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25 December 2024 Merry Christmas! In Matthew 2:10-11, the Magi are not only celebrating Jesus’ birth with their hearts but also with their actions—offering valuable gifts of gold, frankincense, and myrrh. These gifts symbolize not just respect and honor but also the recognition of Jesus’ divine kingship and the significance of His life and mission:
Gold symbolized kingship and the recognition of Jesus as the King of the Jews.
Frankincense was used in worship and represented His divinity, acknowledging that He was the Son of God.
Myrrh, often used in embalming, foreshadowed Jesus’ death and His sacrificial purpose.
Their celebration is a powerful expression of honor and reverence, combining joy, worship, and material gifts in a fitting tribute to the newborn Savior. It highlights the importance of celebrating Jesus, not just spiritually, but in all aspects of life, including through tangible expressions of love and reverence.
Happy Birthday, Jesus!
Although things have improved drastically from where I first began, I am still struggling and would like to continue to thrive. Please find it in your heart to make a small donation, whether it is $10 or $10,000, it is all relative and very much appreciated.
Matthew 2:10-11 "When they saw the star, they were overjoyed. On coming to the house, they saw the child with his mother Mary, and they bowed down and worshiped him. Then they opened their treasures and presented him with gifts of gold, frankincense and myrrh."
20 December 2024 I received notice my appeals hearing for my food benefit will be 14 January 2025. I will be thankful for any amount, but I am confused why the amount has decreased so significantly. Ideally, it would be nice to be able to afford $100 more a month for food, but I have found some dinners to cook in bulk to stretch the money. I don't mind doing without the extras such as snacks, desserts, spices, and condiments.
Unless I sell some of my items on Marketplace, I plan on selling at Brown's Junk in the Trunk Sale on Sunday. It is supposed to be another cold day starting out in the low 40's and reaching about 65 during selling time. I listed a lot of vintage jewelry I had purchased in the early nineties to support someone that was having a Premier Designs Jewelry show. I never have really worn much jewelry, but I think I was trying to step out of my comfort zone—most of it is like new. Sadly, my mind has excepted the situation and, even though my heart has not caught up yet, I am selling my engagement ring, too.
My current concern is a $126.87 bill due in one week which I will only owe less than $5 to pay it in full. It will be wonderful not to have this payment at the end of every month in 2025! I still struggle with 2 monthly bills and I have faith God will provide. I joined a Facebook group to ask for help, but maybe my need seems trivial to others. I don't think I can ever stress enough that it is a buildup over a lifetime that makes it difficult for me.
Please continue to pray for me and share this blog. If you would like to help, find out how on the support page by using the red button below or on the menu. I am grateful for any support! Thank you for being here—may God bless you and keep you safe.
Isaiah 41:10
"So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
11 December 2024 Although I wanted to close my GoFundMe before 2025, I don't think I should because I still need help reducing two monthly bills—a loan and a credit card. My food benefit is currently under appeal because it was reduced back to $24 per month. I feel discouraged when I hear about so many people abusing the system I paid into for 46 years. I am anxious about the telephone hearing, but will be happy when it concludes.
My credit card debt is my own fault because I didn't realize until it was too late that when I was charging my utilities and food on the credit card, the interest would increase my payment each month much more than expected. I am having trouble lowering the total due. At this point, I barely have enough to make the minimum payment and it is really creating a hardship. I don't think I am entitled to help, but I really thought I could turn to the world and find some compassionate souls willing to help me.
In the good news department, I will be able to start back therapy in January at no additional cost beyond a $35 a month insurance premium. My insurance will also cover a large portion of my vision expense, and make some other needed medical services within reach. I am continuing my goal to spend 30 minutes a day outside, even on days I would prefer not to face the world. I don't really feel any positive benefit to my health yet, but by completing this quest each day, I hope to eventually be able to leave my house without a second thought, therefore improving my mental and physical health.
I wasn't able to participate in the Junk in the Trunk sale last weekend due to the weather, but another one is happening on 22 December and I hope to participate as a seller if I still have enough items left to sell. I have more items listed on Marketplace, and selling has not only helped me cover my monthly bills, it has allowed me to connect with some really nice people, I would otherwise not have met. I always have enjoyed having yard sales from the comfort of my home, but it is difficult in my gated community.
My Christmas wish, and prayer in Jesus' name, is that someone will help me reduce this debt that is a heavy burden. I started planning for and working towards financial security for my retirement years when I was only twenty five. I did not anticipate that someone else's actions could put my future in jeopardy, but they did, and so here I am. If you are reading this and able to donate any amount, it will truly help me. Thank you for your consideration and time. If you are not in a position to help financially, I would really appreciate you sharing the my GoFundMe link. Thank you again.
Romans 15:30
“I urge you, brothers and sisters, by our Lord Jesus Christ and by the love of the Spirit, to join me in my struggle by praying to God for me.”
4 December 2024 I have been really doing everything I can to make it to 2025. I am still struggling with finances, but I am determined to end this GoFundMe in four weeks time. I won't say I am not disappointed in the lack of compassion for my plight, but that isn't for me to worry about—God is providing in ways I won't be able to explain. Thankfully, I have sold more items to help cover the bills at the start of the month. I plan on participating in the Brown's Junk In The Trunk Sale again this weekend.
I wrote a post about the gift I was given this past week, a Christmas tree and ornaments, and it is impossible to express how much gratitude I feel in my heart. I have made so much progress, not only financially, but mentally as well. Going outside daily is still a challenge, so the timer needs to stay up on the home page to not only hold me accountable, but to be my daily reminder of what I am working towards.
Over the last 14 months, this GoFundMe raised $1750, and I am very appreciative. Even though at times there have not been any donations, every single donation was critical at the time it was received. I will continue to pray to God, as praying has helped me since I was a very young child. I was unpacking more boxes, and I finally found a favorite bible of mine. It was given to me when I was eighteen—I left home within weeks. I hope it was meant for me to keep, at this point, I am not sure. I want to reach out to her, but...
I pray some donations will come in these next weeks so I can start out the New Year more confident and prepared compared to January 2024. If you are not able to donate, sharing my link is very helpful. Thank you for your kindness and generosity!
Romans 12:8
if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully.
24 November 2024 At the start of November 2024, GoFundMe started automatically emailing donors every update. There is not a way for me to stop it. It makes me feel some sort of negative way - like I am bothering the person that has already donated. Because of this change, further updates will written on my blog. https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion/post/updates
Updates are posted weekly.
Lamentations 3:21
"Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope:"
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It has been a pretty busy week, getting ready to participate in a Flea Market that I found pretty close to my house. Although I didn't make enough money to cover all of my upcoming bills, I was able to cover the small fee to sell, and make about $40 profit. I sold quite a lot of items dirt cheap, and even though I could have used the money, I was happy to make them happy.
I still have items listed on marketplace, and I am hoping I will sell enough to make my payments. All won't be completely lost, as there is another sale on Saturday 7 December if I choose to go again. I was thinking of leaving everything in my car, and if I can even cover my entry fee, I won't be out anything.
I hope everyone has a Happy Thanksgiving. I am thankful for this platform, and for the opportunity I have had this weekend. I may not have broken any records, but I have certainly exceeded my goals. Thank you for sharing my link, and if you are able, please donate to my GoFundMe. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
Galatians 6:4-5 “Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load.”
15 November 2024 First, I would like to let you know of a recent change on GoFundMe. Previously, when sharing my weekly update, I could uncheck a box to avoid sending updates to previous donors. This is no longer the case. "Your update will be emailed to donors and posted on your fundraiser page." It has always been my intention to respect your inboxes. I am sorry for that, but I hope this update finds you well, and I appreciate your support.
I am very excited that there are only six weeks left to this year. I've been praying that I won't have a need to bring this GoFundMe into 2025. I was able to survive these past weeks by selling some more items, and finding some deep discounts for food, but it's a new month and I still need help.
Not receiving any donations for the past two months could have been discouraging, but I trust in God to provide, and he has, just in other ways. I am making so much progress both financially and mentally, and I would love for this momentum to continue!
It is roughly 3% of my overall debt that is causing me so much anguish. This reminds me of the story, The Princess and the Pea, and [spoiler] by removing the pea, the princess was able to rest. I may not be a princess, but this small portion of my debt is a significant obstacle causing much unrest.
I know my anxiety plays a part in how defeated I feel sometimes, but the truth of the matter is I can only stretch $2127.00 a month so far. This debt is weighing heavy on me, and according to my faith in God, I should ask for the help that I need.
I would be very appreciative if you could share my GoFundMe link! There are people in the world that have a giving heart, much like yourselves, and are able to offer a monetary gift, but they need to be reached.
Thank you for your continued support! I look forward to writing my final update soon!
