome (ESS) is a condition involving the sella turcica, a small, bony structure in the skull that houses the pituitary gland. The pituitary gland plays a critical role in regulating hormones that control various body functions. In ESS, the sella turcica appears empty on imaging scans because the pituitary gland has shrunk or been compressed. Types of Empty Sella Syndrome Primary ESS : Often caused by increased pressure in the brain or a defect in the diaphragm sella (a thin membrane that normally holds the pituitary gland in place). More common in middle-aged, overweight women and may not have noticeable symptoms. Secondary ESS : Results from damage to the pituitary gland due to surgery, radiation, tumors, or injury. Associated with a loss of some pituitary function. Symptoms Some people with ESS experience no symptoms, especially in primary ESS. However, symptoms may include: Hormonal Imbalances : Issues such as irregular periods, low libido, or infertility. Headaches : Frequent or severe headaches are a common complaint. Vision Problems : Compression of the optic nerve can lead to blurred vision or visual field loss. Fatigue and Weakness : Caused by hormone deficiencies. Other Symptoms : Dizziness, nausea, or symptoms related to other endocrine disorders. Causes and Risk Factors Defects in the diaphragm sella. Obesity and high blood pressure, which may increase cerebrospinal fluid (CSF) pressure. History of pituitary surgery, radiation, or trauma. Diagnosis ESS is typically diagnosed through imaging studies like MRI or CT scans. Blood tests may also be done to evaluate pituitary hormone levels. Treatment Treatment depends on the presence of symptoms or hormonal deficiencies: No Symptoms : Often no treatment is needed if hormone levels are normal. Hormonal Imbalances : Hormone replacement therapy is commonly prescribed. Severe Symptoms : Surgery might be necessary in rare cases, particularly for vision problems or to repair a CSF leak. Living with ESS For many people, ESS is a manageable condition, especially if it does not cause significant symptoms. Regular monitoring of hormone levels and overall health is essential. Conclusion If you suffer from headaches, maybe this post can help you! I used to suffer from severe migraines in my thirties, and by my mid forties, I narrowed my trigger down to eating onions. It really shouldn't have taken that long, but I can only do so much and I was dealing with a lot back then, too. It is also important to drink plenty of water! The recommended amount is around 3 - 4 liters with a lot of different variables such as age, gender, activity level and more. Fluid intake helps in a lot of ways—another post idea! Headaches can really be debilitating, and can be a symptom of something serious. It is best to seek medical advice if your headaches are affecting your daily life. The cause of my persistent headache, facial pain, and tinnitus is still unknown. Could it stem from when I hit my head back in 2017 or symptoms related to ESS or some other undiagnosed disease. On a scale of zero - ten, many times the pain is minimal about a two to four and other times the pain can be moderate around a six or seven. Mostly, I overlook it, and it is just something that's there—I have now lived with this pain seven years. I wake with it, I live my daily life with it, and I fall asleep with it. I live with a lot of pain, besides this headache, that nobody sees—God knows I'm not complaining. Romans 8:18 "I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us."