Most recent update: 15 December 2025.

Though you are no longer with us, you will forever reside in the depths of my heart—a beacon of light in my darkest hours and a whisper of

The experiment is over. 305 days outside and no closer to being free.

What I shared was real to me, even if it didn’t last. I understand that not every connection is meant to stay. It is just confusing.

Blocked him again—not to stop his view, but to stop my hope. I needed empathy. Strangers gave more than he ever did.

We are similar, but I crave answers to make sense of my mind. He just accepts. I need why and how. He lives in the here and now.

God protects me even when I fight against Him.

I am not calm inside, but people think I am calm. It is not a persona. It is just me—unfiltered, mismatched, and real in the moment.