Psalm 143:7-8 "Answer me quickly, Lord; my spirit fails. Do not hide your face from me, or I will be like those who go down to the pit. Let the morning bring me word of your unfailing love, for I have put my trust in you."
09 November 2024 I am very grateful for the support this past year. I am truly thankful for the one that suggested I start a GoFundMe. This platform not only helped me make it through each week mentally, as well as each month financially, but it gave me a voice and an opportunity to call out to the masses. I don't really have many connections to spread the word, but I am deeply appreciative of those that donated and shared my message. Save Thoughts—a blog site came to light as a result of this campaign. https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion
I understand I am not the only one struggling, and things are improving for me. I am extremely excited that I will be paying off over $300 in monthly bills by the end of 2024, but the reality is I still need help reducing over $8,000 in overwhelming debt. Sometimes, resilience isn’t enough on its own. In moments of great challenge, it’s the support from others that provides the strength to keep moving forward. I may not have expected to be here asking for help, but my circumstances took an unexpected turn, and while transitioning to a fixed income may have saved my life, it left me with a financial strain that seems impossible to overcome.
Sometimes, life presents challenges like these that are simply too great to manage alone. Every donation, no matter the size, brings me closer to a point where I can finally breathe and focus on the future. It’s a step toward reducing the financial weight that is limiting my life. I am genuinely thankful for anyone who keeps me in their prayers, donates what they are able to afford, and shares my campaign. I pray continually that I can end this GoFundMe before the start of 2025, and I'd be endlessly thankful for anyone willing to join me in this effort.
Dear God, Thank You for the support I’ve received this year. I’m grateful for everyone who has helped me. Bless those who have given and shared, and multiply every act of kindness. I ask for Your guidance, wisdom, and strength to get through this. Please bring the help needed to reduce this financial burden. Your constant presence and provision has allowed me to remain hopeful despite my situation. I trust You will provide what I need and that I’ll be able to move forward soon. In Jesus' name, Amen. ❤️
Job 5:8-9 "But if I were you, I would appeal to God; I would lay my cause before him. He performs wonders that cannot be fathomed, miracles that cannot be counted."
02 November 2024 This update doesn't really bring any news. Another week has gone by, and I am still trying to sell things—mostly $5, $10, and $20 items, but also a few with higher price. Selling has helped me eat the last few weeks. One of my concerns is running out of food. I already cook very frugally, using ingredients sparingly, but when I see only a few meals left, I pray.
Thankfully, God’s really been working to provide! I managed to get a week of groceries for a third of the usual cost, thanks to some amazingly generous store coupons. Another example is the shirts I ordered for the job I didn't get got lost in the system—the job wasn't the only thing I didn't get! Thanks to their error, the money got returned, and I was given a $10 coupon! I was able to buy some food and juice! God is great, all the time.
I'm making some headway chipping away at debt. Right now, I’m still without home internet, which means I cannot stream on Twitch like I would love to—but making sacrifices to save my home is worth it. What I am struggling with most is the $350 per month debt that is overwhelming, and difficult to manage. The interest alone makes it hard to keep up. I pray God will send someone to this GoFundMe with the ability and willingness to help lighten this load, giving me some space to breathe. God works in mysterious ways.
Please keep me in your prayers! Even a small donation can have a big impact! If donating isn’t possible, please consider helping by sharing my new website. Saved Thoughts—a blog site has really helped me clear my mind. You can visit it here: https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion
Thank you for every prayer, share, and bit of help!
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2 Corinthians 9:8 “And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work.”
25 October 2024 Hello. The week has flown by since my last update! I have been able to sell a few items privately, and today was the first day of our community yard sale. Tomorrow, the sale will open to the public, and I am hopeful it will go well. Thanks to these sales, it looks like I will have just enough to cover the bills due this coming week.
The relief I feel is hard to put into words—knowing that some of the immediate pressure is lifting is such a huge weight off my shoulders. I am still overwhelmed by two monthly debts, and I pray that God will continue to provide a way for me to pay them. I know the amount needed to be able to fully breathe a sigh of relief is enormous, but I believe in miracles, and I am praying for one.
If you’re able, please share my blog. I hope it will reach many people over time and offer useful information. Even if just one person finds something helpful, then my efforts will not be in vain. https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion
Your encouragement and prayers keep me moving forward, and I’m incredibly grateful for both. Thank you, as always, for your support!
Matthew 19:26 "But Jesus looked at them and said, 'With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.'"
18 October 2024 This has been a pretty good week. I’ve been working hard to sell some items, as I really need to cover the shortage in my bills between now and the end of the year. While I’ve had a few frustrating experiences, I’m not letting them discourage me. Next weekend, I plan to participate in a community garage sale, something I’ve been unable to do in the past due to anxiety. This year, I’m determined to follow through.
I am continuing to go outside daily for a minimum amount of time, and somedays it is difficult, but I do it anyway. I have been blogging as an effort to clear my mind, and that has inspired me to write about a variety of topics. I think if it wasn't for my severe financial limitations, I would be able to make better progress in other areas of my life.
While I continue to pray to God for help permanently alleviating about $350 in monthly debt, smaller contributions help me buy food, pay utilities and insurance, and purchase medicine. Your generosity has the ability to change my bleak circumstances and provide the light I need to find my way out of this darkness. Even the smallest donation can lighten the burden I carry. Please continue to share my story and say a prayer for me. Thank you for your support!
2 Corinthians 9:8 "And God is able to bless you abundantly, so that in all things at all times, having all that you need, you will abound in every good work."
12 October 2024 It has been an interesting week, but I have made it through. Hurricane Milton stormed through Florida, but thankfully, I experienced the least of trouble. I had a few limbs down, that I easily cleaned up, and I was without power for about 56 hours. I am grateful God protected me.
I also had good fortune financially this week. I was able to make an arrangement for the money I prayed about last week. It was truly a miracle in the 11th hour. It is a new month, with new challenges. I will be a few hundred short at the end of this month, but I have items for sale which if sold will help. I can see the light at the end of this dark tunnel I have been navigating this past year.
I really missed being able to blog the last few days! It has truly been a great release of my thoughts. I am still faithfully going outside daily—my count today will be 42 days. I don't feel better, as people suggest, but I know this is the first step I need to do to be able to lead a more fulfilling life.
I’d be grateful if you could check out my blog https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion and share it with others. Any financial support you can provide during this difficult time would mean so much. Thank you!
Genesis 1:3 "And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light"
04 October 2024 It is hard to believe it has already been a year since I started this GoFundMe, reaching out to others for help during one of the most challenging times of my life. I want to thank God for that special someone who encouraged me to start this GoFundMe—their suggestion gave me the courage to ask for help. I want to sincerely thank everyone who has provided support—whether through donations, prayers, or words of encouragement. You have truly made a difference in my life when I needed it the most.
Though I am still facing financial difficulties, I’m grateful to say that my mental and emotional health has been steadily improving. My blog— Saved Thoughts— has really helped me release some thoughts and clear my mind.
Today, a kitchen door in my home broke—it literally became unhinged! I started thinking about how I could fix it, even if just temporarily, and decided to prop it up using a stool. This simple act of trying to stabilize the door, got me reflecting on the support I have received over the past year. When I was becoming 'unhinged' in my own life, every bit of support was just what I needed to help keep me standing.
Right now, I’m $175 short of being able to cover my bills for the week. I continue to place my trust in God, believing that someone out there will not only be willing, but also able to help. Your ongoing support, whether financial or spiritual, means a lot to me, and I’m confident that with faith and perseverance, I will get through this, too.
2 Corinthians 8:12 "For if the willingness is there, the gift is acceptable according to what one has, not according to what one does not have."
27 September 2024 This week’s update comes on the heels of a Category 4 hurricane that made landfall in Florida. Thankfully, my area was spared a direct hit, but the outer bands of the storm still brought strong winds, heavy rain, and scattered power outages. Although 4.4 million people across the South are without power, I was fortunate that mine stayed on. There but for the grace of God go I.
I am deeply grateful and want to publicly thank an anonymous PayPal donor who made it possible for me to make my $257 loan payment this month. Their kindness also allowed me to buy groceries for the next two weeks, which has been such a relief.
In other news, the company that had offered me a job rescinded the offer after I tested positive for medical marijuana, despite it being legally prescribed for me under my doctor’s care. In fact, four separate doctors agreed I would benefit from medical marijuana. I’ve written a post about the situation on my blog, and I would appreciate it if you could read and share it. I feel it’s important to bring attention to this kind of unfair treatment.
On a positive note, I’ve been making real progress lately. For 27 days straight, I’ve been spending time outside, even walking over to my neighbor’s house to exchange phone numbers for emergencies. Even though it has amped up my anxiety, I stepped way out of my comfort zone and listed 14 items for sale on a local site, which I hope will help cover some of the bills due this coming week. Considering the value of the items, I think the risk is minimal that something will go wrong during the exchange.
I truly want to close this GoFundMe campaign, but right now, two major bills feel overwhelming. Without some help, I am unsure how I will manage to pay them. Currently, I am still without regular internet access, but I am thankful to have cellular data as a temporary solution.
In the meantime, I have been pouring my energy into my blog, which is coming along nicely. Writing has always been a great way for me to express my thoughts and process everything. My blog covers a range of topics—from my personal story and reflections to current news, Bible verses, and language overviews. It’s like an online diary, a glimpse into my heart and soul, and I hope it will benefit others in some way.
If you're interested, please check out my blog, https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion, and feel free to share it! If you're able and would like to contribute financially, your support would mean a lot to me during one of the most difficult times in my life.
Lamentations 3:22 "Because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail."
18 September 2024 Changes in my life are still happening. Every day this month, I have gone outside, doing a ton of yard work and even chatting with quite a few neighbors. This has been a big step for me. I really hope I have brought a bit of sunshine into their lives. I am still waiting to hear some good news about getting hired, and I remain hopeful.
With the due date for my $256 loan payment just over a week away, I am in desperate need of help to make it on time. Thankfully, an unexpected and unrequested refund has secured the $67 needed for my car insurance, which eases some of the pressure. I am so close to catching up and being able to manage my finances on my own again. It feels like I take two steps forward and one step back—and I really want this dance to end! Although I have not received a donation in over three weeks, I continue to pray with hope in my heart and faith in God.
I have also created a website that currently focuses on my GoFundMe, but I will be adding other blog posts as well. My goal is to have a place where I can creatively express myself and work through any intrusive and unreconciled thoughts that may arise. It has been challenging without home internet, but I have faced worse, and I will continue to push through!
Please continue to pray for me, Even a small donation can make an incredible difference! I completely understand if you are unable to help financially, but please help me find donors by sharing my new website. You can visit it here: https://lmb523.wixsite.com/disconnexion
Deuteronomy 15:10 "Give generously to them and do so without a grudging heart; then because of this the Lord your God will bless you in all your work and in everything you put your hand to."
14 September 2024 Thank God, and everyone who keeps me in their prayers, things worked out today.
Everything is snowballing out of control, and reaching out to my mortgage company was a huge mistake. Despite their website claiming "Mortgage relief: we're here to help," they offered no viable help. The experience was extremely stressful—so much so that intrusive thoughts began to creep in, telling me to just end it all.
Thankfully, I was able to pay my mortgage, but now that has created other financial issues. I am praying for help to cover a loan of $256 and car insurance of $67, both due on September 27. I believe once I'm hired and receive my first paycheck, I’ll be able to manage and, hopefully, close this GoFundMe.
If you decide to make a donation, it will not only help me, but it may also inspire others to make a donation. I cannot urge you enough to share my GoFundMe story, whether or not you are able to help financially. I believe God led you to this page for a reason, and I deeply appreciate your support. Thank you so much!
Proverbs 11:25 "A generous person will prosper; whoever refreshes others will be refreshed."
13 September 2024 It’s Friday the 13th, and I am hoping it doesn’t turn out to be a bad omen! I have completed the required fingerprinting, background check, drug screen, and in-person training for my prospective job. Now, I am anxiously awaiting the results, which will take another week or two. Unfortunately, I had to use $188 allotted for my mortgage payment to cover these costs, leaving me unable to pay my mortgage for September. My grace period ends in just three days.
Even if I manage to get hired, it will likely be several weeks before I receive my first paycheck. I am incredibly stressed about how I will manage this month and next, and any help would be immensely appreciated. To counter my anxiety about my picture being taken, I have included my new badge photo for all the world to see.
If anyone is able to help me get through these next few weeks, assist with my mortgage or basic necessities, I would be forever grateful. If you are not able to help financially, please share my GoFundMe link.
Isaiah 50:10 "Who among you fears the Lord and obeys the word of his servant? Let the one who walks in the dark, who has no light, trust in the name of the Lord and rely on their God."
11 September 2024 I realize there is a lot of information on my GoFundMe page, and I am committed to keeping it updated regularly on my situation. I want to address something that might be on your mind. My campaign has been active since October 5th, 2023, in the category of rent, food, and monthly bills. With 60 updates over the past 11 months, it might seem unusual that I am still here asking for support.
While I have made strides in addressing my circumstances with the help of this GoFundMe, I still have two outstanding debts that are causing a financial hardship. Without help, managing this overwhelming debt feels impossible. Though I have received a contingent job offer, a paycheck is still weeks away—pending completion of a background check ($90), a drug screen ($58), and a required in-person training. Additionally, I am experiencing heightened anxiety due to having to travel to these places and the associated costs including gas money.
If anyone is able to help cover these additional expenses, I would be eternally grateful. I deeply appreciate the support I have received and I will continue to post updates on my progress. If you have any questions or need more details, please use the contact button below to reach out. Thank you for your continued support!
2 Corinthians 4:8 "We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair."
05 September 2024 I know I am updating frequently, but changes happen—I like to be able to let everyone know how I am doing. In addition, I am feeling extremely anxious and writing helps me sort out my feelings and reconcile my thoughts. My GoFundMe updates are a great place to combine my financial status and my thoughts for total transparency of how I am handling life.
I mentioned applying for a job in my last update. I learned it takes three to four weeks to get hired, and then a couple of weeks before earning a paycheck. I can manage not having the ideal clothes or upper teeth to start, but I am not sure how I will be able to manage the background check required. The website stated $60 - $90 in Florida. I am thankful this is the only requirement compared to other states. I have faith God will provide the way!
In other great news, there was a sale on my medicine—75% off. I have been using my medicine intermittently, only using it two to three times a day instead of the four to six doses realistically needed. I was so thankful to be able to purchase enough to use sparingly for the next six weeks. The medicine surely has helped me this past week deal with an emotional issue—forgiveness.
Forgiveness
They come as friends, wrapped in gentle words, but underneath, something stirs. Wolves in sheep's clothing, waiting, not for my heart, but for control. “By their fruit, you will recognize them,” the mask eventually slips. When I look back, the damage remains—disguised in apologies without depth, in words meant to soothe but never heal.
Afraid to trust, I searched for understanding, seeking answers from above, but trust is fragile in the hands of those who wear deception like a second skin. I’ve seen the face they hide. The smile a mask, but their heart deceives. I trusted, yet their words turned sharp. In secret, they plotted, while I believed.
Their kindness was just a veil, but beneath, their motives lay bare. Unaware, I opened my heart, innocent as I was, they played their part. They spoke of love, but actions betray, a wolf among the flock. Their anger rises when I speak the truth, and I wonder, where is the grace? Where is the care when they watch from afar, yet stand unmoved by the pain they see?
“If anyone has material possessions and sees a brother or sister in need but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person?” Where was the pity? Where was the hand that reached out not in defense, but in comfort? Now I see the truth behind the lies. I trusted blindly, but I won’t again.
In the silence that follows, I find clarity and calm. I forgive, but forgiveness does not erase the truth—only frees me from its weight. For I will not be pulled under by words meant to conceal. And I will walk forward, eyes open, guarding my heart against those who come in disguise.
Romans 12:19 "Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: 'It is mine to avenge; I will repay,' says the Lord."
03 September 2024 I have really been making some changes. The first change was when I took scissors and cut off 20 inches of my hair. Despite not having the clothes, the money for a background check nor upper teeth, I applied for a job today. Although the job is out of the home, if I get hired, I think I can succeed. It started me thinking about small actions leading to big changes.
In chaos theory, there is the "butterfly effect" — the idea that something as small as a butterfly flapping its wings can set off a chain of events leading to much bigger outcomes. In this way, sharing this campaign or offering even a small bit of help might create a ripple effect that reaches far beyond what we can predict. Each share or donation is like a small ripple in a vast ocean—gaining momentum and reaching people who might otherwise never have known about my situation.
Every act of kindness, whether it is sharing this campaign, offering encouragement, or providing support in any form, can lead to unexpected positive outcomes. You never know who your small action might reach or what difference it could ultimately make. Thank you, and as always, feel free to reach out through the contact button if you have any questions.
Matthew 17:20 "... Truly I tell you, if you have faith as small as a mustard seed, you can say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move. Nothing will be impossible for you."
02 September 2024 As I continue to reach out for support, I have been reflecting on the idea that we are all connected in ways we might not even realize. You may have heard of the theory of "six degrees of separation" — the idea that each of us is connected by no more than six steps to anyone else in the world. With social media and the digital world, that number might be even smaller.
I am hoping that by continuing to spread the word, sharing my story with others, and keeping these connections going, help might be just a click away. Every time this GoFundMe is shared, it reaches someone new who may be able to offer support. Think of it as helping a friend of a friend, of a friend.
Thank you to everyone who has already shared or donated. Please keep spreading the word, and if you have any questions, feel free to reach out through the contact button, and I will respond as soon as possible.
Romans 1:8 "First, I thank my God through Jesus Christ for all of you, because your faith is being reported all over the world."
31 August 2024 If you are reading this update, I urge you to take a moment to look into your own heart and reflect on the choices you've made regarding support and help. It’s important to consider how your actions, or lack thereof, affect those around you. When you have the opportunity to offer help, it is within your power to make a difference. Understanding this can provide insight into the impact of your decisions and the feelings they evoke in others.
It’s deeply hurtful to see that even now, when you have the opportunity to help, you choose not to. When you have the means—whether it's time, money or words—to offer support, you do not step forward. Witnessing this lack of action, despite having the capacity to assist, is painful. It’s disheartening to realize that the help I so desperately need is within reach, yet remains unoffered. This absence of support, when it is so clearly possible, adds to the emotional burden and sense of disappointment.
The choices you make in your treatment of others have significant consequences. When you fail to act with compassion and generosity, you are not only missing an opportunity to do good but also distancing yourself from God's will. Ignoring the needs of others can lead to a lack of fulfillment, spiritual emptiness, and future consequences. I hope this reflection helps you understand the broader impact of your decisions and encourages a more compassionate approach moving forward.
Matthew 25:45-46 "He will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did not do for one of the least of these, you did not do for me.’ Then they will go away to eternal punishment, but the righteous to eternal life.”
29 August 2024 I know that when people hear about everything I’ve been through, it might sound overwhelming or even exaggerated. Even more so when they learn about other traumatic events affecting me that I haven't shared in my GoFundMe. It’s been increasingly difficult to manage the weight of these hardships as they build up over time.
I’ve been really struggling lately, and I’m hesitant to even bring this up, but it feels like everything is closing in on me—mentally, emotionally, and financially. Even when I have good days mentally, I still find myself trapped by my circumstances. It’s incredibly discouraging to feel stuck, especially when I’m trying my best to push forward.
The financial stress is making it impossible to even imagine a life beyond the walls of my home, and it’s weighing on me more than I can handle sometimes. I’m just so exhausted and overwhelmed from carrying this for so long. But I know that I’ve tried to stay strong, to share my story and ask for help, and to keep hope alive, even when it feels like it’s slipping away.
I’m just trying to find a way to get through, even though it’s tough right now. If I can’t get out from under this financial burden, I’m not sure how I can keep going. I’m grateful to those who support me, and I’m just doing my best to stay positive.
2 Corinthians 11:30-31 "If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. The God and Father of the Lord Jesus, who is to be praised forever, knows that I am not lying."
27 August 2024 I want to take a moment to express my deep appreciation for the most recent donation. I can't tell you how excited I am to receive this generous donation! It means so much, especially in a time when support is crucial and money is tight for so many. What I truly need right now is your help in reaching more people who might be able to contribute.
If you're not in a position to donate, please consider sharing my story with your friends, family, or social circles. Your share could help me reach new supporters who may be able to make a donation. Your kindness in spreading the word is incredibly valuable and appreciated. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
1 Thessalonians 5:11 "Therefore encourage one another and build each other up, just as in fact you are doing."
23 August 2024 To any of you who have kept me in your thoughts, prayed, donated, or shared my story since the start of my GoFundMe—I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart! It’s been hard, and I’ve been hanging on by a thread, but I’m incredibly grateful for the few who have reached out with thoughts, prayers, or help.
I’ve been without home internet for two months now, and it has deeply affected my daily life. It’s more than just the frustration of not being able to stream or search for a job—many aspects of my routine have been impacted, leaving me feeling even more disconnected and isolated. However, on the brighter side, having medicine these last few weeks has been a Godsend!
The reality is I need your help more than ever. While I have been fortunate to make it this far, I am still not out of the woods. The burden is heavy, but with your continued help, I believe I can get there. This situation is overwhelming, and I’m not sure how long I can continue without some real assistance.
I need help! Not out of luxury, but out of necessity. If you’re able to contribute, even a small amount, it would take some of the weight off my shoulders. And if you can’t, please consider sharing my story with others on social media or in your community. Every little bit can help me get through these difficult times.
Psalm 109:22 For I am poor and needy, and my heart is wounded within me.
22 August 2024 If you’d like to help by sharing my GoFundMe link with your friends, family, or on social media, here are some sample messages you can use to help spread the word. Change or remove "my friend" to whatever fits our relationship best:
Please help my friend Linda, who is going through an incredibly tough time. Every donation or share makes a difference! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
My friend Linda is facing overwhelming challenges, and she needs our support. Let’s rally around her and make a difference together. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
My friend Linda’s been through so much, and right now she needs all the help she can get. If you can donate or share her story, it would mean the world! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
My friend Linda is such a strong person, but she needs help right now. Even if you can't donate, please consider sharing her story! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
Sometimes the best way to help is by sharing. my friend Linda could really use your support, whether through a donation or simply spreading the word! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
My friend Linda has been through more than anyone should have to, and she needs help to get back on her feet. Every little bit counts! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
I’m sharing my friend Linda’s story because she’s in need of some serious help. If you can donate or share, it could really lift a burden. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
Supporting my friend Linda right now could make a huge difference in her life. Please donate if you can, or simply share this link to help spread the word! https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
Hebrews 13:16 "And do not forget to do good and to share with others, for with such sacrifices God is pleased."
19 August 2024 In my last update, I was really anxious about my unpaid electric bill. I prayed for God's light to shine through the darkness and provide a way for me to overcome my financial challenge. Although no donations came in, I am grateful to share that God did provide a way! I was able to secure a loan to cover my $285 electric bill and the remainder of August bills. The loan will be payable at $221 per month for the next three months. While my financial burden has increased temporarily, I am thankful that I have made it through another month.
Though there are still challenges ahead, I believe with faith and support, I’ll be able to reduce this overwhelming debt. With faith, I find the inner strength and peace to face my daily challenges, trusting that solutions will emerge and that I can continue to persevere. Support provides practical help and emotional encouragement making it easier to tackle each day, I will continue to ask for your prayers and any help you can provide, whether it be donations or even a share of my campaign with someone who may be able to help.
Thank you all for your prayers and thoughts.
Psalm 68:19 "Praise be to the Lord, to God our Savior, who daily bears our burdens."
16 August 2024 It’s been two months since my last donation, and while I haven’t received any GoFundMe contributions during this time, I remain patient and hopeful. I trust that support will come when the time is right. Currently, I don’t know how I’m going to pay my $285 electric bill, and it’s weighing heavily on me. Any donations collected between now and Monday will go directly toward keeping my power on.
I’ve been praying about this situation, and here is the prayer that’s been on my heart:
"Dear Lord, I come before You with a humble heart, weighed down by the burden of my unpaid electric bill. The anxiety of keeping up with these essential costs is overwhelming, and I fear the consequences of not being able to pay what is due. You are my provider and my source of strength. I ask for Your guidance and intervention in this situation. Please open the hearts of those who can help, and grant me the peace to trust in Your provision. Let Your light shine in this darkness, and provide a way for me to overcome this financial challenge. In Jesus' name, I pray. Amen."
This week, I came across an image that brought me a sense of calm that is hard to put into words. I can’t help but feel it’s a sign that God is working in the background, even when I can’t see it.
Thank you for keeping me in your thoughts, and I appreciate any prayers, donations, or even a share to someone who might be able to help.
John 14:13-14 "And I will do whatever you ask in my name, so that the Father may be glorified in the Son. You may ask me for anything in my name, and I will do it."
08 August 2024 My thoughts have been all over the place. The storm finally passed, and other than high wind, rain, and my electricity being off for some hours, I made it through unscathed. It got me thinking about prayer. I always held the belief I should be specific in prayers. I never really liked general prayer messages anyway. But, doesn't God already know our needs? A pivotal thought entered my mind this week. What happens if what I am praying for isn't the issue that will fix the problem? Certainly I don't need to guide God on how to improve on his workmanship! That brought me to wonder if a more general prayer is more appropriate?
Do I need money to pay the 285.48 electric bill of which 174.68 is delinquent? Or do I need to learn to live in the dark, without refrigeration, hot water, cooling or any electronic devices? I didn't like the trial "no electricity' God tested me with during the storm, but it was more critical to choose medicine and food over the electric bill this week. I've finally been able to buy medication after not having it for the last 10 months This led to more thoughts and then I was thinking about thoughts and how long I've been this way.
I usually have racing thoughts, something I’ve lived with all my life. As a young child, I was even put in speech class for many years because I tried to talk as fast as my thoughts. I strive to categorize these thoughts methodically and logically, forming clear links all while battling intrusive thoughts. While I’m often very successful at solving problems, it can be exhausting for me and frustrating for those around me. I often get distracted by stray thoughts, and when I’m redirected back to the main topic, I have to return to the last "restore point" saved in my brain.
However, more often than not, my thoughts race in a chaotic manner, jumping from one topic to another without any clear connection. It can be confusing, but also oddly exhilarating, like trying to piece together a puzzle with no clear image. Despite this chaos, I can usually follow the trail of thoughts and understand how even seemingly random ideas are connected. Unfortunately, this way of thinking can be isolating, especially when others cannot see the connections that are so clear to me.
This is something I've noticed in the response to my GoFundMe campaign. I've laid out my situation, hoping others would understand the connections between my struggles, but the lack of support has made me feel misunderstood and overlooked. It’s exhausting trying to explain something that feels so clear to me, yet seems disconnected to others. Thank you God for hearing all of my prayers. I pray this financial burden is lightened and my emotional torment resolved. It is hard to look beyond something that is broken, when God lets me know it can be repaired. Please pray, donate or help find donors by sharing.
Proverbs 24:10 "If you falter in a time of trouble, how small is your strength!"
04 August 2024 I have really been struggling this week. The place I live is in a "state of emergency" due to the incoming storm. If I had to evacuate, I have no financial means to escape. It got me thinking about a well known story about a flood and rowboats, and how it applies to my situation.
I created a quick video illustrating two perspectives using the story as the basis. I am so thankful people have helped with contributions and God has been providing in some unexpected ways. I can't tell you how grateful I am to still be afloat, if only barely! On the other hand, I feel like I am drowning and many people are just shrugging their shoulders as they watch me go under. Thank you for watching the video and helping if you are able.
01 August 2024 Have you ever wanted to be a hero at some point in your life – to make a real difference and save someone in need? Your donation isn't just alleviating my financial burdens; it's the hope that keeps me breathing through my darkest times while restoring my faith in the kindness of others. I am very thankful for the heroes in my life and the support they have offered.
A hero shows genuine concern for others' well-being. They are moved by the suffering of others and feel compelled to help. Heroes are willing to give their time, resources, or money to assist those in need. They don't hesitate to share what they have to make a difference in someone's life. They have the ability to understand and share the feelings of another person. It allows them to connect deeply with those they are helping. Heroes often put the needs of others before their own. Their actions are motivated by the desire to help rather than personal gain. They are brave enough to take action, even when it's difficult or inconvenient. Heroes are not deterred by challenges or fears when it comes to helping others.
A hero can be counted on to be there when needed. They are dependable and follow through on their promises and commitments. Their actions inspire others to also take action and make a difference. Heroes lead by example, showing what it means to be compassionate and giving. They often perform their acts of kindness without seeking recognition or reward. True heroes help out of a genuine desire to make the world a better place. They don't give up easily and are determined to see their efforts through. Heroes continue to help despite obstacles or setbacks. They have a natural inclination to be kind and considerate. This kindness is evident in their actions and the way they treat others, not just their friends, but strangers alike.
Have you ever thought, "It's not my problem," and chosen not to get involved? I have shared my story with many, and while I appreciate those who have taken the time to read it, the lack of response has been deeply disheartening. It's difficult to express how vulnerable and exposed I feel, having laid bare my struggles only to be met with silence. This silence has made me feel overlooked and undervalued, as though my plea for help isn't worthy of attention or action. When it is all said and done, I hope no one will wonder with should've, would've, could've statements.
Thoughts of remorse for not offering assistance, "I should have donated when I had the chance." Regretful reflections on not stepping in, "I would have helped if I had known how serious it was." Hindsight regrets for not providing support, "I could have made a difference by donating just a little." Second thoughts about choosing not to aid, "I should have reached out to see if she needed anything." Feelings of guilt for not helping out, "I would have contributed if I knew it meant this much."
Self-reproach for not getting involved, "I could have taken a few moments to support her campaign." Lingering doubts about not taking action, "I should have shared her GoFundMe with more people." Sorrowful musings on missed opportunities to help, "I would have done more if I realized she was struggling so badly." Remorse for staying on the sidelines, "I could have been there for her instead of just watching from the sidelines." Regrets about not lending a hand, "I should have done something instead of staying silent."
Today, as always, you have the choice to be that hero for me or close your eyes and heart to my situation. I believe that everyone has the potential to be a hero in someone's life. Your support is crucial during this challenging time. By contributing to my GoFundMe campaign, you have the power to save me from overwhelming financial and emotional distress. Your generosity can provide the stability I desperately need to keep going. Imagine being the person who stepped in despite what others have done, the hero who helped me find my way back to a life of hope and possibility. Every bit of support counts and helps me to feel seen and valued during this incredibly challenging time. Thank you for any support you can provide.
Psalm 31:24 "Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the Lord."
24 July 2024 This week I added a TLDR to my main campaign. I am still without home internet so doing these updates is a struggle on cellular data. My $174 electric bill is due today and may be disconnected as it is now 2 months late. I've been really confused about why so many people completely ignore my cry for help or just check in without offering any concrete support. After thinking it over and doing some research, I came up with a few reasons that might explain it. Lack of Understanding: They might not fully understand the severity of my situation or how they could help. Some people struggle with practical ways to offer support, even when it's clear to others. Avoidance: Some people may completely ignore what I am going through because they feel overwhelmed or uncomfortable with the situation. They may hope that by not acknowledging it, the problem will go away or someone else will step in to help. Apathy: Sometimes people express concern but don't follow through because taking action requires effort, time, and commitment they might not be willing to give. Emotional Distance: Some people may try to maintain emotional distance while still feeling some level of obligation to check in. This can lead to superficial gestures that don't translate into meaningful support. Self-Centeredness: Actions might be more about alleviating their own guilt or sense of responsibility rather than genuinely wanting to help. This aligns with certain narcissistic traits. Fear of Commitment: They may be afraid that offering help could pull them into a relationship or create expectations they don't want to fulfill. Understanding why some people may not offer help has given me a new perspective, but it doesn't change the fact that I am still in need of support. While it can be difficult when my pleas for help go unanswered, I remain hopeful. Every contribution, no matter the size, brings me closer to stability. I believe in the power of individual kindness and the difference one person can make. Every donation, every share, every message of encouragement matters. It all adds up to helping me overcome these financial hardships. I understand that not everyone is in a position to help financially, but spreading the word and sharing my story can be equally powerful. Thank you for your time, your empathy, and any assistance you can offer.
https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion Micah 7:8 "Do not gloat over me, my enemy! Though I have fallen, I will rise. Though I sit in darkness, the Lord will be my light."
18 July 2024 My campaign is in its tenth month and I am very thankful to those that have helped. The donations were crucial and I would not be here without each and every generous dollar. I am praying I can get to a point where I can survive each month going forward with no financial help! Together, we have made a lot of progress towards this goal!
Wonderful news this week! Prayer works! My house payment has decreased by 83.61 - at least for the next year! I've also had some good mental health days! I went outside for maybe an hour for two days in a row and did some yard work trimming hedges! I also met my next door neighbor and chatted for a bit!
My immediate needs right now are a $174 electric bill which is for 2 months and paying off a loan with a payment of $230. I am still hopeful to be able to get help paying nearly $10,000 of overwhelming debt.
Please keep praying for me! If you are not able to help financially, sharing the link could lead to someone that is able to help. https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion
Isaiah 12:2 "Surely God is my salvation; I will trust and not be afraid. The Lord, the Lord himself, is my strength and my defense; he has become my salvation."
11 July 2024 I want to take a moment to express my deep gratitude for the support I have received over the past nine months. I am so thankful that I have made it this far with the help of some donors. I started this campaign after multiple unforeseen setbacks happened within a relatively short time during my transition to a fixed income. I truly appreciate every single donation that has helped me survive this difficult time.
Receiving an email from my former fiancé this week has been confusing and painful. It's especially hard when someone claims to care but doesn't take action to help. This has added to my emotional burden, making it even more challenging to cope with my current situation.
It's incredibly difficult knowing I don’t have enough money to pay my bills. I understand money is tight for many. It's hard to convey the depth of my struggles, especially as they are compounded by my mental illness. I have to constantly battle the irrational thoughts that come to my mind. Streaming and therapy were lifelines for me, and now I have neither.
Recently, I tried to apply at a church for help with my past due electric bill, but it didn't work out. Finding a way to print the documentation they required and physically taking them to the church was more overwhelming than I could handle. They wouldn't accept electronic copies.
Currently, my most urgent needs are a $174 electric bill, part of which is already past due, and a final loan payment of $230.
Thank you for each and every hard-earned dollar that you have given me. Your support echoes in my mind and keeps me wanting to go another day. I don’t want to let anyone down by giving up.
Despite the challenges, I remain hopeful and continue to pray for better days. Any assistance you can provide, even $10, makes a big difference. Sharing my story and asking for donations on my behalf is also incredibly helpful.
Isaiah 40:29 "He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak."
05 July 2024 It's been nine months since I started this GoFundMe campaign, and I am very thankful for everyone who has helped me survive these dark times. I could not have come this far without the compassion of the few and this GoFundMe campaign.
I really want those considering a donation to understand that even a $10 donation can help. It may not seem like much against the amount I am seeking, but helping me conquer the bills a month at a time is a Godsend. Ultimately, I need to find my way out of this overwhelming debt.
It is difficult for me to reach out for help, and I am grateful for this platform. I really hope people will advocate for me by sharing my story, asking for donations on my behalf, and creating the momentum that this campaign needs. I had to remind someone recently, just because I am in need, it doesn't take away my anxiety disorder. In fact, it is somewhat paralyzing to have inner hope and creative ideas, yet feel so hopeless to carry them out. I feel it in my heart that there are people ready to champion my cause in a meaningful way.
Job 22:21 "Submit to God and be at peace with him; in this way prosperity will come to you."
29 June 2024 God provides! I got an unexpected refund in the mail that will help me pay this month's bills. I am struggling even more mentally now since having to turn off the internet and my main connection to the world. I at least have phone data, but it is a very weak signal.
When I called to turn off my internet, the girl asked why. Being candid as I am, I told her I couldn't afford it. She offered a promotion for $60 for 6 months. I told her I couldn't afford it, I have no food in my house. She replied with, "I know what you mean, I had to stop eating out and now have to cook all my meals at home." It isn't the same.
I need help to get out from under this debt. Sharing and donating would be greatly appreciated. Thank you for your support.
1 Peter 5:10 "And the God of all grace, who called you to his eternal glory in Christ, after you have suffered a little while, will himself restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast."
23 June 2024 Immediate Needs: Financial assistance to cover essential bills and food. Sharing this campaign to reach more potential donors.
This week's update is grim. I am literally losing at life in front of the world and no one seems to care enough or is willing to sacrifice to help me claw my way out of this hole. I had to terminate my health insurance, and my weekly therapy, because I could not afford to pay it. It's already been difficult enough without little medication since last September. A few months back, I had to cancel my home warranty which was a calming, safety net. I am running behind on paying my $1283 mortgage which is cutting into the money for the current month's bills.
Currently, the only food I have left is about five cups of rice and twelve waffles. Rice and waffles have been my diet for the last week. This has not been good for my physical health nor my mental health. On June 25, I will get a $46 food allowance which will help me for the next couple of weeks.
On the 24th of June, I am going to have to cancel my internet service because two programs ended at the same time causing my bill to go from $30 to $80 a month. This will likely mean I can no longer stream, ending my daily connection to the outside world. The 100ºF/38ºC heat has been rough for so many. I won't be able to pay the electric this month, even though I am keeping my house around 80ºF/27ºC.
I am struggling to stay alive, but I will continue to put my trust in God that He is working to help me survive this darkness as well as matters of the heart. My ultimate goal is to get help paying off this debt so I can survive monthly on my own. I would appreciate any donations. If you are not able to help financially, praying and sharing the link are also very helpful. Thank you for taking the time to read my update. I am grateful for any and all support.
Psalm 142:6 "Listen to my cry, for I am in desperate need; rescue me from those who pursue me, for they are too strong for me."
14 June 2024 Today has been a particularly difficult day for me. I've been struggling to find a way to get through the month, both financially and mentally. Having to terminate my health insurance at the start of the month means I can no longer go to therapy, which has been incredibly hard. The worry about how I will pay for essentials like electricity has been overwhelming, and it's taken a significant toll on me. I wasn't planning an update and streaming has also been too difficult.
Amidst all this, I received a $10 donation from an anonymous person. I cannot express how much this means to me, especially today. Their kindness has brought a ray of hope to a very dark day. There are still caring people out there, and this support is more important than words can convey. Thank you for the generosity and reminder that compassion exists.
Nahum 1:7 "The Lord is good, a refuge in times of trouble. He cares for those who trust in him."
06 June 2024 Please breathe life into my campaign: Perform CPR on my GoFundMe—Contribute, Promote, and Revive. Today’s update marks eight months since I started this GoFundMe campaign, and I am still in urgent need of assistance.
Contribute: While the ultimate goal is to eliminate overwhelming debt, your donation, no matter the size, can help cover essential expenses like medicine, therapy, utility bills, and my mortgage.
Promote: Share my GoFundMe campaign with friends, family, and on social media. Spreading the word can significantly increase the chances of reaching those who can help.
Revive: Your support can revive my hope and stability, allowing me to maintain my home and access necessary medical care. Thank you for considering any form of help you can provide.
Job 8:21 "He will yet fill your mouth with laughter and your lips with shouts of joy."
31 May 2024 Today, a new development tied to yesterday's update. I had to terminate my health insurance ($143.99 mo) and dental (7.95 mo) because I was not able to pay it. This will also end my weekly therapy sessions.
30 May 2024 This update is a heartfelt plea for support as I continue to go through an incredibly challenging time. The nearly $1700 that was raised during the first six months helped me survive those months. Unfortunately, it didn't help reduce my monthly debt.
My financial situation has become even more dire, and I urgently need assistance to cover essential expenses. Currently, I do not have the money to pay for these bills due at the start of June, my medical insurance ($143.99), electric bill ($95.16), water bill ($26.64), or mortgage ($1,283.58). If I can just get current, I will be able to take a breathe and hopefully stop feeling like I can't go on.
Despite my best efforts to manage on my own, the burden of these expenses is overwhelming because I can't catch up. I urgently need your help to keep up with these critical bills. Your contribution, no matter how small, could make a significant difference in my ability to maintain stability and meet my basic needs.
If you can, please consider donating to my GoFundMe campaign. Your support means more than I can express and will help me keep my home and access necessary medical care. Thank you for taking the time to read this and for any help you can provide.
Psalm 37:5 "Commit your way to the Lord; trust in Him, and He will act."
24 May 2024 My financial situation remains dire, and it has been a few months since the last donation. I am barely hanging on, and each day is a struggle to manage overwhelming debts and basic living expenses. Despite my best efforts to find relief, my circumstances haven't improved, and I find myself on the edge of losing hope.
I continue to pray that someone will come forward to advocate for me and offer the support I desperately need. Every bit of help, whether through a donation, sharing my campaign, or offering prayers, can make a significant difference. The link to my GoFundMe is https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion.
Your support, no matter how small, is a beacon of hope and can help lift some of the heavy burdens I am carrying. I hold onto the belief that compassion and kindness will prevail, and I am immensely grateful for any assistance during this trying time.
James 1:12 "Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him."
17 May 2024 Despite the passing months, my GoFundMe campaign hasn't seen the support I hoped for. It's disheartening to witness the silence in the face of ongoing financial struggles. Asking for donations isn't easy, but without voicing my need, how can others understand the gravity of my situation? As I confront mounting debts and daily challenges, I hold onto the belief that compassion still exists.
Your contribution, no matter how modest, serves as a lifeline in my journey toward stability. Whether through donations, prayers, or spreading awareness, your support can alleviate the burdens I carry. Let's come together, embodying the spirit of empathy and community, to uplift each other in times of need.
You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support.
Psalm 55:22 "Cast your cares on the Lord and he will sustain you; he will never let the righteous be shaken."
10 May 2024 In times of need, I often hear inspiring words about compassion and the inherent goodness of humanity. People remind me that in our shared journey, it's our capacity to care for one another that defines our humanity. Yet, amidst these reminders, I find myself questioning why there haven't been any recent donations to my cause.
I ask for donations because if I don't ask, nobody would know the extent of my need and the challenges I face. As I navigate through financial difficulties and the weight of overwhelming debt, I cling to the belief that kindness and generosity still prevail.
Each contribution, no matter how small, represents a beacon of hope in my journey towards stability. So, I wonder, where is the compassion that so many speak of? Where is the humanity in reaching out to those in need?
Your support, whether through donations, prayers, or sharing this campaign, can make a tangible difference in my life. Together, let's uphold the values of compassion and humanity that bind us as a community. Thank you for standing with me in this challenging time.
Galatians 6:2 "Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ.
03 May 2024 This week's update brings some good news that prayer does work. Beginning at the end of May, my food allowance will increase to $46 dollars per month! I've also been able to eliminate a $169 per month obligation which is a huge relief. I urgently need to get out from under an additional $350 of debt per month which consists of:
$126 per month credit debt totaling $4,742.37,
$174 per month fixed loan totaling $4,032.33,
$50 per month dental expense charged totaling $1,337.90.
I would then be able to pay for my home and basic needs on my fixed income.
I am so uplifted right now, and it would be an amazing feeling if donations came in to keep the momentum flowing. Paying off this paralyzing debt would open so many avenues in my healing. I pray that someone will believe in me, advocate on my behalf, and help relieve this financial burden. I am so thankful for family, friends, and strangers that have already helped me during these last seven months of this GoFundMe campaign.
Please consider contributing what you can to support me during this challenging time. Your donation can make a real difference in helping me overcome this financial hurdle by reducing this debt and allowing me to cover essential bills. I urge you to continue to pray hard for me and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support.
Proverbs 22:9 "The generous will themselves be blessed, for they share their food with the poor."
26 April 2024 I wanted to provide this update. It's been nearly two months since I've received any donations. I find myself at a loss, unsure of what to do next. While I am deeply thankful for those who have donated, the lack of support from others has left me feeling confused and unsupported. Even a small donation can have a significant impact on my situation. The looming debt continues to weigh heavily on me, and it's causing real hardship. I'm genuinely hurting right now, both financially and emotionally.
In these challenging times, I continue to trust in God and have faith that He will send people who are able and willing to help without judgment. I believe in His guidance and provision, and I hope for more understanding and support from those around me.
Thank you to everyone who has stood by me during this difficult journey. Your support means more than words can express. Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support.
Proverbs 12:25 "Anxiety weighs down the heart, but a kind word cheers it up."
19 April 2024 The words of support I have received have really helped me this past week. I understand that many may want to help, but might not be in a position to do so. My situation is dire, and it is challenging when people don't recognize the impact of this financial burden. Due to a change in circumstances beyond my control, I now live on $25K less a year. The pressure of not being able to pay my bills and the threat of losing my house triggers more intrusive thoughts than normal.
I am praying hard that someone will read this and advocate for me. I am beyond exhausted from being strong my entire life. It's becoming more difficult for me to continue to persevere. Once this overwhelming debt is settled, I will be able to pay my mortgage and basics with my current monthly income. Any donation amount, big or small, will help keep me from sinking further. Again, I am very thankful for the donations over the last six months that have kept me from drowning.
Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support.
Psalm 94:19 "When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy."
12 April 2024 Although I haven't received any donations through GoFundMe for sometime, I am still optimistic that God will send the right people here to help me. I've applied for another job this week, and I pray that a job offer will come through soon. I am still very thankful for everyone that has already helped.
The notices from the two accounts that I had to default on have been coming in daily. They will go to collections soon, and it really tears me up that I wasn't able to continue to pay them. This leads to negative intrusive thoughts. Trying to do my best to not let any other accounts default with my number one priority being my mortgage.
I trust in God when I hear whispers that I should continue on this path. There is someone in this world that will empathize with my past, understand my present, and advocate for my future.
Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support.
Proverbs 31:8-9 "Speak up for those who cannot speak for themselves, for the rights of all who are destitute. Speak up and judge fairly; defend the rights of the poor and needy."
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In a world where judgments loom and voices chime,
I sought solace in this tumultuous time.
Struggling with shadows, battling an unseen foe,
Through darkness, where intrusive thoughts flow.
Whispers of doubt, they pierce like a knife,
Questioning my worth, igniting inner strife.
"Others suffer more," their words did declare,
But pain knows no measure, in its silent despair.
In therapy's space, where truth finds its light,
I learn to honor my struggles, embrace my fight.
No guilt shall tether, nor shame hold sway,
For in seeking support, I find my way.
So let the doubters whisper, their words may wane,
For I stand tall, in my truth, and continue to explain.
With each step forward, in therapy's embrace,
I reclaim my voice, my worth, and my place.
05 April 2024 Today marks six months that I have opened up and asked others for help through this GoFundMe campaign. I thank God for touching people's hearts, making it possible for me to be blessed with over $300 a month, which helped me to survive these past six months. Although I was able to pay for basic needs, which I am extremely grateful, it really hasn't eliminated any debt due to interest. It has been difficult continually asking and begging for the help that I need, but until a job offer or some other means presents itself, I need to do this to calm the intrusive thoughts that see death as the most viable option.
I continue to trust in God's timing because without my continued faith in God that began as a young girl, I would not have survived these six decades. It is my sincere hope that someone will rally my cause and advocate for me. The visions of hope of finally being able to go out into the world freely that I have always seen in vivid colors, has turned to black and white due to this financial strain and the joy that is no longer in my life.
Circumstance led me down this path of financial hardship, and poor mental, physical, and emotional health has kept me from being able to resolve this on my own. It is the strain of sixty years of continued perseverance and resilience that has taken its toll.
Please continue to pray for me, donate if you are able, and share this GoFundMe. You can contact me through Twitch (https://www.twitch.tv/disconnexion) or here on GoFundMe (https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion) for any further information you may need. Thank you for any and all support.
Philippians 4:12-13 "I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do all this through him who gives me strength."
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In the depths of my journey, six months gone by,
I've opened my heart, letting tears freely fly.
Grateful for blessings, though they barely dent,
The weight of my burden with every dollar spent.
With each passing day, I search for a sign,
A glimmer of hope in this struggle of mine.
Trusting in God's timing, since I was a child,
Through decades of hardship, His love compiled.
Circumstances led me to this trying place,
Where debt and despair I continue to face.
Yet faith keeps me standing, hopeful and strong,
In the darkest of nights, I still sing my song.
I know what it's like, to have plenty or lack,
To find contentment, even when under attack.
For through Him who strengthens, I find my reprieve,
In every trial faced, I still firmly believe.
So I ask for your prayers, your kindness to share,
For a job offer, a lifeline, for someone to care.
In the midst of this struggle, together we'll cope,
For with faith as our guide, there's always hope.
29 March 2024 As we are closing in on six months, I want to thank those that have contributed and offered words of encouragement. I would not have been able to make it this far without either. I knew once my finances started spiraling downward, it would snowball and become really unmanageable. Now that my health is better, I have been able to look for work, but no job offers have come through yet. I try to keep a hopeful and positive spirit, but inside I am crying.
I know If I can get help to pay off this $9,900 debt, I will be able to continue fighting to improve my mental health. I am desperate to not default on my house. I haven't had money for food in some time, so I have been using the little credit I had left, but that is now exhausted. I used my house money to pay for my my other bills, so now it is time to pay my 1283.00 house note, but I don't have the money.
I went from 100% paying all my bills on time to now defaulting on some accounts, and feeling worthless. I had to cancel my home warranty and my accidental home insurance which was my safety net as a homeowner. I have paid 16 years on my life insurance, but had to let that lapse as well. The only thing I can do is to continue to pray and ask for help from the world at large.
I understand that my problems are my problems, but I hear, "if you need help ask" or "you aren't weak for asking"- so I have asked, for nearly six months I have asked. Rejection makes one strong, and I sure have felt rejected. I would be so thankful for any donations. I can make $10.00 go a long way for food.
Please consider sharing my GoFundMe link https://www.gofundme.com/f/disconnexion in your communities online and offline. I really appreciate the effort in helping me find donors. Again, I want to express how grateful I am for those that have made a donation.
Psalm 46:1 "God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble."
22 March 2024 This month, unfortunately, no donations have come in, and I'm still struggling financially. As my mental and physical health has been improving, I've been able to actively seek employment, but unfortunately, none of my submitted applications have resulted in opportunities yet. My faith in God is what gives me the ability to cope and the courage to keep reaching out for assistance. I know God is also working in others, guiding them here with an open heart to help. I urge everyone to look within and find a shred of empathy.
Please consider donating or sharing my link and story to help me find donors with the ability and willingness to assist. Even a small donation of five dollars can make a significant difference, as it can feed me for a few days or go towards refilling my much needed medicine. Thank you for your support and consideration during this difficult time.
Isaiah 41:10 "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand."
15 March 2024 I was reminded today that others in the world have it much worse than me. Of course they do, but that doesn't in any way, make my life less tragic, nor does it change the way my brain works. A few months back, a relative by marriage made a public post-whether aimed at me or not- I don't know. She said, "everyone has had childhood trauma, get over it." It was a mean thing to say to anyone dealing with trauma. Not everyone, including me, has had support in their life.
I thank God for protecting me and providing for me throughout my life. With gratitude and humility, I recognize that I have been spared from many dangerous situations through the years. There but for the grace of God go I. God is giving me the strength to continue living and asking for help. I pray that God will open some hearts that can relieve me of this financial burden, so I am able to pay for basic needs.
I am encouraged, as a believer, to have faith and trust in God's ability to accomplish extraordinary things in my life, beyond what I can conceive or request. It reminds me that through the power of the Holy Spirit working within me, God is capable of exceeding my expectations and accomplishing His plans.
Thank you to those that have made donations that have allowed me to survive over the last five months. A special thank you to the one that suggested I create a GoFundMe. Please donate and pray that others will donate. I would very much appreciate it if you would share this link within your communities, whether offline or online.
Ephesians 3:20 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us."
08 March 2024 I don't feel as hopeless, and suicidal, as I did in these past weeks and months. I was not able to pay the minimum payments on two accounts equal to $471 last week, and now the minimum is $982; these accounts will just have to go into default. My debt has skyrocketed to well over $20,000 from the interest on all of the accounts over the last 6 months that I have been asking -begging- for help.
I still have hope that I can get help from some generous donors to pay off some of my other suffocating debt of slightly over $9,918. I am grateful for every contribution, as they have been able to provide me with food, utilities, and medical insurance these last months. I have not been able to buy any more medicine since 30 September 2023, so I have been using it only in dire circumstances.
I don't know what will happen in the coming weeks since very few are willing to donate even $5 which could by me food for a few days. Please continue to pray for me. Share this link in your communities online and off. I continue to listen to the whispers from God that he will provide and never give up hope. One way God provides is by making it possible for others to help. I get discouraged, but then I recall what I have been through, and what I have accomplished along the way to get to where I am right now.
Romans 12:6-8 "We have different gifts, according to the grace given to each of us. If your gift is prophesying, then prophesy in accordance with your faith; if it is serving, then serve; if it is teaching, then teach; if it is to encourage, then give encouragement; if it is giving, then give generously; if it is to lead, do it diligently; if it is to show mercy, do it cheerfully."
29 February 2024 In the wake of my mother's passing this past week, I find myself struggling with overwhelming emotions and an insurmountable financial crisis. The continued absence of family support has magnified the weight of my burdens, leaving me feeling isolated and vulnerable. Despite reaching out for assistance, I've received support from very few, compounding the challenges I already face.
I want to express that I am extremely thankful for the eight people that have donated, and those that have donated multiple times to keep me going.
However, with each passing day, the financial strain grows more suffocating, casting a shadow of uncertainty over my future. The job market remains merciless, offering little respite in the midst of my struggles. I am now maxed out on credit, and I just have to trust that God will provide my basic necessities.
Your generosity has the power to change my dire circumstances and provide a glimmer of hope amidst the darkness. Your contributions, no matter how small, can make a world of difference in alleviating the burden I carry. If you are not able to help financially, please help through sharing and prayer.
2 Corinthians 1:3-4 "Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of compassion and the God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves receive from God."
21 February 2024 Things are spiraling downward, but I am trying to stay positive. I have applied for some jobs, but it is difficult to find anything considering the state of my mental health and age. When times get tough, I often think about what Jesus said about giving and how it comes back to you, overflowing even. It's like the idea that being kind to those in need brings blessings in return. And then there's Jesus's teachings about helping out people in trouble—it's all about being there for each other, treating others like we'd want to be treated. So, if you're able to lend a hand by donating to my GoFundMe, it's not just helping me out—it's showing that kindness and community can make a real difference.
Acts 20:35 "In everything I did, I showed you that by this kind of hard work we must help the weak, remembering the words the Lord Jesus himself said: ‘It is more blessed to give than to receive.'"
13 February 2024 Dear God, In this time of need, I humbly come before you, seeking your guidance and provision. You know the challenges I face, the burdens weighing heavy on my heart. Lord, I ask for your divine intervention in my financial situation. Send forth your angels to touch the hearts of those who have the means to help. Open their eyes to see my struggle and open their hearts to extend a helping hand. Bless them abundantly for their generosity and kindness.
Grant me strength and patience as I wait upon your timing, knowing that you are always faithful to provide. Help me to continue to trust in your plans and to remain steadfast in prayer.
May your grace surround me, Lord, as I navigate through this uncertainty. May I find peace in knowing that you are my provider and sustainer, and that you will never forsake me.
Thank you, Lord, for hearing my prayer. I surrender my worries and fears into your loving hands, trusting that you will answer according to your perfect will.
In Jesus' name, Amen.
1 Peter 5:7 "Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you."
09 February 2024 Thank you for those that have helped me survive these last months. The hurt I am feeling from the lack of compassion in the world is getting to be more than I can handle. I am trying to hold on, while, a permanent solution for a temporary problem echoes in my mind. I don't know what else to do or how I can survive this overwhelming debt. When it was suggested to me to create a GoFundMe, I should have listened to my instincts that the world is uncaring for a nobody like me. I can only trust that whatever I do is God's will.
1 John 2:17 "The world and its desires pass away, but whoever does the will of God lives forever."
08 February 2024 God help me. Ephesians 2:8 "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—"
01 February 2024 It's February 1st; I am feeling hopeless and helpless. I will continue to listen to the whispers of God in all areas of my life, and heed the advice of my doctor. It is sometimes a moment at a time, but I have faith that I will make it through these crises.
1 John 3:17 "If anyone has material possessions and sees a brother or sister in need but has no pity on them, how can the love of God be in that person?"
26 January 2024 I'm dealing with significant financial strain, and it's disheartening to realize the lack of compassion in the world. It's a lonely struggle, trying to overcome financial difficulties without the support I had hoped for.
I've set a goal of $20,000, and your help, even with a modest contribution of $5, $10, or any amount you can, brings me closer to overcoming this tough time. In a world that can often feel indifferent, your empathy will stand out. Your contribution plays a direct role in addressing immediate needs and making a meaningful impact. I understand that some choose to donate anonymously, perhaps it is embarrassing to be associated with the topic of my campaign. Your support, in any form, is crucial.
Thank you for any contribution to my cause. While there are over 200 million adults in the U.S. and over 4 billion adults worldwide, it's discouraging to face the reality that, despite the vast number of people who could potentially help, the support I need remains elusive. It would only take 400 people to donate $50 and my goal would be met. Alternatively, it would take only 200 amazing individuals to donate $100 to see past the horizon. Even with a modest $5 donation, collectively 4000 individuals could change my life. It doesn't seem out of reach. I can only pray.
Matthew 5:42 "Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one who wants to borrow from you."
20 January 2024 I want to express my sincere gratitude to those who have already contributed to my fundraiser. Your support means more to me than words can convey.
As I navigate through these challenging times, I find myself in a situation that requires assistance, and I have humbly reached out to you for help. My goal is to raise $20,000 to address this overwhelming debt that is causing me severe distress. While I've tried to stay positive and hopeful, the reality is that I am still a considerable distance from reaching my target.
If everyone who has seen my GoFundMe had donated even $20, we would have surpassed the goal already. I understand that times are tough for everyone, and I appreciate the kindness and generosity of those who have contributed. If you haven't had the opportunity to donate yet, I kindly ask you to consider making a contribution.
Every dollar brings me closer to the support I need. Your generosity has the power to make a significant impact on my situation, and I am grateful for any help you can provide. Please share this message with others who might be willing to contribute. Thank you for being a source of hope during this challenging time.
Proverbs 3:27 Do not withhold good from those to whom it is due, when it is in your power to act.
12 January 2024 In my journey to find solace and purpose, I poured my heart into writing a self-discovery book. While the dream of book sales solving my outstanding debt is hopeful, the impact of your donations is deeply appreciated. Grateful for those who've touched my life with their generosity.
For more details, visit my Amazon author's page: https://amazon.com/author/abbye
Proverbs 19:17 Whoever is kind to the poor lends to the Lord, and he will reward them for what they have done.
09 January 2024 I am remaining hopeful with prayer that my fundraiser will reach people that are able and willing to donate. I am doing my best to concentrate on projects (like the one attached) to stay busy, so I don't worry. I know God is with me, and fighting my battles for me. I often get reminders, and this bible verse was right there waiting for me to see today! I am grateful for every donation.
Galatians 6:9 "Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time, we will reap a harvest if we do not give up."
01 January 2024 Struggling to find the words, but reaching out for support. I've always been told that if you need help, you should ask. So here I am, asking. I'm running thin on hope, trying to hang on, and it's incredibly hard. I don't understand. Please help me understand.
It feels like billions of people could care less that I'm suffering—maybe they don't know about my struggle, maybe they don't care. If you have the ability to advocate for me and you don't, you will answer to God—this I know.
I felt judged as so many turned their back on me when they read my detailed story. Because of this, I removed a lot of details. It's now a much watered-down version, but the full story is on repeat in my head.
Psalm 34:18 "The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit."
Matthew 11:28 "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest."
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